Help me fellow arcanines

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*Somebody please try to talk me out of this, because although I'm excited I feel like I am going to make a huge mistake.

I'm strongly considering getting a fidget spinner tattoo. It's not a novelty meme tattoo for social media attention though, the fidget spinner actually holds a lot of meaning to me.

I've always had trouble making friends and fitting into social groups. I'm 24 and I only have one person I'd consider a "friend" - Brad. Brad is a very outgoing amateur bodybuilder and the definite "jock" type - goes out drinking with his friends very often, always has 10 girls going at a time etc. We bonded in high school over video games and magic the gathering. He's been my only friend for my entire adult life - I've just never seemed to be able to connect with other people. They'd always talk about sports, or partying, and even if we have the same video games as a common interest we would end up having nothing to talk about after that.

That all changed with ironic meta humour becoming the common form of humour. I would spend hours a day on 4chan and tumblr while Brad was out partying with his other friends, and I'd often repeat internet in jokes to people around me. Sometimes they'd awkwardly force a laugh, but usually I'd just be met with a blank stare.

Now however, I'm the king of ironic meta humour. I still feel like I don't belong when I'm with others - but that's because their level of humour is so far beneath me. Every internet meme I had memorized in 2013 is met with uproarious laughter when I repeat it around my new friends - I even have a girlfriend. She's 18 and we met at a Lil Yachty concert. The fidget spinner, to me, symbolises my rebirth - like a phoenix or Rocky Balboa, and I want it on my body as a constant reminder that life gets better if you stick it out.

Thoughts? I am considering getting it on my bottom forearm, with a part of it melding into my hand like I am holding an actual fidget spinner. Any advice is welcome!*