25+

>it is another mom goes to visit granny who cannot remember her own name or anything again
>tfw mom is limiting herself
>was on facebook 24/7
>deleted it because of 'drama'
>now does not know what to do anymore and just wants to be one with nature again because computers are evil because they do not show people the /real/ world - but i still need to use a comp for work
she is going downhill at age 53

I'm the same as you but I'm not a filthy NEET.

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>tfw 28 live with mum
>she's gone and I have the house to myself
>tfw it's a porn with my pants down kind of day

>tfw have to pay child support
>working at a dead end job
>ex-wife remarried with a indian guy

Fuck my life.

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>Pretty much every single time I turn on the fan and feel a gust of wind I'm filled with nostalgia
I really wish I could go back to when I was 19
Why did I fuck it all up, jesus, I wasted the "best years of my life" on fucking nothing

>5th year aeronautical engineering student
>ripe age of 25
>life's not that bad after my mental illness went into remission
>learning to game dev on the side

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>unemployed
>spent 6 years getting a degree I haven't been able to use yet
>spent time and energy and money for nothing
>broke as fuck and living at home with parents
>all i wanted was some money to engage in my hobbies
>don't know if I should go back and do more school or what I should study
>barely sleep 2-4 hours midday and stay up all night
>feel uselsss and pathetic and a disappointment to my parents
>feel completely directionless and have no idea what to do next
>no longer have any motivation to do anything
>tfw no friends and barely leave the house while people my age are traveling building careers and getting married
>just constantly thinking about killing myself
>can't get the idea of killing myself out of my head

>>38482992
>fell for the marriage meme
you have noone to blame but urself

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>26
>moving out again to finish my degree at my old school
>looking forward to this, been exercising, though I am not where I want to be yet
>going to a music fest this weekend with my oneitis ex-gf
>probably going to regret that, but I will enjoy the music atleast
>going to be working until school starts, and then have a good school year I hope
>gonna start distancing myself from the oneitis because I can't get over her interacting with her
>just want to be happy, and be happy with someone I care about who also cares about me
>being fulfilled elsewhere in life feels hollow since being broken up with, its all basically a means to try and reach feelings like that again

I think my life has peaked and it is all downhill from here.

>>38483046
The regret is bitter,
The sting harsh.
But remember there is more than one way to the top of the mountain.
If you realize what's going wrong and love the truth, there's still time left.

>>38484171
Get a job as a security guard and ask for night shifts or something. It's easy as fuck and you stand to make a little above min wage depending on your state/province.
I ended up getting hired by the hospital I was working at and made 2x the money. 25 now and I've got 40kCAD saved and a full time IT helpdesk monkey job with comfy benefits.
What's the degree in?

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>Working 2 jobs
>50 hours
>Getting day drunk before a 14 hour day.

>>38484277
mate your life is awesome by far better than us, i've never kissed a women, NEVER EVER, at least you have an ex.

>>38484373
Be careful with a long-term nighshifts. It fucks with your health bad.

T. security personnel.

>>38484456
I'm working nights this month, 4x10hrs on 3 days off. I like it better desu

>>38484493
I like them better too. But they will fuck with your health anyways.

>>38484447
Yeah I know it is good, just I miss my apathy from before that I had compared to the actual bad feelings I have nowadays.

I haven't had anything to do lately so I think that plays into it a lot, looking forward to starting my job up and school to take my mind off of things and possibly try to meet girls?

I think I will fail at that but I have some things going for me. Slowly working on my body, and got a nice apartment near campus.
Can't help but think I might be too old for the girls starting college now? That things with my ex were just a fluke and its the heavens playing a sick joke.
Hopefully things get better though, I am feeling pretty optimistic the closer I get to moving.

I hope things improve for you anon. I know shit is hard and "be urself" advice is trash, but if you put yourself out there a bunch and work on yourself I bet you could find someone. Good luck.

>move out into super small studio
>basically a giant bedroom with a kitchen
>keep rearranging furniture every week
>never satisfied

should have sprung for the 1 bedroom

>>38484373

business/accounting.

i hate working dumb jobs. the whole reason i went for such a job getting degree is i hated working shit retail job. being security is incredibly lonely and just further highlights my isolation. I actually got the license to be a security officer and have done it. For 8 hours all I can think of is "6 years wasted"

>>38484582
Oh I get it so you're an entitled ((((college graduate)))) who thought his jewish meme degree guaranteed a 6-figure income with no marketable skills or work experience. I was trying to be helpful but you probably should just kys

anyone here in this situation?

>almost 30
>working 60 hours a week
>saving for a flat, but need a couple more years
>family harasses me telling me I need to sign up for uni and finish it

they do this at the start of every semester, so I sign up and go to classes 6 days a week. when I'm in the classroom I just fall asleep to get some rest or get some work done for my boss on my laptop. I don't have enough energy or free time to study but I doing this every year to keep them off my back

I pretty much spent all my free time for the past 6 years inside a classroom

>>38484456
>>38484493
>>38484373
I did night shift security dispatch for 6 years then went to day shift.

I regret it. The whole office is full of people coming in and out of the dispatch center. It's nice that everything's open but the traffic is god awful compared to comfy night shift traffic. Every time I leave the office and pass someone I'm expected to engage in small talk. It's a robot's nightmare. Maybe that's what you meant by bad for your health because I'd rather be left alone. The first few years of nights were rough, I'd smoke a lot of weed to fall asleep during the day, eventually adding drinking too. After those years I started getting my act together and lost like 100lbs and decided it was time to switch to days...

Thinking about going back to nights for another year until my apartment lease is up and then get another job in a new town. I just think all the day people are going to judge me for going back. I guess I shouldn't care because I'll never see them much after I swapped back. Also the job is way easier/less busy at night for the same pay.

>>38484782
that's why I like it senpai
>no road traffic coming or going
>only 1 other colleague and the security guard in the building
>fewer/shorter calls
>get weekends off if I do the early week rotation
I don't really give a shit about IT anyway so I'm not worried about ""getting noticed and moving up in the company"". If I volunteer for I would even curry favor with management anyway b/c nobody really likes doing it

>>38484727
Trade school yo.

>>38484909
Yeah I keep trying to convince myself to switch back. There's an open position on nights again and the new hire is probably going to go there soon after he's done training.

But it comes down to what you were saying:
>get weekends off
Yeah but I hear myself say that but every day off for night shift is just that I'm up all night as usual. Nothing special about my days off. I just sit inside on the computer or watch tv.

I guess I could say I have more options on my days off during the day shift but I keep doing the same thing... right now It's 7 and I'm about to have a couple beers and dick around on the internet.

I think I'm doomed to be a loser no matter what shift I work. At least night shift would be easier for the money, at the cost of comfy sunlight.

>>38485029
I've considered that but never really looked it. right now my only goal is to get my own flat, my family is driving me crazy

>>38485130
Whatever good path you choose, good luck dude.

>>38484582
>i hate working dumb jobs
Bad news m8
Every job is basically a dumb job. You're always a cog in the greater machine

>>38484381
rip my nigga. Please get some rest

Level 27 virgin here.
What ability do I unlock at level 28?

>>38481471
she's right, though
you'd be better off

>>38486116
Virgin Walk upgrades to the Virgin Dash skill.

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>>38486146
Nice, I'll finally be able to go places.

I met my high school crush today by chance after around 10 years and we engaged in a short small talk. While I was generally wasting my life, she got married, moved away, finished college and had a kid, with a second on the way. She was objectively 5 or 6/10 but I'm weak to a certain kind of look so I really thought she's very pretty back then. She hasn't changed almost at all; I guess I haven't either since she recognized me pretty much immediately, just like I did her.

It seems like I've gotten completely over her, wasn't feeling any faster heartbeat or whatever when I saw her, but she had her daughter with her, cute as a button. The kid even said hello to me, looking up in that bashful way small children use towards strangers. That was what stung me a bit - hopeless virgin here, wizard certificate very soon - maybe that's why so many people settle down eventually and want to have children of their own. I'm bad with kids and I know I'd hate taking care of a child for years without a break but damn if I didn't think for a second or two it'd be nice to have a daughter like that.

The one thing I hate about encounters like this is the small talk and the inevitable topics of what college did you go to, where do you work and did you hear about other people from our high school.

So how was your day robots?

And fuck this slow ass gay captcha that takes longer to verify than writing this whole fucking post.

>>38486746
>The one thing I hate about encounters like this is the small talk and the inevitable topics of what college did you go to, where do you work and did you hear about other people from our high school.

That shit sucks even more if you decide to meet up with an old friend and you became one of the wierd loser guys while everyone else continued their way to normie land.

I didn't go to my ten year reunion but I called a high school buddy up to play pool and maybe some video games.

He brought his gf and laughed at me after he asked me how much I make and I told him($12/hour). We played some pool and did some drinking, but his gf was an annoying bitch and hated me or something and basically complained the whole night she wanted to do something else.

I did better academically than him and most people at my high school (ranked 5-20/950 while I was in high school), but it didn't matter. Real life is a popularity contest just like high school was. He was pretty popular and now he's making 70-120k/year with an economics degree.

Maybe he'll get married to that crazy roastie bitch and have to go thru a mess divorce or something. That would make life seem a bit more fair.

>>38486746
I had food poisoning last night, so today was pretty awful. Hoping I feel better tomorrow. About to go to bed.

Your story hit me in the feels. It's really hard at 31 to meet up with people you used to know and they have families and whole lives, versus I have nothing. I have a good job, but everything else is shit. I have nobody. End of the day I could pack my entire life into my car.

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>>38486943
>I didn't go to my ten year reunion
I think I might have been left off the list. I guess that's what happens when you don't talk to anyone from high school and don't have facebook or any social media.

I guess I wouldn't have gone anyways. I was a weirdo, and still am.

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I am 2 years into wizard hood. Please kill me.

>28
>can't finish degree because owe the uni $4000 for last semester
>moved back home with mom b/c no job
>sister says she can get me a job making +$100K a year if i can just finish my degree
>literally can't
>student loan payments about to start

>>38487038
>I think I might have been left off the list.
This.
Apparently there was a 5 years reunion but nobody ever gave me a notice because I wasn't on normiebook or something. Of course they still had my home's phone number so even if I moved away, they could try to talk with my parents but of course if you're not on a normiebook, you don't exist. I wasn't even an outcast or anything, just a somewhat weird kid who was still talking with people.
I have no idea if there was a 10 years reunion and I really don't care.

>>38484627
Hey bub

I expect to earn more (not a lot more) than some asshole who has done the same job since high school and got promoted to "manager" or "supervisor" because he has done [insert brainless and routine simple task that can be learned in a week here] for years. I usually end up doing a better job than the manager and whenever I end up in a job that doesn't require any sort of degree. But I get paid less because an autistic interpretation of "experience" is all that matters.

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just fuck my shit up familys. i recently felt the effects of 27 neet

basically i somehow landed a date with the hottest girl thats ever talked to me, we had fun and smoked weed. I try to text her next day: "sorry you arent what im looking for I want someone further along in life"

>tfw i tried texting her everyday after that anyways
>tfw it wasnt succesful
>tfw i blew my only shot

then
>tfw you wasted multiple years of your life that you will never get back and you will never get a decent girl friend because of this

>>38487038
I just searched for it online.

But yeah, o
ther than a small mention in the local newspaper, it was entirely organized and promoted on normiebook. I dont have a profile on normiebook

>>38482926
>tfw you're 28 and feeling the same way I did when I was 15

I've been jerking it freely since I was 20

>26
>shitty min wage job
>useless degree
>all the people I went to high school/college with all have careers/families
>no gf ever, still virgin
>slowly beginning the realize the lie that things aren't going to get better, that this is all ever have
>don't even care about women anymore, I look at them and feel nothing
Is this what it's like to become a wizard?

>>38487170

It's just 1 girl dude it's not like they are all going to think exactly like she does
Also she sounds memed.

>>38487170

No shit you're a 27 year old jobless weed smoking loser. She smokes weed so isn't much of a catch either.

and this new captcha is going to make me quit this place for good finally

>36 yo still living with parents
>dad is dying
>mom is going senile
>had 1 job, over 15 years ago (was fired because the bosses daughter thought I had stolen money from her, it wasn't me, but I didn't care enough to try and fight it.)
>was married now divorced because she cheated on me
>went to jc, dropped out after a year because of bad anxiety
>was agorophobic for 7 years of my life so those are pretty much down the drain
>I can leave the house now but not without getting several panic attacks a day
>been impotent for the last year (porn does nothing anymore)
>am getting old
>too scared to an hero

>>38487351
Yeah but I want to change I've just never had reason to. She had a pretty unique situation herself aka raising her dead beat exs daughter half way with the real mother. I really don't understand why I was cut off so soon when we had fun and laughed irl

i bet she is going to get involved with some scumbag with a job that will cheat any given chance

>>38487224
>implying all women aren't variations of the same theme
Nigger, what are you doing?

>>38487433
The death of parents is really the biggest breakdown point in a NEET's life, isn't it? I'm a few years younger and my parents still hold on a bit but they're getting to the age when if something happens, they can be gone within months. It's really scary.

>>38487486

>I don't understand why I was cut off

It doesn't matter she doesn't want to be with you end of story move on

>I bet she's gonna blah blah blah resentment resentment

Jesus Christ dude have some self respect.

>>38487569
you normalshit get the fuck oUTTTTTTTTTTT

>>38487486
>get involved with some scumbag with a job
You're the piss of shit who can't even get a job. Even fucking 16 yo can get a job stacking shelves
>I want to change but I've never a reason to
This is why you're a loser. 99% of guys are smart enough to realize they need to go out and improve to attract women. And yet, you have the audacity to complain she doesn't wanna date you. Kys.

>>38487620
He's right though, agonizing over the rejection will do nothing good for you.

>>38487569
>>38487626
>>38487655
so whats my strategy on getting her back boys??

>>38487685

Stop getting memed by women.

>>38487685
It is over, it is important to be able to realize when that is the case.
I am >>38484277 and still crave my ex but you just gotta understand that not everything good works out.

You seem pretty cool and caring, just work on yourself, get a job and find someone better than her.

>>38487685
You don't. Get a job and try again with a different girl, or keep whining on /r9k/ about how women are evil, for all the good that does you

>>38487731

They are evil to be honest though

>>38487731
Im not a misogynist but i think women are evil tho.

>>38487788
Yeah but in today's gynocentric society they're an evil that can't be avoided. You've got to learn how to deal with them.

>>38487788
>>38487825
They aren't evil it's just that they have all the power and all the value while males have none. An ant probably thinks that you're evil when you spray ant poison into the colony he built in your backyard but you couldn't even really give a passing fuck about the ant's life really, you're not killing him because you're evil, just because the ant is an inconvenience in your life.
You're the ant, and women are you.

>>38483046
WHY DID MY PARENTS LET ME PLAY VIDEOGAMES AS A CHILD?

WHY WASNT I FORCED TO PLAY SPORTS AND INTERACT WITH OTHER KIDS?

WHY WHY WHY WHY REEEEEEEEEEEE!

>>38487894

Dumb analogy first of all I don't spray ants.
Second of all even if I did, to the ant I would just be a force of nature.
Forces of nature aren't evil or good they are just devastatingly neutral. A hurricane doesn't care what is in it's path it just does what it does.

Women are different they aren't merely a force of nature they are people.

>>38487942

Several reasons first of all it was just a lot easier to let you play video games because they didn't have to deal with you. They buy you the game and you leave them alone.
Secondly they probably fell for SCIENCE! memes and rationalized that it was good for you because it was making your brain skills better or something. We see how all that turned out.

>>38487723
>>38487731

but I NEED to make her give me a second chance I know that I will not meet another girl like her. If i had to go for the hail mary message would would i say

>25
>finished medical school, currently in radiology residency
>residency colleagues are a bunch of arrogant pricks who love to show off
>can't get studying out of my head because of that
>weekdays consist of staying at the hospital the whole day then going home to study until it's time to sleep
>kissless virgin, did I mention that?
>most friends from college are getting married

I feel trapped. I have an urgent need to study and learn every day, yet I sometimes feel that by worrying excessively about that I'm wasting my youth. I like to try out new stuff, but whenever I do it I punish myself thinking that I should be studying.

>>38488107
>hi anonette
>plz plz go out with me
>I'm so lonely I know I'll never meet another girl like you again
>you have to go out with me
>Plz respond
Try that

>>38488107

You are an absolute idiot my dude.
This is the kind of stuff 15 year old do.
Your life isn't a sitcom she's not a character in a movie just leave her alone.
She's not even that great. She's like 6/10 at best and is fucking annoying and stupid.

There is no hail mary message dumbass. Women don't care about words or thinking they only judge based on power and actions.
You can say anything you want in the message and you already lost b/c you sent a message in the first place.

Turning 30 next month and my life is shit. It can't get any worse right?

>>38488113
You chose tomorrow over today. Like, did you even expect to have a life while being in med school?

And you're probably some greasy Indian med student anyway. Just ask mom and dad for an arranged marriage senpai.

>>38488179
:( that was hurtful. are you suggesting i had no chance from the start??

>>38488290

How can I possibly know that?
The point is that it doesn't matter now.

>>38487981
>Women are different they aren't merely a force of nature they are people.
They are people or rather the consciousness of a person bolted on top of a force of nature - that force being the reproductive imperative. A woman is also devastatingly neutral, following the natural instinct of reproductive drive, which is hypergamy. In a sense she also "just does what she does", not knowing that you're dealing with a force of nature when interacting with a woman is grounds for confusion, failure and dejection. In other words, treating a woman purely as a person is bluepilled.

>>38488234
Nope, not Indian brah

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>>38481416
>Turned 26 today
>Finally got back into Medicine career after a year of Pre medical bullshit
>Still studying with people that were recently out of highschool
>Yearly birthday blues today
>Family wanted to make the usual pity birthday party
>Turn them down
>Starting to feel guitly about it
>Normie friends expect me to do something this weekend.
>Not even sure what to do.


Life is good and all.
But I don't know why I get so down on my birthdays.

>>38488561

Women are not devastatingly neutral they are devastatingly biased for the dominance hierarchy which is what makes them memes and why some people theorize that they aren't actually sentient.

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>graduated 8 years ago
holy fuck it seems like it was last year lads. actually, those 8 years didn't seem like years, it seemed like a continuous month with changing seasons.

what sucks is that things seem less magical. I used to go into the woods and feel the tree's presence and feel at one with nature,now it's just dull and i get no stimulation from it.

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>tfw you're not sure if you're actually happier being a loner or if it's just that you've been in a solitary state for so long that Stockholm Syndrome has set in and you've convinced yourself that you're better off this way, thus avoiding having to change your habits and lifestyle and maintaining your "low-to-no" effort approach towards life

haha

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How true is this? i feel the effects

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>>38489475
It explains soundly how stress and loneliness can build up and affect the neurochemestry
The last paragraphs are don't bother trying, everyone is better than you bullshit you see posted here everyday tho.

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>tfw 27 but already turning into a cynical, crotchety old man in spirit

>would literally spend my freetime rocking back and forth on a swing on a porch and waving a cane at kids if I had said objects

>>38484171
Oi I ws just in the same ahoe as you a couple months ago. Then I become a wagecuck and its more depressing than being a neet. But at least you wil be making some money. Hang in there robot

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What would you tell your 20 year old self?

>>38491322
Going to the state university is a waste of time also get those feeling blue periods checked.

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>>38491322
You aren't going to find a medication that gives you the motivation and direction you're so desperately looking for. That has to come from you yourself. No pill will provide that for you. Don't try ECT; it will fuck up your memory and cognition.

Enjoy playing video games while you still can. Without anything else to do with your time, they will start to feel like a chore. You'll stare at your backlog, shrug, and just end up watching Twitch streams and Youtube Let's Plays instead.

Try to finish a degree in something. I know all you can handle is liberal arts-y subjects that you don't really care about, but it will still be better to graduate with something instead of dropping out.

Fucking find a job, any job, and stick with it. You need to build up some discipline and work ethic. Don't get comfortable being unemployed because your mind and body will deteriorate and your parents aren't going to be around forever to protect you from the consequences of your poor decision-making.

>>38488187
It'll get worse as you go past 40.

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>tfw sitting on back deck contemplating where it all went wrong

Thinking about buy some piece of shit car and then driving as far away as possible and seeing where I end up

>>38491322
Despite what you're telling yourself, you have no fucking idea what it's like to throw away all your chances in life and live for the bare minimum. Start putting in some work now so you don't have to overwork yourself for scraps later you lazy piece of shit.

>>38491322
Five years from now, you're going to be a virgin. End it now.

>>38491912
Why did you throw away your chances?

>28
>shitty life
>no point
>been fucked over by everyone I know at one point, even family
>give up on people
>meet cool girl, orbit for a while
>try to make move, get rejected.

Well that's it. I'm done with people. They are fucking morons and retards yet somehow they come into jobs or relationships because of dumb luck. This fucking game is rigged and I quit.

>>38484727
It's not a bad path to take if you can actually afford a place. I was going to work for a few years, buy an apartment, rent it out, and continue doing this. Unfortunately overtime dried up and I realized that I didn't want to live in my mom's basement until I was 40.

>>38487146
I hope to God I get invited to my 10 year reunion so I can just show off my money and shit. My aunt and uncle in law got invited to their ten year reunion and they didn't even graduate highschool, they literally both dropped out and had kids at age 19 and now they are both 30, they went to that reunion about 10 months ago I think, it was actually like a 11 year reunion but they called it a ten year reunion just to keep it traditional.

>>38484627
>who thought his jewish meme degree guaranteed a 6-figure income with no marketable skills or work experience

>chooses technical degree with utility
>says i have no marketable skills

no one said anything about a 6 figure salary, however after spending years studying and thousands of dollars I expect not to be doing retail or mindless jobs

The post was obviously bait anyway

>>38491322
buy bitcoins

you'll never be happy

>28
>live with mom on long island
>electrical engineering degree finished in 2014
>got job with state government agency as an "engineer"
>decent-ish pay but not really for NYC
>commute like 2 hours each way by train
>no real transferrable skills because super niche job
>sick of NY but cant really leave because of said lack of skills/engineering knowledge has dissipated

I guess I took this job because of the 4 offers I got it was the one which would least stress me out, I have major mental illness that I can barely keep in check with this relatively low stress job. But now I'm worrying I'm trapped in NY forever.

I make decent money and not paying rent helps, but it's not enough that I can just quickly save up and just move wherever the fuck I want and start over. My commute sucks and I have 12 hour days basically including the commute, so no real energy to do anything that would let me change career paths.

I'm not even going to get into my lack of a social life, that's another post entirely.

>>38491322
fuck uni, just get a job

alternatively, quit while you're ahead

>>38491816
20 yr old here,
thanks for the advice.

best of luck anon

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>26
>NEET, kissless virgin, living with parents, all the standard shit you'd see in someone who regulars this board daily.
>Gf committed suicide two years ago.
>Saw her hang herself.
>Haven't been able to hold a solid relationship since.
>Starting to fall in love with an adorable midget Asian girl I've known since high school.
>Try to drop hints like, "Well I think you're a great person/I admire you for z" and "I really look forward to talking to you tomorrow!"
>I don't want to lose her, so I may end up never pursuing her.
>We talk every day.
>I'm probably going to watch her find a bf and get married and move on.

Here I am, being kept up by regrets, about my old gf really. I found out she was cheating on me when she died when I was looking for her birthdate on her Facebook page a few weeks ago.

>>38492638

>kissless virgin
>gf

She wasn't your girlfriend and you never had a girlfriend dude. Sorry to break it to you.

>>38492152
It's easy to do nothing when you're a lazy piece of shit used to doing nothing.

holy shit this captcha is a fucking cancer
>five phases of clicking where street signs are
>OOPS YOU MADE ONE MISTAKE TIME TO DO FIVE NEW ONES
i'd sooner leave this site than buy your fucking 4chan premium pass or whatever it is you damn kikegook

>>38489402
You're better off that way. The pain of friends not being there when you need them is a terrible thing. Splendid isolation is the superior choice.

>>38492638
>kisless virgin
>gf
could you provide some further clarification on this

>>38492668
Probably makes more sense just to view it this way at this rate, regardless of how I know it rolled.

>>38492699
I used to be the "Save yourself for marriage" religious type. Not including kissing, I don't know how I went a year in a relationship with only hugging and holding hands and the little forehead kisses I'd give her. But my lips have never touched another woman's lips.

The relationship wasn't great or stable either way though, and she suffered with schizophrenia.

>>38492638
If you don't go after this Asian girl, you will never know if you try. I know there may be spaghetti, but it's your only hope aside from autistically throwing in the towl and REEEEEEEEEEEEE'ing at a rejection or failed attempt.

It's the only way you stand a chance, Anon.

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>>38492687
I wish I could agree with you, man. I envy people who can be legitimately happy without any sort of social support. But after ~15 years of social and emotional isolation, I kind of wish I had someone there to reassure me that life is worth living, and to distract me from my suicidal thoughts. I wish I could be an intrepid, stoic Ubermensch that would strive to persevere regardless of life's circumstances, but I just can't pull it off.

There are days when I wonder if I would have turned out differently had I not been teased and ostracized by my peers when I was very young. Had I not become bitter, cynical, and misanthropic before even starting middle school. Oh well. Can't change the past. Just gotta adapt as best I can. Or die.

>>38488956
>Women are not devastatingly neutral they are devastatingly biased for the dominance hierarchy
This.

Accept it and learn to manage it. Otherwise you're just a tourist in a foreign country screaming ever more loudly "WHERE...IS...THE...BATHROOM???"

Just broke my glasses while cleaning them. The frames are almost 20 years old, so it's not that much of a surprise that they snapped, but it still fucking sucks. Haven't been to the optometrist for new contacts in years because I didn't want to spend the money for an exam and a few boxes, and now I'm going to have to spend a lot more on a new pair of glasses. I'd finally starting to get a little ahead of my bills and just like that, my cushion is fucking wiped out again.

The time in between when things seem to be going alright for a change and when everything turns to shit just keeps on getting shorter.

>28
>NEET for the past 7 or 8 years
>On autism bux for the past 2
>Still live at home with mummy
>Diagnosed bipolar 2 and some other shit
>No friends
>Basically shut in
>Want to die

Any Canadians want to lend me a shotgun for a few minutes?

It is my 27th birthday today. 3 more years till wizardhood

>>38481416

i turned 30 in February. i wasted my whole twenties being socially anxious and depressed. lost contact with all my school friends years ago. quit my job because of anxiety. no gf since i was a teenager. slowly building up the courage to jump in front of a train even though i know a guy who jumped in front of a bus but survived and is now disabled. i want to talk to girls but can never think of anything to say and dont think theyd be interested in me so i never do it.

>25
>Live off shitty part time meat job
>Bad degree
>friends all make at least 60k
>Generally social but too depressed from my lack of progress in life and shitty job to be that enthusiastic about anything besides going to the gym
>Just want to lift and fight and turn my brain off

I wish I wasn't such a lazy faggot in college, dindu stem

I'm about to snap, lately i've been so angry at everyone, usually so calm but lately everyone has been making me so mad, taking a few days off work to hopefully recover (by getting drunk out of my mind)

>>38493922

If it makes you feel any better most of us in our 30s have lost all of our school friends.

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>>38481416
i'm a femanon and will literally date/sleep with anyone in this thread as long as you love me back without wanting any other women

>>38494357

i gradually lost contact with all of my friends in my early twenties and have had none ever since. dont know how to and have no motivation to make any new ones. everyone seems to have a busy life and the NEETS are all hiding so its hard to connect with people. if i was desperate i would try joining a sports club or something even though im very lazy.

>>38492675
legacy captcha my man

>>38491322

You're not smart or a prodigy of any sort and you don't have any work ethics. Set your standards lower.

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>almost 29
>male
>still have skinny, juvenile, almost hairless body
>normal clothes never fit, everything is either too long or too wide
>a crappy $25 Japanese school girl cosplay outfit from Amazon fits me better than any piece of clothing I have ever own in my entire life
>mfw

>>38491322

"just give up now. it doesnt get any better"

>family is taking it in turns to stay with me after another (stress-induced) near heart attack last week
>sister dragged me to the city
>brutally hot, had to bring a cooler full of water bottles with us
>kept insisting I buy myself something because shopping makes her feel better so it might do the same for me or something
>none of the shops we hit have anything I want because I play niche games like a fucking hipster
>ended up just buying an extra charger for my 3ds
>took forever to get anything done because she insisted on having me wait in every store we left until she could get the car turned on and cooled off from the AC
>finally convince her to call it a day
>she invites her friend out when we get home
>laying in bed trying to sleep while they laugh and scream and drink
>faintly remember her drunk friend trying to convince me to have sex with her
>woke up at 6 am today
I wish I'd been born normal. Not just personality-wise, but health-wise. I wish I could do things I want to do.

>>38495644
>after another (stress-induced) near heart attack last week

do you mean a panic attack or is there something actually wrong with your heart?

>>38495738
I have a heart condition and stress has been one of the biggest triggers for it. When I start getting upset I get chest pains and it gets hard to breathe, along with other symptoms. I got very upset one day last week. It wasn't a heart attack but I still had to stay in the hospital overnight so they could watch me.

>>38492497
>I have marketable skills
>only jobs I can get are retail or other jobs I deem beneath me

literally >too intelligent - the post

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I'm 25 in about months. I still feel 22. Is 25 really that bad, or is it that you aren't where you want to be in life? I feel like 24/25 is still young if you haven't led the life of a piece of shit.

>>38495834

when you turn 25 you are literally dead.

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>>38495937
Well sheeit. I thought it was chilly in here

>>38493536
how are you going to give it back :J

>26
>NEET
>Live with mom
>Share a bed with 24 year old brother
>Poor hygiene
>Poor diet
>Lie in bed basically 24/7

Too lazy to change, too lazy to actively kill myself. I don't complain though because I know my situation is my own doing. Hopefully my heart gives out soon.

>>38495999

his ghost will give it back. dur.

>>38496035
>Share a bed with 24 year old brother

do you spoon each other?

>>38496083

No but we are very touchy with eachother

Could I post a photo someone recently took of me and ask that you guys tell me if I look fat and / or autistic in it please?

I don't wanna get banned but it's not necessarily whoring

>>38496131
D-do you jerk each other off in bed?

>>38495356
I don't think this is good advice for anyone.

I was putting myself down incessantly since I was in University because I felt everyone was smarter than me. When I finally broke out of a dead end job at 27 and got a real one with career prospects, you tend to find out that most Senior Managers and people leaders in general are actually quite useless.

>>38495937

That's fucking nonsense

My dad is well into the 50's and still does sports regularly, plays chess a lot, reads about what interests him.

Sure, after 25 most people don't party like high-schoolers anymore, love isn't so innocent and new and exciting anymore, but to say you become dead is just stupid and wrong

>>38488956
This should be one of the first things any young anon ever hears about women.

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Do I look fat and / or autistic in this photo?

Someone uploaded a group photo to the internet and this is now the only photo of me online. Made me feel really bad when I saw it.

>>38482992
Ahahaha you fell for the marriage meme.

>>38496245

You look fine
The hairstyle is a little dorky, but all I see is a normal guy

>>38481416
>get brought back to a time from when I was 19
>instantly get sad and tear up, i had some hope then

That actually hit me square in the feels man

>>38496301
I agree about the hair. Someone else said I looked fat and that it looks as if I "don't do well in the real world". Thanks for responding.

>>38496144

No, anon. Trust me you wouldn't want to see that if we did. We are quite repulsive creatures.

>>38496209

>but to say you become dead is just stupid and wrong

i was being D R A M A T I C. thats why i said "literally".

>>38496245

the person in the photo looks inquisitive.

>>38496459
How do you mean? Is that a bad thing?

There were like four people taking photos of the group from different angles so I looked at the wrong one.

>>38496325

do you ever dutch oven each other?

>>38495484
Thanks for the laugh, anon.

I had a same issue as you. From pisspoor family, so malnutrition during the childhood was a thing.

You gotta start lifting and eating good. Now you will always be hairless and somewhat petite, but being jacked up/ripped makes it so much better.

>>38496473
>How do you mean? Is that a bad thing?

just mean you look interested in something. not a bad thing. stop worrying. if thats you, you look fine.

>>38496441

You mean you only become dead figuratively?

>>38496474

No, we have our own blankets. My farts are noxious so if I did do it, it would kill him.

>>38481416
My primary sexual fantasy is from 11 years ago when I was 21 and almost had sex with my oneitis after an extremely enjoyable an intimate night together. I've had plenty of sex since then (mostly with chicks I don't like or prostitutes) but that is still my go. It's honestly sad that I haven't had something to top some almost happening over a decade ago. Really sad.

But every day I wish we got together. Without hyperbole it would have transformed my life as two of the biggest fuck ups of my life came chasing her later when she was well and truly not interested in me. desu she was probably only interested in me in that time because her and my girlfriend hated each other and I was a chad who got a lot of attention from women at the time cause I was in awesome shape

Fucking hell, peaking at 21 is fucked.

>>38496540

you dont really. depends on the person. nothing really changes except for your concept of time. time goes much faster.

>>38494377
give me love.

>>38496584
>Fucking hell, peaking at 21 is fucked.

my life peaked at 16. ive been suffering for longer. i win /r9k/.

>>38496652
>time goes much faster.
This, it's scary how fast months and years just start to blur

>>38496699
>ive been suffering for longer.

How old are you? I'm 32 and my life peaked 11 years ago and been a struggle since.

>>38496874
>How old are you? I'm 32 and my life peaked 11 years ago and been a struggle since.

im 30 years old. id say i peaked at 16 but my life truly went to hell at 25 when i had a psychotic episode and was diagnosed with schizophrenia. wish i could go back to my teenage years. i really enjoyed life then.

>>38496841
>This, it's scary how fast months and years just start to blur

yeah im having trouble keeping up. you blink and an hours gone past.

>>38496209
Yeah well your dad had a kid, so he probably feels pretty chill, like he fulfilled his biological imperative, knows he has a child to dote on him in old age, and generally isn't a mentally tortured schizoid with nobody to lean on. Big difference.

>>38496919
That sucks dude. I had a psychotic episode at 22 but thankfully I wasn't committed or anything because it was directly related to drug abuse. Pity my mother had to witness it.

I dropped those "friends" and drugs from my life and I was fine. Though my life plateaued after it really wouldn't have been bad if I hadn't withdrawn so hard after.

>>38496963
>Though my life plateaued after it really wouldn't have been bad if I hadn't withdrawn so hard after.

this may seem like a weird question but what change do you think would improve your life if it happened tomorrow? is there any hope?

>>38497050
Quitting alcohol. Contacting my friends from film and tv which I alienated. Making another decent short film to prove I still belong. Apologising. A lot of apologies. So many fucking apologies.

There's hope but it's an uphill battle. I'm not sure I'm strong enough.

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>tfw 29 year old HKV still living with his parents
>tfw living in balkan shithole country
>tfw not a single friend
>tfw no girlfriend(obviously)
>tfw working 7 days/week for 300 euros/a month
>tfw alcoholic violent white nigger father who constantly asks money for booze

The ride never ends fellas

>>38497088
>There's hope but it's an uphill battle. I'm not sure I'm strong enough.

hey, at least you were able to come up with an answer to the question. youve got some idea how to sort yourself out. if my mental problems went away tomorrow i would have no idea which direction to take my life in. i wouldnt wont to work some shit job i hate and have no education to get a good job. i guess i would try to study something but have no clue what let alone motivation to see it through. how much do you drink btw?

>>38497189

Bout a bottle day. More on weekends.

>>38497109
Which city in the Balkans?

Goebbels was a NEET from around 24 to around 28.

>>38497201
The debt capital of Europe, city doesn't matter

>>38497196
>Bout a bottle day. More on weekends

ever go to the doctor and get a check up. see how your body is handling it?

>>38489402
Wow. I've experienced the same thing for the past two months. All I want to do is be alone and drown the past in absolute solitude. Deleted all my numbers from my phone, etc.

>>38487140
You can't get a loan to pay the UNI?????

>>38488290

You had your chance. You missed it. It's over. Sometimes you miss something and you don't get a do over.

You'll have to deal with that.

>>38491322
Go to therapy now. Don't and try and deal with your problems alone.

Probably not original

>27 khhv never had a gf
>manlet
>dicklet
>have a job, car and a shitty tiny flat
>currently staying at my parents because i had an accident
>next month i'll undergo surgery

when i start a thread in r9k i get told to fuck off
life is shit right now
if i didn't have my faith i dunno if i were to make it

laugh all you want but thats my life

>>38484171
I wish I was you but I was born on a 3rd world commie country

>>38497963
>have a job
>have a car
>have (presumably own) a flat

Normie.

>>38484627
Accounting graduate here. The profession requires a lot of soft social skills. It's actually not for shut ins. Every firm I've worked at, the top performers are all Chads and Stacies while the robots get washed out because no one will vouch for them.

>>38491322
That girl is DTF.
That other girl is a crazy bitch. Do not fuck her.
Jimmy will stab you in the back. Do not trust him.

>>38497963
you seem to have what 95% of people don't at 27 :) you're doing ok anon cheer up!

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>28
>uni degree
>60k job
>paid off car, own a house, d.i.y guy.
>handsome, in shape, socially ok. Have friends
>5'7, no g.f.
Who here failed chadlet?

>>38498043
>>38498043

It's disappointing how dominated by chads business is

Finance/accounting is basically all chad A type personalities

I fuckig hate them

>24
>5'11
>graduated uni last year
>starting a 60K job next month
>moving into my own apartment
>zero social skills, it's like I can't help myself from doing dumb autistic shit
>have gf
>keep wishing that my gf was more attractive and dressed in cuter clothes but I know that she's probably the only person in the world that's willing to put up with my bullshit
>still think about killing myself every day

What the fuck is wrong with me

>>38498828
it aint me starts playing the new version

I have massive nostalgia for 2013-2014, barely a few years ago. But back then I was at least somewhat functional and had plenty of hope for my future.

>about to post something to vent
>realize i can't put it into words
>i had something this morning when i woke up
>it escaped me

Either way, I think I know the answer, but it doesn't matter because everything is insignificant and worrying about insignificance makes me tired.

>>38489475
Holy fuck.
Apathy is truely death..

>>38488290
It's harsh but true. I agree with him. You're just wasting your time otherwise.

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>>38481416
Do people still use CRT monitors? I stopped using mine in 2011 or early 2012.

>>38492638
Honestly Anon I think that you will never get overe your gf unless you chase this girl and hopefully end up in a relationship.

It's easy for me to say this though, cause that has never happened to me. If I found my gf like that i would seriously have a hard time not killing myself.

I do think you have to try and move on. Best of luck, I know it must be hard man,

>>38499991
Using mine just this now. Being destitute sucks.

>>38481416
>getting good grad degree
>Friends all moving back to town :D
> have gf after being a virgin until 24
> have comfy job at small family business except my sister is a cunt

That's all pretty good except:
>Got fat out of nowhere (thanks prozac?)
>so exhausted after work then school that feel no motivation to excercise
>trying to eat healthy but the only food I crave is meat and cheese.
>don't want to be fat anymore

I just want my old metabolism back. How did you guys learn to cope with the slowdown of metabolism?

>>38487942
I was made to play sports but I always didn't like them so eventually I just stopped and they were fine with it. They gave it an honest shot because that's just what people did back then but I don't think it matters. My baseball team even won the whole fucking tournament or whatever the fuck it was too, it just doesn't matter. I don't think it has any effect unless you are really into sports from day 1.
I was also made to interact a lot and while my social skills are completely fine for everything else, day to day life, work and finding jobs, I just never could go all the way with a girl into forming a boyfriend/girlfriend relationship.
I had 2 opportunities to have sex with this one chick in college but I just didn't like her enough and my alcoholism was already fucking with me in that department by then.
Thanks to anyone who reads the blog.

>>38499991
I wish I still had one for SD gaming.
Anyone have any recs?

Hey 25+ anons, we've been together since 2008 (if you've been on 4chan for that long) and I seriously changed my life for the better this year.
I want you guys too

http://www.orgone.ro/doc/The-Power-of-Now.pdf

Let this book guide you, investing in yourself is never selfish.

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I'm getting a tattoo today

I'm kinda nervous because it's my first one. I hope it looks good

>>38484171
Learn a trade, like electrical engineering of something with algae or some shit like that

>>38487140
:( Am sorry to hear that. I'm in a similar situation and I'm crippled with indecision. Staring down constant 50 hour work weeks is the long death that everyone seems to accept sans a few elites who enjoy the world as their playground. Sometimes I feel like I should be the guy with the rifle in the bell tower. Everyone's enslaved, no one's happy and no one does anything about it.

>>38498513
That's right, you fucking beta cuckold. Go into IT where your ugliness won't drive away our clients.

>>38499991
I had a 36" monster but I threw it away. Shit's way too heavy, and I'm not autistic enough to require an authentic CRT to play old games.

>>38489475

Some of this sounds like bullshit, but I do feel like that.
I feel like my personality has been destroyed after being a NEET for 8 years. I hung around with friend recently and I couldn't laugh nor could I make any jokes. I was just concerned and doze off in the distance.
I have navigated myself into a weird situation. I met a girl, with unusual developments, and I like her. She's my first GF and I had a great time with her (mostly). But now I realized that I don't want to have children ever in my life. She does want them and I feel like I'm wasting her time. I also feel selfish for not telling her yet, because I still want to have a few nice moments with her (it's a LDR) before she breaks up with me due to being like this.

fuck bros i think i got my first job took a drug test today, thanks to the anons in that other thread for that info

>>38489570
>30+ doom
Wew, sounds like it'll be fun.

>>38498347
Thanks
Seriously, thank you.

>>38491322
JUST ASK HER OUT YOU FUCKING FAGGOT

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>>38502832
Nice dog, time to make bank, what's the job?

>>38503855
general labor