Hi anons,
I am a 30 year old neet and I am looking for advice.
Here is a rundown:
>be me back in the day, a 16 year old popular dude in HS
>lots of friends
>great girlfriend
>stay together 8 years
>she cheats and we break up when I'm 24
>devestated.jpg
>fucks up my brain bad
>spend the next 8 years as a complete and total hermit
>make very small amount of money online
>living with parents
>only good thing is that I am going to the gym
>extreme depression and social anxiety
>tried prescription drugs, tried therapy, tried motivational speakers, etc...
>confidence level = zero
>have posted to reddit and 4chan hundreds of times about this same issue
I feel like I cannot be me, as if people always see me as depressed. I am somewhat socially retarded but I can talk with friends and family. My days for many years have consisted of: waking up, making coffee, eating breakfast, maybe going to the gym, sitting around at home playing games, doing a small amount of work, smoking some weed, and going to bed. I haven't have a relationship or been sexual with somebody for 7 years. I can't relate to family members because they don't understand depression and social anxiety.
What the fuck do I do? I want to kill myself and I think about it everyday but I am too much of a pussy. I am super fucked but I could never kill anybody else. Do I get up and leave my country (Canada)? Do I move away from everybody and cut contact? I feel like I am still here somewhere but I seriously have no clue what to do. This is not a troll post or a ruse- I am seriously looking for advice.
prolly get a job
Ma mang as others have said, you should get a job. I mean, you're not that old, you can still work, get some money and probably buy a house so that you don't live with your parents. Life goes on, man. Your life doesn't depend of anyone else. It's up to you to decide if you're happy or not.