Feels thread

>>38294372
I have a qt autismo gf (8 years) but other than that, nothing. Family routinely laughs at me, virtually no friends, only hobbies are essentially my means of coping with a world that doesn't want me (/out/ as a form of escapism, /diy/ to avoid letting normos help me in life, etc.)

I'm also to intelligent 2 greentext. I just want the kind of IRL bro-friends that everyone else seems to have, op. why can't i into friendship

>tfw no wan-wan vapper

I'm an upcoming senior in highschool, no job, no license, no relationship. I grew up constantly moving around, so I was never able to form any friendships until just recently (past 2 years), so my psyche is all sorts of fucked up. I feel guilty for shit that has nothing to do with me, like any bad things that happen to my friends/family. I am deathly afraid of losing the only friends I have because they are my closest ones yet and I know how it feels to be forgotten and left to dry alone. I trust these friends with my life and I have lost too many people over my youth to stand losing anyone else any more. I am afraid that once college starts up for me, I'll lose touch again, but I demanded that my friends keep me from letting go of them so easily (it's an instinctual defence mechanism at this point in my life to keep the pain at bay).