How are you?

>>38510984
I'm fine. Never really liked Linkin Park that much, always thought they were kind of lame and soft with their music. Sad that he's dead though.

>>38510984
been better

I just wish I knew where to meet girls and had the confidence to talk to them.

Have a link to the last one of these? Need to take a screenshot to thank an anon.

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>>38510984
I am angurry

>>38512211

Here you go, anon. Mind sharing what exactly happened?
>>38487096

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>>38512230
It was the reply to this

I've never had any problem with it and have been with them but also started feeling a little weird about noone without gender disphoria being interested and basically thinking maybe its like im a last ditch effort (even though I admit that is mean and unnecessarily puts a negative light on trans people possibly) but that anons reply framed it in a way I never thought of and I just wanted to say thanks.

So if that anon is here thank you for helping me think of it like that.

>>38512198
Try meeting people online first to at least build some texting skills

>>38510984
It's raining, I'm depressed.

>tfw they never want to voice chat or watch things together anymore

>>38510984
lsoIated

>>38513975
I love the rain so much. Everytime I'm depressed as shit I hope for it to rain so bad and it usually does and then I can be /comfy sad/ while listening to the rain

very high senpai

neva gona stop till the day I die

I just quit my job, I feel fantastic!

Meet a girl last weekend, we kissed and she gave me a handjob and couldn't get her hands out of my penis (that shit was pretty awkward to be honest).

The thing is that I invited her to smoke some weed today, I did not wanted to go, suddenly I felt like I shouldn't do that. Today she cancelled me and I felt pretty comfortable.

But now I'm sad again because I realised I'll be lonely for ever with no mommy GF and shit, right now im fucking high and sad for stupid shit, I hate this sudden mood switches that last for a week and shit, fuck myself

>>38510984
Shit. Complete shit. All day, everyday. That's all I got to look forward to. I exist for nothing. I am the designated trash man of the world. I've accepted this.

I'm feeling just tired enough to be able to fall asleep if I lay down without moving for like an hour, so that's what I'm going to do. That's what I've been doing every single night. As soon as I feel the faintest hit of tiredness I fuck off into bed. I feel no pleasure. I don't care about anything. Sleep is all I got left.

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Pretty awful. I realized how much of a narcissist I am today. Even got a "i love you so much we'll get married" clingy gf to boot. Some days, I really don't give a shit about her, and would rather go an entire day of not talking to her.

I've been wanting to look around for a comfy religion to have or a mindset to purge this negativity from. Picked up the Hagakure once more (Read it three times in middle/high school, I'm mid 20s now) in order to... I guess remember who I really am? As for the religion, I was thinking about Shamanism. Just the idea of yelling and playing drums fucked up and seeing a animal spirit that I relate to sounds cool.

I thought I quit drugs, but I had a beer and two cigarettes today. Was the best damn beer I ever had (It was shitty bud ice but after not having one for a week it was bliss). Also masturbated again after 4 days. Time to try again.

I just want to be better, you know? I want to be able to wake up and not feel like disappearing anymore.

>>38515015
shouldn't have quit your job andrew

>>38510984
pretty shit, posted this on /adv/ and got no replies

>she had some problems a few days ago, period
>we talk a bit after this and i ask her to go out
>"nah anon, i don't want to go outside for the rest of the week"
>mutual friend invites us both to go outside in a group
>there's 5 of us, including her and me
>she doesn't really give a shit about me, she talks with her friend a lot more than with me
>im pissed
>"aight, what the fuck, you said you're not going outside and then you went out today"
>"anon, i had "problems" so we (my gf and her friend) didn't go outside for a long time and she was getting mad so i agreed to go out"
>"we haven't went outside togheter alone for a long time either"
>"sorry"
>"fine"
>pissed even more since that "sorry" means fuck all
>day 1 passes, not a single word or text between us, nothing
>day 2, she sends me a pic, i ignore it, she asks me if i want to go outside along with one of her friends
>refuse
>day 3, again, she asks if i want to go outside with one of her friends
>refuse

i have a feeling she'll ask me again today, should i agree? should i ghost her some more or what should i do? if she eventually asks me to go outside alone only with her it'll be just so im not pissed off at her anymore, which will just end up making even angrier

>>38515104

Haha wallow in your misery you degenerate.

If we're just counting today, I'm alright. Overall I'm pretty miserable, but that's normal.

Even though my life is shit I usually am kinda content I guess. I don't know what kind of future I'll have. I'm a khhv closet faggot who lives at home and has no friends but somehow I usually don't fall into depression. Still feel really shitty a lot though.

>>38510984
>be 11-13
>think the pokemon anime is the best drawn thing ever
>fast forward to 29
>realize it looks shit (not that I could draw any better)

>>38510984
You've become

So numb

Can you feel me, there?

Become so tired

So much more aware

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>>38510984
Smug as always.

I'm so high and tired, probably gonna sleep soon.

>>38516735
Ghost for a bit anon.