What keeps you going r9k? For me it's beer, vidya and anime.

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my weed, alcohol, video games, and eating delicious food. I still have some hope to redeem myself someday and start a family

>>38443135
you will be very fat very soon

How do people enjoy alcohol? It tastes digusting, and it just makes you feel dizzy and nausious

>>38443069
Nothing at all. It's all so bad

Weed, my potential, and vidya.

>>38443069
It used to be video games, anime, and the prospect of a better future until
>down to maybe an anime a year
>can't bring myself to watch anything
>play just a couple video games right now and not even that much
>never had job at 23
>$30k debt
>no car or money
>worthless stem degree
So pretty much when I get bored of games I'll probably suicide out of having nothing better to do.

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Spite.
I've imagined dying, and realized that it would affect no one. I live, because I hate all those around me.

Vidiya, anime and cartoons.

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drink, weed and movies

>>38443366
Just like life anon

>>38443069
im a mod in semi large subreddit. i also have a semi large dog. both give me a sense of purpose and responsibility

>>38444477
>i also have a semi large dog.
i bet you've taken the knot too.

>>38444509
>taken the knot too
nah ... is that even possible for a dude?

>>38444618
Find out and report back

>>38443069
the fact I'll be the first in my family to graduate college. A uni too.

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>boards.4chan.org
>whisky
>anime girls to jerk off to
>the knowledge that I will die before too long

Not the carrot so much as the stick lately.

Being suicidal was spoopy.

>>38443366
Because alcohol makes me feel again.

Normally I'm totally numb and feel nothing. Not even love. But when I'm drunk I love my family, I love humans, I love everything.

Alcohol literally turns me from Lucifer into Jesus.

mostly just video games. anime does seem like the kind of thing I would like but I've never really been able to get into it.

>>38443069
Vidya, but it's on its last legs and so am I.

>>38444729
i would rather (k)not

>>38443955
>>worthless stem degree
stem degrees are schezwan sauce right now

>>38443069
The robowaifus are coming, and I'll be able to afford one.

>>38443069
>What keeps you going r9k?
killing myself would make me a larger burden on my family than i already am
that and hope for a miricle

>>38443069
Parents honestly.

I've got a good job, some hobbies, some friends and have had some experiences with intimacy, but it doesn't fill the void. I keep on thinking about how I'd rather just get myself into the military and once I'm out of service doping myself up on drugs until I die.

>>38446550
why the military part though? why not skip right to the drugs?

I don't know how to explain it but ever since a couple months ago I really enjoy life. Nothing particular happened, I started eating a little better I guess...

I can't imagine dying after feeling pretty bad about my life for a while (no friends, awful family, bad genetics, ugly, poor, KHHV), I love every minute.

>>38443069
I'm literally too afraid to kill myself. That's it. I don't enjoy existing.

>>38446631
Me to I will lay u to kil me u can have my xbox

>>38446659
I meant pay but I don't have money so y can fuck my ded body

>>38446631
afraid of what? dont kill urself, but wat are u afraid of?

>>38443069
You won't find lasting happiness in objects. You can't even rely on people. The only thing that can pull you through is God. Pop open a bible. Read it, study it, pray, go to church , etc. It will change your life

>>38446689
>dont kill urself
I'm not.
>wat are u afraid of?
I'm afraid of the final act. Whatever method I choose the final seconds leading up to the last decision. It freaks me out to think about it. Maybe, if I was drunk I could do it.

>>38446761
If this works for you that's great but I could never find a reason to believe in something just because life sucks.

>>38443069
>beer
>anime
>woodworking
>/out/ist stuff
>dream of one day building a coastal homestead-type cabin in the middle of nowhere with a qt girl(female) and fishing/gardening
>possibly adopt a few orphans

>>38446761
Or the Qur'an, or any other book really. Honestly Christianity might be your worst option.

>>38447505
ur little swimmers dont work?

i don't even know anymore
can't find joy in anything at all

>>38447548
I have so many physical and psychological flaws, I feel like it would be immoral for me to spread my genes.
>but anon-sama, what if the orphans are even more untermensch than you?
They're still alive, and statistically gonna survive into adulthood. I'd rather live in a world with 2,000,000,000 criminals who would have been normal productive humans if they'd had a decent upbringing, than in a world with 2,000,000,001 of them.

Plus, I can hardly express rage at all the nigs and tacos and Achmeds spreading their shit genes if I'd do the same, can I?
>tfw honestly believe that, while race and genetics affect it, upbringing and a healthy family is the single biggest factor in whether someone becomes a 'good' person.

>>38447816
... almost all eugenics proponents seem to think they have awesome genes ...

>>38443069
beer, weed, food, porn.

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>>38447918
That may be, although I don't exactly know many eugenics proponents IRL (because obviously all but the most autistic realize that it's social suicide to just blurt that shit out.)

But it's just kind of dumb to blurt out that you're the supreme exception. There's a reason why self-diagnosis is considered worthless in the medical field.

In a perfect autistic world, I wouldn't so much support eugenics since I think there's too much room for corruption (for instance, a dystopian government has much more to fear from a generation of geniuses than a generation of Pedros.) I would, autistically, support allowing people to die through their own incompetency. Not feeding homeless people in an overpopulated world, not sending care packages to Africa, and of course building wall. Wolves have incredibly good genes, because wolves with bad genes die.

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>have a wagecuck job during the day
>I get legitimately excited thinking about spending my night watching some youtube vids

>>38448180
Nature will - in the end - remove the bad genes from the genepool. It wil always be through probably mass starvation ... When society no longer can support the leeches they WILL die ... i sure wont be pretty, but i guess its preferable to forced Sterilization

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>>38443069
My dream, my last dream. Something I've come to understand, men do not create genius works until they are subject to insanity. Years of being alone without love, years of being alone with only my thoughts.

Ultimately, my desire shall lead to my magnum opus. One final project, a tragic story of love lost and never to be found. I will make people suffer like I did one way or another, even if it is just for a moment.

My project, all I need is time, alone, with nothing but my thoughts, and time to refine my art.

>>38443069
My family. Music, friends, my dog, sunshine, warmth, nature, hiking, spite, cigs, beer, good food, reading, meditation, finding stuff to laugh at, delusions about work I could one day do, the pharma jew (effexor), fantasizing about meeting a kind, well adjusted older woo woo hippie/alt milf who will take care of me.

>>38443069
Bussi :DDD
>>38448574
This is why women are shit, that armor is probably worth 60gorrillion shillings and shes just sticking it in some fucking water, aint she heard of rust? Fucking bitch

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>>38448815
Pretty sure she's supposed to be dead. I have it saved for reference anyway.

>>38443069
The people who rely on me and the guilt of how it would affect my family if I was gone. I honestly don't know if I'd still be here if they were gone.

>>38443069
Future technology and my job prospects after college.

>>38448852
Good, she probably earned it

>>38443069
My faith in Buddhism.