I fucking hate my life

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I hate my life. I cannot function as a normal person and I am 22. I cannot cook, every attempt at it, I end up becoming very frustrated as cooking is something I find stressful. This leads to me feeling lethargic. I cannot get a good night's rest, I work my ass off for 12 hours then get home tired at 12am then immediately go to sleep. I then wake up at 4am unable to go back to sleep and then have to sleep for another 5 hours which throws whatever I have planned for the day down the shitter since I have to go to work at 3 on the days I work half days.

I have no friends, every person I try to reach out that is friendly to me is only met with the realization that I am their 'back up' friend, someone to bullshit with when no one else is around. I noticed that I am growing more and more cynical of people, distancing myself from others to avoid this again and again.

I am just an unhappy person, people say "it gets better!" but all this repeat negative feedback makes for a life not worth living. I have nobody to help me, I have nothing. Someday I'm going to blow my face off with a fucking shotgun because then, I will be able to sleep. Fuck this shit.