For 6 months I tried hard and I mean the hardest possible to

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For 6 months I tried hard and I mean the hardest possible to become a normie, a man people enjoy to be with and a man that is desirable no matter for what or why, let it be for sex


It's literally impossible, sorry to say but beyond the physical aspect(which does matter sadly) there are things that are just more obvious and written somewhere in you, you simply cannot be another person that the one you're meant to be.
>video games became a substitute for living.

Yes this thing is particularly true.
I observed the ones that are what I am not and their lifestyle.
They just do the things I can't or enjoy that I can't enjoy.

Nightclubs, whores, drugs, high class parties...

All things you don't particularly enjoy nor do others but you need to do as social proofs.

You start making some adjustments, try hard and beg for acceptation from others only you realize that just like in highschool, you simply don't fit.

You can't compete or be around people who look better, talk better, are socially aware or more aware than you, have that thing that make people think about you or enjoy being around you.


So then back to the only life that suits you, the one where you don't bother others and where others don't bother you.

The beta male that serve you as friend even if they don't give a fuck about you and maybe (maybe) if you're lucky that girl you don't find attractive but is the only one that will give you the affection you lust for.