What keeps you from killing yourself?

Hope

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>>38384022
bloodborne

im gonna finally buy a ps4 nxt week on my birthday

>>38384022
Because the only thing I have to look forward too is the inevitable heat death of the universe and continuing my existence is the only way I have of helping speed things along.

Aside from pic related,the spider demons in my head tell me that if i become president and destroy the atmosphere via nuclear fallout subsequently destroying man kind i will become a spider demon in the after life.

it's too much effort

too lazy to kill myself

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>>38384080
This is the picture i meant to post.

>>38384022
I was close to dying once and i realized that the process of dying can be very scary. If i could just go to sleep and die then it would be easy but it doesn't work like that. Also sometimes i feel just a tiny bit of hope that some miracle will happen and my years of pain will magically stop weighting me down.

>>38384065
My birthday is next week as well, happy early birthday robot

Daydreaming about power and victory

>>38384022

fapping and anime

memes and dreams, a bit of science too

>>38384022
I'm seeing a concert in October and I need to finish college. If my life turns out like shit I'll just do it.

>>38384022
Its all the little moments. Those little things that make me laugh. A song i dig playing on the radio. Eating something fucking delicious. And also if I kill myself i cant work which means no money which then means no drugs

>>38384048
Hope for what? I want to have Hope, I want to Hope.

>>38384022
There's still one thing going on for me. I'm eager to see how I'll fail at that. If there are two things this shitty life has taught me, they are "you aren't meant for success" and "failure is inevitable".

>>38384022
Smoking weed all day keeps me from pulling the trigger.

>>38384107
JULY 20TH. and you?

>>38384022
I don't want to traumatize my family. I'm too lazy otherwise.

>>38384189
July 24th
original

A mix of hope and fear.
Hope that my life will eventually get better.
Fear that if I kill myself that I'll back out last minute or that hell is real and I'm going to it.

>>38384189
>>38384216
Happy early birthday, robots!

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>>38384216
my best friend's birthday is july 24th too

>>38384243
He must be a great person robot, proud to be born on the same day as him.

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Starting animation school in October,but also my two friends. I don't see them often but I know they care about me.

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I just wanna see the happening. that's what keeps me going.

It's my sister's wedding next week.

After that I'm free to plan and gather what I need to kill myself.

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My wife mostly. She'd be devastated if i weren't alive anymore. Also my army career is almost over. 4 down, 2 to go....

The off days where I feel okay and have dreams for the future happen just frequent enough to keep me going.
I hope to be able to buy a piece of land one day where I can build my own house with my own hands and with a large garden around it.

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>>38384022
I want to see how much far down I can go, I want to feel again and I'd rather feel emotional pain than nothing at all.

>>38384022
Nothing. I just don want to an hero right now.
I also have two shotguns and plenty of ammo for them. But I think I'd go for the 12/76pump action one with some high quality buck-shot.

>>38384348
>gather
wtf do you have to gather? Just shoot yourself.
inb4 I'm a eurofag and even here accessing a revolver with ammo is extremely easy.

>>38384022
I'm in the UK so I can't buy a gun, and there is nowhere in my flat to hang myself from.

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Because I have to take care of my deaf & retarded brother. My mom is in the hospice. Fuck me, amirite?! FUCK YOU.

>>38385146
There are gun-clubs or shootinmg ranges for sports I assume. You can borrow guns there. You only need it for one shot, so why waste the money?

Who would clean my guns if I died? They never failed me, how can I fail them?

>>38384022
Suicide only passes your pain onto the people who care most about you.
I couldn't inflict that kind of hurt on my family, so I'll endure the pain and take what pleasures I can find in life until the day there's no one left who would give a fuck.

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because i'll become a grand wizard soon

A combination of laziness to kill myself, the natural urge to survive, and that it hasn't gotten bad enough to warrant suicide.

there are better ways to go than shooting yourself. cleaner.

>>38384095
> If i could just go to sleep and die then it would be easy but it doesn't work like that.
Look into carbon monoxide bruh. Colourless and odourless, you sit in an enclosed room, feel a little sleepy, nod off, and never wake up.

>>38384022
crippling anxiety and delusions of grandeur
and survival instinct and the concept of cessation of existence being fucking terrifying

sorry if i sound edgy

Vladamir Putin has personally told me if I attempt suicide I will meet a far more painful fate before I could even unholster gun vlad says live long anon, trigger libtards another day

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>>38384080
Can I serve as an egg carrier in the afterlife? I need something to look forward to and I don't think I'm going to find a better purpose in this life.

>>38384022
I wanna see what happens next.

>>38385414
I read on /x/ that Putin takes his marching orders from a neon space gremlin that lives beneath the Kremlin

I need to play every kingdom hearts game,
Then I'll kill myself

>>38385183
Anyone who would even begin to think about killing themselves when they have people that care about them is just a selfish over-dramatic prick.

>>38384022
My Christian faith in jesus

>>38385449
>Kremlin gremlin
heheh...

>>38385451
Go to bed Alex

That fact that death is so final, I'd rather push this body to the limit then end it without knowing what happens next if anything.

>>38385160
So just kill yourself in a public shooting club?

>>38385456
or has actual mental problems? yknow like almost everybody that commits suicide? what are you stupid?

anyways i want to live long enough to see the singularity then I'll martyr myself for the new machine overlords

suicide is absolutely pointless if im already going to die anyway.

I can do anything I want in life, I might as well try and experience as much as I can before the void. Even if that means I have to do it all alone.

Nothing accept my biological/mental impulse towards self preservation and fear of pain

If I could shut that off I would have killed my self already

>>38386278

Unlike others here I don't care to see how it'll play out. I have no hope or will. I don't care about how the people that care about me will feel. Yes they'll be sad for a few months but the world keeps on moving. Anyone who says the family thing is using it as a cop out.