Do you have any phobias that you hate yourself for having? Ever since I was little I've been unnerved by most bugs. Spiders, crickets, centipedes, roaches; almost anything that's not an ant, bee, or fly. When I was younger my mom would make fun of me for hesitating to kill spiders and stuff. When my sister was little she would always get me to kill spiders, I didn't hesitate then because I didn't want to look like a bitch in front of her and those have been the only times I wasn't bothered by them.
Crabs kinda bother me as well, but at least they're edible. I nearly stepped on one at the beach as a kid thinking it was a rock, caught me off guard seeing it scurry away like that.
>>38512430
And I just noticed that I misspelled embarrassing, wonderful.
>>38512430
>When my sister was little she would always get me to kill spiders, I didn't hesitate then because I didn't want to look like a bitch in front of her and those have been the only times I wasn't bothered by them
That's so cute! How's your relationship with her now?
>>38512479
She's a half sister actually, lives with my dad. Parents were never married. I haven't seen her in a few years and she's still pretty young, but we've got a good relationship.
>>38512519
Please call her and let her know you love her and visit her if you can, I'm sure she misses you.
>irrationally scared of people I'm close to dying or otherwise going away
>resolved this by never getting emotionally close to anyone
>life is shit either way
>>38512608
She's in Jamaica with my dad right now and I leave for college next month. But I might call her tomorrow. She's 8, I'm 18, and our older sister's 21. I'm texting the older one right now. I'll see what I can do about visiting, but I can't promise anyone anything.
>>38512671
Tell the older one you love her right now! Is she full-blooded sister?
>>38512684
Half as well.
>>38512658
That's not the answer, anon. Face your fears and make connections with people.
>>38512700
>That's not the answer, anon. Face your fears and make connections with people.
It's too late now, I'm almost 31 and I just can't trust anyone, it's been so long. Maybe in the next life I'll have a little more luck.
>>38512700
>That's not the answer
and making connections and losing them is?
im not the guy u replied to but i have been left by those that i love and the pain of that is immense
i eventually started coping by refusing to let myself get too emotionally attached to people, and i have been ultimately happier ever sincealthough i would be happier if i could attach myself to somebody and them not leaving me, but that's as realistic as me becoming rich tomorow
gonna kms soon anyways
>>38512430
IM AFRAID OF DEATH
>>38512783
If that's what makes you happy then I guess I can't argue. I don't know what I could say to keep you from killing yourself, but I really wish I did.
>>38512790
Same here, I just try not to think about it. If I died right now I'd probably to go to hell for not being religious enough.