ITT: Autistic things you did when you were a child When I was

>>38450867
I was sure it was real, as soon as I thought about I couldn't get it out of my head. Happens to me a lot with bad ideas.

>>38450867
I would have to constantly repeat into my mind, like some mantra,"Good dreams, anything good. Good dreams, anything good"

If I forgot to do this I would have terrifying insanity nightmares I could not wake up from. Life sucks being someone who has very real and vivid dreams. Luckily I figured out out how to wake up from one nightmare and into the next, since reality is more terrifying.

>>38450867
As a child I used to be terrified of the idea of eternal life after death and for a while I listened to music while going to bed to distract myself from the dreadful thoughts. I later realized that christianity is retarded and the thoughts went away. now I drink myself to sleep to avoid the dread that comes with pondering the nature and goals of life as a force in the universe. like, is it just an endless spiral towards further intelligence that we can never complete/escape or do we hit a point where we did it and then the adventure is over and there's nothing left to pursue. I'm a dumbass that would never contribute to the advancement of intelligence but these thoughts freak me out for some reason