anon finds a new friend pt3

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click it, its good friends girlfriend of 4 years
"3 days ago Mathieu had an accident while longboarding, he fell off and has suffered severe head trauma, in coma"
"family decided to pull the plug today because doctor said he probably wont get better, and if he does he wont be the same"
am crying
throw phone
friends look worried
tell friends
i leave to go sit by the bus, tears in my eyes
text my brothers because they probably dont know yet
keep crying for an hour by the bus
tears wont come anymore and its time to see all my peers
face completely red
cant stop shivering
atleast i got 2 seats to myself so i dont have to sit next to someone while i cry
bus broke down
have to sit next to someone
keep thinking why him, why not me
one of my friends from the table comes on and sits next to me
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he is a practiced normie so he can distract as i cry in the window seat
somehow fall asleep crying to myself
wake up at school
dont remember how i got home
walked inside, family hugs me and welcomes me, all crying
cousins are over to try and help us all cope
he was another brother to us all and a son to my mom
we all loved good friend
end up getting drunk for the first time ever because i cant stop crying to go to sleep
throwup
passout
middle brother takes me to my bed
fast forward to memorial annoucement
plane cost a lot
decided to drive
70 hour round trip to cali
fuck it, brother and brothers gf drive the whole way in 2 days there
fucking legends
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get to memorial
two other kids from the csgo group chat are there, meet them for the first time
was nice
saw good friends family for the first time in 10 years
remebered us, remembered them
good 5 hours or so
drive back home
fast forward to now about a month or 2 later
still cry almost everyday
lost almost all motivation, even to play csgo
Miss you Mathieu
why you, why not me