Introspective posts/meta

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Another originally of course.

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Next one. I saw Homecoming originally earlier today and was delighted.

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Yes, I named the folder "Doom"
Bit on the nose

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Dumping is annoying what with the robot and all that jazz

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Another. In the most boogaloo way

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Captcha is starting to make me wish I got a 4chan Pass

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Anyone here? Orispaghetio

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Come on anons. I know ye're there. I can smell ye

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Last one. It's in your hands now.

Don't you 404 on me

Nothing? Oreganos

>>38225042
Bump

Organelle

I love these when I see them, but I never save them cause they're too depressing, I don't want my hard drive to get haunted

i'm bumping this thread in an original manner

>>38225850

Same. I really should save all these into a folder that I'll open up whenever I think about browsing 4chan or something but that would stress me out and also I don't know else what I'd do with my spare time anyway.

That's the thing with imageboards. Due to the fact that it has an anti PC climate to it, I learned so much compared to browsing shitty fourm sites and Youtube back in '08. I sometimes wonder if I would've a better person without the internet but then I realized that I would've been a bigger delusional loser if I was an adult in the 80's or 90's. I want to quit the Internet but at the same time it has given me information that I needed especially with imageboards giving me a complete list of books that have helped me grow as a person. That's truly the hard part of quitting. The fear of being out of touch.

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>>38225072
This is exactly how I feel and I have such a hard time describing it to people who aren't in the know or only casually partake in that escapist media. I've stopped binging anime and play less vidya but I just fill the gap with 4chan. I stopped using it for a month or two before and really noticed a positive change in my mood, interests, and energy. But I obviously fell back into it. I
wake up two hours before work every morning because I used to be late to work from browsing 4chan and YouTube in the shower. I'll just sit there and blow through all the hot water every. Single. Morning. And then I finally clean myself with cold water and have an awful shave because the sink has no hot water. I made time for it instead of shutting it out. Even right now, I'm in the shower, just wasting my time. I'm also a diagnosed sex addict (explains the shower at 1 am) and that has taken away just as much from me.

>>38226156
It's all about a good balance, man. Give yourself an allotted time, like 2 hours on Sunday or something. The fact that you are timed will also force you to zero in on what you're looking for and increase efficiency.

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I have some to dump.

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>>38226541
I've been lurking this board too long and it's affected the way I think.

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>>38226561
Not sure if you want posts about posting anonymously on 4chan or just general random feels.

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>>38226569
It's OK, I have both. Sorry for the occasional mobile cap.

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>>38226573
There's quite a few about virginity in here.

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>>38226599
This one's pretty good at putting things in perspective.

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>>38226541
That's a really hard case to argue. He speaks well.

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>>38226632
I wonder where robots will go if 4chan shuts down.

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>>38226700
The realization this guy had happened to me too. I wanted to work in high-energy physics research my whole life until I hit hard calculus and found out I just couldn't do it. Everyone in my classes was flying by me and I had to do extra work just to scrape by with a D. No wonder I washed out.

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>>38226741
Another mobilepost but a good one.

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>>38226774
And now for something completely different and spooky.

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>>38226800
This one is a NEET manifesto.

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>>38226821
Think I'll end the dump here.

>>38225054
24 years old and extremely afraid of this being me. That's why I want to start working and making something of my life, fuck me.

>>38225042
It was this image or one extremely similar to it that finally spurred me to move out of my parents house. Life still sucks but at the end of the day it does feel good that I am not leeching off them anymore.

One of the reasons I can't quit 4chan is because I'm afraid of missing out on advice like this but I end up browsing mindlessly for hours anyways. Someone help, I want to quit.

>>38225081
Except for the part at the very end, this is me. I have trouble keeping friends because I go quiet on them for so long, both IRL and online. A large part of it is I went for so long without ever having friends, that I have no social skills. I don't know when it's appropriate to start talking to them, start asking them to hangout, etc. What I really hate about it is that almost no one ever initiates anything with me. What's worse is that I have almost no money to do anything and no car so it's that much harder to do anything with the few IRL friends that I have.

I'm also ashamed of my borderline neet status so I never talk to anyone. I plan on talking more and socializing more when I have nothing to be ashamed of.

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This one is rough

>>38225107
Man, living in a little apartment working in a coffee shop sounds like my short term dream. I almost hate to be exactly what that poster was railing against, but that shit sounds comfy as fuck. My brother lives in a nice two-room apartment and it's literally my dream to live all by myself in an apartment like that. I'd be so much happier.

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>I've literally spent a over a decade on various image boards because I was too scared to form RL relationships with people

Now I'm 24 and wondering when I'll finally pull the trigger from my pistol.

>>38225107
Could be why people are shooting up so much heroin nowadays

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>tfw the game was rigged from the start
>tfw born in bottom 20% of house income
>tfw born with manlet genes and weak jawline
>tfw have two cousins and a brother with autism and heavily suspect I have it too
>tfw bad childhood
>tfw afraid of physical contact
>tfw KHHV
>tfw small children instinctively hide behind someone and clutch their mothers' legs when they see me

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>>38225145
This is exactly how I felt when I worked a full-time job.

And if I luck out and actually get hired soon, this is how I'm going to feel again, fuck me. But it's necessary because I need to start getting my shit together.

>>38225155
Oh shit, this shit perfectly describes the way I go about trying to talk to people. I'm absolute shit at conversation and because I was way too influenced by overly dramatic fiction and internet message boards, I don't know how to talk about anything that's not important or even just my semi-in-depth opinions on movies/music/tv. It's something that I noticed recently. I am literally incapable of talking about literally anything else. I don't know how to socialize with people and I have all these opinions about life or something to share with people but can never find the appropriate time to actually do so because people end up just talking about stupid shit like some local places around town or stupid, pedestrian shit. I can think of multiple times I was talking to some family and I got way too serious way too fast and said something too serious and too sincere.

I just really hate the way people programmed to socialize. It's completely at odds with the way I think.

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>>38227251
I hate that feeling so much. I will LITERALLY begin to reply to a post, stop right in the middle of it, feel a general sense of apathy, and then just close the message box because I feel like no one gives a shit. No one is going to remember what I posted in a week, if it's a debate, no one is going to look back on any points I may have made like it's going to change their life. Ultimately, it's just a fucking waste of time. What's the fucking point?

>>38226741
That's probably the first post that makes me really cry, talent is such a bitch

>>38226741
Dunno man, calculus is hard for everyone. Have you tried improving your math basis?

I do this too but it's more of a general thing across my entire life. Everything I've ever written, said, or made has felt too pretentious or nongenuine for me to really feel like it's worth putting out there and every time I write, say, or make anything I have to do it over and over. I feel like if I don't do it right whoever looks at it will think I'm a self-obsessed douchebag, or genuinely retarded, or overly edgy. I never do it right either. Then after I post whatever it is I realize nobody could possibly give less of a fuck. Anything I do will be seen by maybe 6 people and cared about by none of them.

>>38227357
I did. I went to extra tutoring classes and did sessions over the breaks and even with ~3 hours of studying the material a day I couldn't remember jack shit the next day. I dunno if that means I didn't try hard enough or genuinely wasn't good at math but I dropped out the next year anyway.

>>38226741
My dream is to bust my load all over a beautiful girls face

>>38227396
I know a lot of engineers that suck at math, but that's all I can add

Keep posting more things to make me depressed.

>>38225042
I'm 29 and this is pretty much a biography of my life.

Please fix your shit now, youngbots. Being a robot or autist or NEET is not something to feel pride in and it leads to emptiness and suicide.

>>38226300
How the fuck do you browse 4chan in the shower you normie

>>38227109
>>38227251
These really hit home. Especially the first one, that was kind of hard to read.

>>38227520
>>38225042

I wonder what the tick tock wage cuck guy feels about this

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>>38225145
kek, what a baby. I personally enjoy working. Not a particular job, just work in general. I've worked all sorts of jobs from carpentry to office BS, and I've never really hated any of it.

Life must really fucking suck for people who are miserable 8 hours a day, dreading the next 8 hours of work during their 8 hours off, and maybe even dreaming about work in their 8 hours of sleep. I'd suggest suicide.

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>>38228066

Having an hour commute would suck ass. That turns your 8 hour workday into a 10 hour day but you aren't getting paid for those two hours of commuting. I'm lucky. I work from home most of the time and I'm a five minute drive from the office when I do have to go in. Working from home is incredible, especially for robots. Don't have to deal with normies and I spend at least half of my shift playing vidya or browsing 4chan. I basically have 12+ hours of free time while working from home.

>>38227072
damn, that's a heavy red pill

Read this years ago and saved it in a text file. I'll paste it here.

I'm an Alpha male.
And girls want to fuck alpha males. Let it piss you off as much as you want, but you know it's completely true. That girl you like who is kinda cute in a weird way, but is totally sweet and you have the biggest crush on? The one who keeps going back to guys who treat her wrong for reasons you don't understand? The one who calls you up at 1 am to cry about how her boyfriend hasn't called her in 3 days, and no matter how long you listen to her, she'll never think of you as anything other than asexual? The one who will curl up next to you on the couch, hug you close, kiss you on the cheek, and never let you fucking touch her beyond that?
Yeah, I'm fucking her.
The hot girl who won't even look at you when you nod at them and smile? The one who laughs when you trip in the hallway and drop your stuff? The one who comes up and coyly ask for your help with her homework, and then pretends you don't exist once you finish?
Yeah, I'm fucking her too, even harder.
The geeky girl you think might be enough like you that you have a chance with her? She plays warcraft on your server, and watches anime, and reads comics? She's so incredible and you just love her so much but you still haven't worked up the courage to tell her how you feel about her?
Guess who just sucked me off and told me they'll always love me?

Part 1

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This fucking thread makes me want to go to the grocery store tomorrow and talk to every single person I see. Holy hell this is some rough shit

And what's more? I laugh at guys like you. When you cry about how much girls treat you bad, and wonder why they can't just see that you're a nice guy who would always treat them right? I nod and tell you to hang in there, you'll find someone right for you someday, don't give up hope man. But inside? I'm laughing my ass off at you you pathetic fuck. Every girl you set your sights on, who isn't a disgusting pig-monster, I'm going to fuck 6 ways from Sunday before you even tell her you think she's cute. I won't bother trying when you finally settle for that 350 pound girl who works at hardees, you can have that. Anything else I'm going to cum on her face before you get those lips near it.
And the biggest reason I laugh? It's not me doing all this. It's the girls. When you cry about how lonely you are? Or talk about how you just want to curl up and disappear, and all that emo bullshit? You're triggering her "Don't Fuck" instinct something fierce. You're a miserable weak coward, why would she want your genes? Feel free to buy her a new computer and help her decorate her apartment, you're great for that. But her baby-maker is barking orders at her, telling her to wrap her legs around me and hold on for as long as she can. She needs it, on a primal level you'll never get to see first hand, even if you do get a chance to fuck her. Sooner or later one of them will lay back and spread their legs, but you won't see any hunger in their eyes. They won't beg you to love them forever and make them yours. You won't know what it's like to see her animal side needing you as much as she needs to eat and breathe.

Part 2

And she's cheating on you, I promise that. When she sits around quiet and uncomfortable, acting irritable and irrational towards you, wanting you to just back away and leave her alone, it's not her period. It's because I haven't called her for a day or two and her instincts are telling her to go find me. The primitive section of her brain doesn't want to risk smelling like another man when she gives herself to me, she wants me to know she's completely mine. We do things together she tells you she never would. Her pooper? Mine. I want to give her a facial? of course. I want her to suck the cum out of my dick, even though I just finished pumping away at her ass? she's never going to tell me no. She doesn't WANT to tell me no. She wants me to know she'll do anything it takes to keep me. She'll rim my ass while she's down there sucking me off if it means pleasing me. She'll drink my cum from a shotglass. She'll wear a buttplug when we go out to dinner. She'll sleep handcuffed to my headboard. Anything.
And then she'll go home to you and tell you she's not in the mood today.
I'd say you should become an hero, but you being around makes her want a real man all the more, so keep fagging it up emo bitches, I'll keep that pussy warm while you're crying in the corner.

Part 3. End

>>38225042
This is scary because I can see myself in it.

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>>38227293
I know the feeling. I almost did it on this very post

>>38225107
Whats wrong with wanting to live in a comfy little apartment, working a low stress job and having cats? Did a baby boomer write this?

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not from here, but that's what makes it good

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the 1 time reddit was right about something

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p2
I

>posting reddit posts
chinkmoot needs to nuke this place

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zizek rp

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nothing to read here

Anyone feels hope when reading these posts?

Weirdly, I do. Not because of their warnings, or their "should" or "must". But because, at some point in their lives, they were able to look at themselves honestly and point were everything went wrong. They were able to feel regret.

I don't know anons, I sincerely don't care about much. I don't even think I qualify as a robot but I share all these feelings as well.

I've been for the past 2 years closed in my apartment, neglecting my job and any kind of responsibility I had in a previous life. They tried to pull me out, gave me every opportunity: "if you don't feel like coming just let us know", "work from your home", "give us something each week at least". Nothing. I just wanted all to fall apart. Didn't pay my bills, have banks seizing accounts and everything. If anything, the only thing I feel is shame and blame. But I can live with that. I can't stand having people relying on me tho.

I spend my days mostly lurking for something that can point me where it went all wrong or how to care about life or my future. This posts, in a gruesome way, show me that at some point you can look back and gain that knowledge.

>>38225042
I'm responding once I'm done eating. Don't archive the thread. Nice idea anon

>>38225042
That screenshot may be accurate but I think we need to dig deeper than the common "oh you're young, you can still revert back to normalfagging". I attempted being a normalfag during high school, which, in my country, is much more like college (more mature environment). I like to think that I did well for a few years but eventually became depressed, since I hadn't made a single friend. The robotic condition within me seems to have been dormant for a while and emerged a year and a half ago, when I stopped being so delusional and realized my inability to connect with the real world and the crucial steps I've missed in learning social skills and cues when I was a kid. A total throwback to my sperging out days as a kid when I cried before going to school because of bullies.

I'm in college now and I can't say if I'm doing better or not. I like escapism, whether it's visiting some exotic place or shutting myself inside the house for weeks on end. Being alone, and being able to watch so many movies, series, animes, play so many videogames and learn things online, has greatly helped me. Imageboards as well. I get it that some anons may feel like it's pushing them down, but to me, it serves both as a way to let go of my feels and to learn new things. But then again, maybe my perception is warped by my youth. I've never had a meaningful relationship with anybody else than my family, and even with them it seems fake.

>>38229370
>Anyone feels hope when reading these posts?
Maybe I've reached a higher plane of thinking earlier than most, go figure, but self-realization is constant within me. Not one single moment I spend off the computer goes without me trying to pinpoint where my life went wrong, but I can't seem to help it.

Congratulations for the thread, OP. I don't have enough time or willpower to read through all of it, but I genuinely appreciate it.

>>38227293
I have that exact behavior sometimes as well. IRL apathy slowly creeping here.

>>38226918
Get a program like Norton Family or K9 and block this site and any others that do this to you. Choose a password that's long.

>>38229286
That's a pretty bloody good RP

>>38229527
>Maybe I've reached a higher plane of thinking earlier than most, go figure, but self-realization is constant within me. Not one single moment I spend off the computer goes without me trying to pinpoint where my life went wrong, but I can't seem to help it.

I've learned to see this constant search for meaning as a defense-mechanism of our human minds, like antibodies does to diseases. I fear the most that when this last attempt of self-preservation ends, the worst could happen. If anything, being constantly trying to escape from our realities through stories should teach us that there are great things that we could achieve in life. Even if our current tunnel-vision on reality doesn't allows us to see it, there is too much evidence out there to disregard it as a false fact.

>>38227072
Literally the only good post I've seen from Roachland

>>38226632
I truly believe that most of our issues are related to this. That in some point in life we discovered we were not special.

Our unwillingness to contribute to society as a functioning individual could be better defined as our method to refuse this fact. We fear that by becoming normies we are accepting it.

Fuck that. I may not be special. But then the only thing I have left is to try to live a special life. If I have to live with this disgust of carrying a normal life then I will embrace it. And instead of staying still, I will take decisions that are outside any path of life I could think of.

>>38229651
There are great things indeed that we can achieve in life. But knowing that you could but you can't or don't want to; knowing that you're still young enough to fix your shit yet there's an invisible barrier stopping you; knowing some have it all and have enough energy to do it, only pushes my hopes further down for me. There's a line in "Total Recall" (the book) that goes something like: "Some people are afraid of people watching them. I, on the other hand, am glad they watch, because they push me upwards". To make a parallel, here you have those whose other's accomplishments push them ever further on their course to reach them; and then others whose other's accomplishments only make them less willing to go ahead in life. I'm afraid I fall in the second category.

>>38226300
>>38225096
I think I'll come back to this "4chan is bad for you topic" one more time to add to it. I'll sound like the typical reddit newfag but here's the simple truth. This is an anonymous website where we can post, all the while knowing that at least more than half of the posters in the same board share your interests or your woes. It is a refuge from society - a society some of us rightly feel alienated from. I can't make up those feelings, and depression or alienation can't come from this website alone (I've had those feelings before posting here). Rather, this website makes them more apparent and makes us come to terms with them.

Sp why should I stop browsing? I come here for the laughs. I'll admit I sometimes larp and shitpost all around, but those threads is exactly what makes my time here enjoyable. You cannot deny that those posts here are quality content, original content that you won't find anywhere else.

Then again, perhaps I'm just too young to understand how your way of thinking goes.

What's working for me is realizing my connection with effort. People praise effort and trying hard and giving it your best and succeeding, everyone is like "holy shit that person worked SO HARD, they spent so many sleepless nights and now they're on the top and they're still pushing harder and succeeding". I used to think so too, and I was massively, massively unhappy. I went to therapy for a while for depression and ended up clashing with my therapist for a long-ass time over what I perceived as effort and her insistence on me sitting down, preparing for things step by step, going for behavioral activation, all that business. I tried. As it was, I just sat there, being lazy, thinking how one day I'll sit there, clean up my room, prepare everything, make myself some hot chocolate and work into the night. Until I realized that's what's holding me back.

People don't actually envy effort. They want work with nonchalant success. The coolest look to me is the effortless one, the work without the work. Kinda like French minimalist wardrobe where everything looks like you picked it up from your floor and you still look ten times more made up than most people. I envy that shit SO much. That's what led me to my realization: I need to work without work impacting me. I need to let things come naturally and work without actually putting my back into it, overthinking it, preparing for it, planning for it, procrastinating, all that. It might sound like massive self-delusion, but I needed to work without starting to do work. It just came naturally, not even on impulse but on feeling.

One day, I felt like going traveling. So I did. Told my parents I'm going, emptied my personal savings. They bitched the everliving fuck at me. Didn't care, picked up my suitcase on the same day and left. Seen half of Europe at this point, just wandering from town to town staying in hostels and feeling incredibly content. Life's just happening again, and it feels nicer.

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>>38226541
THIS
THIS IS EXCATLY ME
FUCK'S SAKE I JUST WANT TO BE SINGLE, WHY DOES EVEEYONE TELL ME TO TRY AND GET A GF

OP's screencapped comment is shit. It assumes a certain trajectory in life, treats certain experiences as inevitable, and it acts as if everyone has to react to and have the same values.

It's edgy 'wisdom', without really giving any functional advice.

>>38229651
>>38230033
What do you think we see on these achievements that we crave for?

I would like to know what insight you have on that. Personally, since I feel like I've failed on developing a robust identity I seek value through the eyes of others. Using your analogy, I feel like I watch successful people going forward because everyone in my position does so. By not knowing what existence is supposed to be and not having defined which are the core-values I should strive for, I seek whatever everyone else does. You could say I filled my undefined sense of self with whatever crap I've observed others do when growing up.

>>38230104
Law 30 of Green's "The 48 Laws of Power": Make your accomplishments seem effortless

You're doing great work, anon.

>>38226922
How old are you?
This was me for a long time, but now I'm not necessarily that bad at things like that nowadays.

I don't know how this will affect you but I'm 25
There's no defined HARD cut-off for changing your life, or revamping your neural circuitry.

Dedication, and applied intelligence will get you wherever you want in life so long as Tyche aligns herself in your favor

>>38230104
Sound like the kind of person that I aspire to be, anon.

May you live only as long as you wish, and may your enemies be punished however you deign.

>>38225054
Jesus Christ. That's some motivation right there.

>>38230398
24 years old and I'm still like this.

>>38229286
>we don't see ideology
that entire line is pretty on point tho

>>38225096
Bullshit. I've learned things on this website that there is no way in hell I would've learned otherwise. Shitposts aside, 4chan is full of genuine experts. I've learned about books, movies, games, and political ideas that people only learn naturally after a lifetime of digging through garbage.

>>38230266
>What do you think we see on these achievements that we crave for?

We see whatever we'd like to be. A man who used to be in my class was intelligent and interesting, yet not boisterous. I used to admire him because I was so devoid of friends that I resorted to boisterous behavior to get them (That's before I realized how much of a joke that all was).
As for material achievement, same thing. I may not have understood very well your question, but what I find terribly de-motivational is that those people have a will to accomplish things. A fire burning within them, and history seems to be written in their favor.
I read Arnold Schwarzenegger's biography, and that's exactly what it is. Now I realize that I never had any motivation. It's just empty. And when I see people at the top, I just say "I'll never get there, it's too late" (Even though I'm not even 21 yet).
Another personal factor is that, as I said in my earlier post, I already tried to change myself at the "perfect" moment (high school - AIS, more college-like in my country than American high schools which are very immature by comparison). And I failed. Now who turns around his life in college when he's failed to do so in high school, after failing to build up significant relational skills in childhood?

>>38230960
Ditto. That and, as I said, /r9k/ was more like a bulb shedding light on darkness. I hadn't come to terms with how alienated I had grown from reality, and as I started lurking I discovered that I wasn't the only one. It's as if I lived with a disease before, and then I saw the doctor and he told me exactly what it is and why, thus realizing where the suffering came from.

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>>38230104
>>38230323
>>38230457
Anons, you are on the right track. Wu Wei. I've been reading daoist philosophy lately and it's incredibly comforting shit, as long as you don't try overthinking it. Just go with it and become the master without effort who walks down the middle of the way.

>>38226922
I'll be your friend that asks what you're up to and how you're feeling every day. If you want.

>>38230977
The thing is, we all have motivation for something. We lurk, we write, we read because we need to employ that drive on something. We just don't know into what tho. We are confused, we should strive for this things we don't really want.

Even if it doesn't seem so, you were lucky to find someone to admire outside your family, a third party chosen by you. There was something in him that you wanted to have in you besides his drive.

That perceived will successful people have is very likely a conditioned trait developed during their childhood. Severe cases of depression have shown that absolute absence of motivation can even shutdown basic human needs like eating. So you're still in good shape, you happen to have too much freedom on what to invest your drive.

In my opinion, methodical experimentation of possible goals is the only way to find out what motivates you. There is so much introspection we can apply on our limited perspectives.

A dangerous thing is to think that habits equals identity. You won't probably change as you said, but social interaction and general action are habits, traits that can be trained. As you've shown, you are totally capable of social interaction. But you're used to fully employ it via this medium only.

>>38231193
Sure.

Which social media do you want to use to contact me? I don't really use Skype.

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>>38226800
>the great terror

>>38227293
>no one is going to look back on any points I may have made like it's going to change their life
That's may be untrue, I've had my mind and perception of things completely changed while arguing with other anons here.

>>38231261
Do you use Discord? I hope I'm not turning this into a /soc/ thread.

>>38231583
Got it open right now.

But I'm afraid of sharing my username on this board.

>>38231611
Not him anon, but don't worry. Nobody gives a shit, and you can always change your discord ID.

>>38225130
Sauce on this? Tried reverse but no result

>>38231700
NHK ni Youkoso! Can't remember what episode that scene happens.

>>38230033
>Then again, perhaps I'm just too young to understand how your way of thinking goes.
You are. I'm 28, unless you become a sexhaving normie with a normal life, the weeb/vidya addict loser lifestyle is not sustainable. You can't really see it as long as you're in school and uni though. Maybe your first few years of work too.

>>38231623
I have aspirations of becoming infamous in local esports circles though so I wouldn't want my name associated with /r9k/ in the offhand chance that it happens.

I suppose it wouldn't hurt and I can delete my post soon afterward though.

I'm Chozo_Gunner.

>>38231198
>So you're still in good shape, you happen to have too much freedom on what to invest your drive.
I don't really buy into that. Sure, compared to those with severe depression, I seem like an healthy man, but I do not feel right. As I said, I already tried, only to crash and burn. I'm not dedicated enough for being methodical.

>>38231777
I've already tried to become a normie, to no avail. Who knows, maybe I'll change with age. Despite what people say, I still can't convince myself to wean myself off what gives me the slightest dose of happiness in this world, which is escapism in its many forms, whether here or in video games.

I know nobody cares, but weight loss changed my life. I'm not sure why I was so morbidly obese for so long. I just didn't care I guess. But after I lost the first 100, I realized people treated me better. After I lost the 2nd 100, I realized how awful my life was because people are so much nicer to me it's incredible that I never noticed how mistreated I was back then.

People look at me now. I turn into a turbo autist when they do it because even though I look better and people should look--I'm still extremely self conscious. I think it's because nobody ever looks at you when you're fat and ugly. I felt truly invisible. I'd go to a store and it'd be someone different ringing up all my junk food. Then I'd go to another store next time. By the time I'd get back to the first store, half the staff had changed. Nobody remembers.

>>38231846
Post your discriminator, the name alone is not enough

>>38231913
What's my discriminator? How do I find that? Sorry, I don't use this thing that much.

>>38230104
Good post anon. You inspired me. That's exactly what has been troubling me always, I never do, always think and prepare, but never never take the last step.

>>38231902
Yeah, nobody cares.

I was fat in middle school but my became slim frm the third year of middleschool to the first year of highschool and my life got way worse after that, I lost all my friends changing school and everyone shunned be although I was fit, I'm still fit now and it's useless

>>38231198
>I don't really buy into that.
Knowledge comes from within. I won't sell you anything, anon. Just keep your awareness high, whatever happens to grab your interest, grab it.

My biggest regret is staying in the limbo you're right now for too fucking long. It leaves scars. You have plenty of time to give up, keep trying.

>>38231902
>>38232012
I was never fat but I started dressing and grooming myself better after high school and I noticed that people really did look at you differently. It has such a good effect on you but the catch is that you're still socially autistic so you're not sure how to handle it.

I plan on working out and getting a good body and seeing how people treat me then.

>>38231951
https://discordia.me/discriminator

>>38232082
As soon as they check you out on FB they will shun you.

>>38232130
Yeah I figured it out shortly after my post.

Probably gonna delete this post after a short while.

#9463

>>38232082
I attempted this too, but in the end it didn't improve anything. I hope you fare better than I have, anon.

Just drink friend

>>38228626

>I'll keep that pussy warm while you're crying in the corner.

lel

>>38228881
Living too much in comfort makes you weak and if you're not strong when you're older you will die painfully and slowly.

>>38228601
>>38228614
>>38228626
2/10, nice cuck fetish erotica

>>38231041

you are no master

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>>38232770
Never claimed to be a master but imagine being one tho.

>>38232794

I know man.

blockedagain

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I've forgotten about this one. Using Safari is a lot better than Chrome.

>>38228601
>>38228614
>>38228626
Fuck those posts honestly. I held out hope that my crush wasn't getting pounded by dicks all day long now but it crumbles by the day

>>38233110
Maybe she's not out getting pounded by tons of cocks, but the reality is that at some point she gets horny and she wants somebody to touch her body.

Whether or not she wants YOU to touch her is literally at the whim of Fortuna

>>38232082
>I plan on working out and getting a good body and seeing how people treat me then.
I'm so close to having a nice body but I think that my brain is starting to realize something.

It's starting to realize that if I have a nice body and I can't get girls then its that I'm ugly. I'm not going to say that I have the most attractive personality, but I've got a kind and caring heart and its apparent to anybody that really spends a few minutes around me usually.

But if I'm ripped and I still can't get girls then that means I'm fucking ugly or otherwise defective

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Bumparumpa

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>>38226839
What does this mean any resources?>>38226800
This too

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>>38229298
>pale blue image background
>not using tomorrow theme
opinion discarded

>>38225121
You can enable the oldschool text captcha in the Settings button on the header.

>>38226156
Me too. The information I have gotten hear is invaluable. I've learned so much about politics, computers, science, cool fringe stuff. etc. And to be quite honest I've gotten a lot of motivation from threads like these. Without this place I'd be just a mindless consumer like 90% of the other retards on earth. Also would you rather talk to people with similar interests and points of view on an anonymous image board, or dumb yourself down for normies that you don't really like. You can watch DIY network and post on facebook all day. Heres the thing, just know that your better than normies and treat them like the shit they are, unless you come across someone who actually has value.

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OP here. This really blew up right after I went to bed huh.
Thank you all for your screencaps and discussion

>>38236100
Why are you pretending to be OP? I literally made this thread.

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>>38236222
naw ye didn't.
But still, that's besides the point. It ultimately does not matter who made it.

>>38236222
>>38236100
Shut up retards, I'm the real OP

>>38236280
No I am the real OP

>>38236100
Good job OP. Best thread I've seen in months

>>38236100
Yeah Op good thread. Gonna encourage me to come back here a bit more often haha

>>38232963
>we have discovered every relevant science
that is a bold statement

This thread motivated me abit thanks anons and OP

>>38229268
stop being so pretentious.

Soo... should we all try our best to break out of this or just give in?
I'm having mixed feelings about life now.

>>38237752
It don't matter
None of this matters
oregano

>>38237752
Would recommend trying.

I've stagnated for years and it was fun at first but it sucks now and I wish I hadn't dug myself so deep.

>>38237879
To add to this: thing is, you can always stop trying and live a boring life with minimal social interaction etc., but you'll regret spending your whole life like that, so you should fight to get something more than that, and there's no better time than the present to start trying.

I'd say take some good photos (fuck knows how) and go on online dating or go on /soc/ to make friends (it's a crazy fucking sausagefest you'll never find a GF there). Not because these are great options but because they're all a typical robot has.

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>>38237752
Yes, take control of your life, become the man you wish to be.

>>38237772
is me

>>38237879
>>38237928
>>38238132
I can let you know that still have a chance in life, but I was planning to get comfy. The times I tried to "put myself out there" and failed still hurt, even though I'm the only one that remembers them.

You all have changed my mind. I'll either try and live with the pain of my failures or try and succeed. No more comfy for me.
Thanks, anons.

>>38238180
fuck, messed up.

>>38237772
not me

>>38237752
me

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I wish I could gather all these people who dreamed to be something special, to band them together for some common cause

>I won't scatter your sorrow to the heartless sea. I will always be with you. Plant your roots in me. I won't see you end as ashes. You're all diamonds.

>Each man longs to pursue his dream. Each man is tortured by this dream, but the dream gives meaning to his life. Even if the dream ruins his life, man cannot allow himself to leave it behind. In this world, is man ever able to possess anything more solid, than a dream?

>>38227251
This one is legit good

origen

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anutha wan

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appropriate for the thread, I do concur with a resounding confidence

>>38226839
This one makes me paranoid as fuck

Well. This was a good read.
Good night to all of you.

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>>38225081
Fuck did this one hit close to home. I'm 28 now, and am this guy. I didn't even realize it until right now. My adult life has played out exactly like this. I see no point in doing anything, I don't tall to people at all except the passing "how's it going?" "Thanks have a good night" to a cashier. The only differences are
>still talk online
Or at least drop a drive by comment
>still feel anxiety
>still feel anger/hatred occasionally.
But really, I'm just empty. I never grasped the term "a shell of what he once was" until I got like this. I dont watch animu, or any tv, vidya feels pointless and no longer intrests me. All i do is get black out drunk, and watch videos of feminists/sjws making complete ass holes of themselves every night so i can tell myself, "at least im not that fucking retard". I just sit idly by waiting to die, because I'm too much of a pussy to do it myself. I hate what i have become, what's worse, I know that theres no escape.

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>>38225042
This makes me glad I'm not a norman

>>38225042
OP has some interesting ideas but terrible solutions and assumptions. If you're as anxious, isolated and depressed as OP describes in 21-26 the solution is to take advantage of any mental health resources at your disposal.

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>>38239238
But I wasn't the kid who was smarter and more talented than all his friends. I was the fuckhead who got straight F's and whose teachers shook their heads at. The one that never seemed to be particularly good at anything. Seeing posts like these always fill me despair and remind me what a failure I am.

/blog

>>38241349
I mentioned assumptions without really talking about them... I'll elaborate, it's important I highlight why mental health resources are a bigger deal than becoming a normalfag. Well, being a normalfag does not fix your problems.

Instead of "no gf" being the problem, now the problem are your gf's demands, whether she's cheating on you or not, do you have conflicts with her family, dealing with her shit tests, etc. /r9k/ of all places should realize how sheep-like and weak normalfags can be about certain things, such as love and consumerism. And contrary to popular belief, even normalfags experience misery and suicide, just for differing reasons.

You are free to stay as weird as you want as you leave your isolated life; just not as stupid as you are. The fact that you've survived years and years of misery and nothingness has, at the very least, given you insight into a life that is fertile with suffering, a life that is worth avoiding at any possible cost. It might have even taught you coping mechanisms for dealing with the misfortunes that can crop up in life. And the cynicism found here is pretty fucking useful for avoiding pitfalls that would slay normalfags dead, like gold digging gfs or girls with daddy issues.

What I am getting at is that if you've lived a shitty life you have still grown as a person but in a very subtle way. It's not a way that can be appreciated through dollar bills, property, or consumer goods. But you'd be kidding yourself to think that hard times do not breed strong men. If you've survived this long without killing yourself you are hardier than millions of people who are already six feet under.

Another thing, we live in the best time for finding people who think like us or like our same hobbies because of the Internet. Microcultures are abundant and there's no need to fret about not being overly successful in the mainstream culture. There are always new people to talk to.

1/2

>>38241950
I had originally said mental health resources but I realize now that this gives the wrong impression. I don't just mean therapists and their medicines. I think that changing a person's culture can also radically alter their behavior, thus the previous mention of microcultures. So I extend mental health resources to include religious communities, rehab type meetings, and even small things like book clubs or local hobby groups. Internet groups/forums count but places that tend to wallow in cynical misery and self loathing like /r9k/ unfortunately need to be excluded. Except for the rehab groups, people at these other areas typically won't know your struggles unless you tell them about it. But they'll care about something that you care about and that can open some serious social doors isolated people have been deprived of.

>>38226741

this guy probably wasn't as bad as he thought, and could've made it if only he'd had someone to care

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>>38225042
>24-26 how did everyone suddenly get married
wtf?
At least I graduated college though, that's something right?

>>38236304
No, I'm the real OP.

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>>38226561
>new kid at school
>try to talk to him and be his friend
>goes well for a day
>suddenly theyre in the popular kids clique in a week
>theyre bullying you along with them

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>>38227043
>>tfw small children instinctively hide behind someone and clutch their mothers' legs when they see me

i hate it. i don't want to hurt anyone ever.

>>38225145
You just need to git gud and sleep four hours a day.

>>38242286
more than twice anon
people aren't born suspicious and afraid of everyone who is so much as polite to them

>>38242286
Iktf all too well.

Or slightly better but still bad, they just become popular while you're clearly the weirdo and they know it so you end up looking and feeling really stupid.

>>38226895
You know nothing of doom if that means something to you.
Meaninglessness means something.

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I can revive the thread

I have the feel to do this.

This is a good thread. Don't have anything to contribute yet.

>>38243870
Jesus Christ. That's dreadful.

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this thread is beyond depressing.

I hate myself so much.

24 y/o neet here...i don't know how to describe it.

>>38243870
looks like that guy that lost then found his dog a couple weeks ago on here

>>38243870
holy shit fuck people he didnt even do anything wrong or disrespectful or anything all he did was try to fit in

>>38244442
>high school
>3rd world country
>alcohol
>no friends/gang/squad to back him up

He was just asking to be eaten alive, he should have walked right out of the there the second he realized it wasn't an innocent barbecue

>>38244662
Nigga I was born a third world spic and this is not something that happens often. Even for guetto standards this is fucked up, people, even on poorfag places, don't fuck up someone just like that just because out of sheer malice. The boy was plain and simply unlucky and drew the shortest straw possible, and honestly, from my experiences, kids from well-off places are more likely to do something of this sort. This kind of social shaming is not the type that matters on such places, they'd just beat you up and be done with it, well-off kids know this kind of stuff hurts much more than just being beaten up. I seriously feel sick to my stomach, poor kid.

>>38243870
normies are so fucking vicious

>>38243870
>you read this post and then fantasize about busting into party with machine gun and wasting them before they can scar him for life

>>38227876
wagecucks are not safe from this at all

this thread is indeed too real, but it's what we experience every day on /r9k/.

I should have been saving posts

saving posts as inspo for a character in a book I'm writing, thanks anons.

>>38226922
>I plan on talking more and socializing more when I have nothing to be ashamed of.

i still tell myself that.

>>38225145
As a former wagecuck this is exactly how I felt, I have to be on to the next thing, the new job, back to school, join military, anything else but I have no time and I'm so sleepless I can't even think straight about anything long enough to make coherent decisions.

Suicide is always there though, but it's actually not an option.

>>38235565
all the stuff you think you would never have learned from 4chan were just gathered from places outside of 4chan and from people's personal experiences.

there's nothing redeemable about what we do here.

>>38226541
What a bunch of fake news, no one could write that in a minute, clearly OP responding to himself.

>>38245505
The thing is that there's no other where such type of information concentrates like this. Or what? Do you think you'll have everything you've learned about here on your local library? Don't be stupid.

>>38245588
I imagine the need to post it in under 10 seconds sped up the process

>>38225145
This is so melodramatic. I have an hour commute too and as I looked into moving closer to my job I started to realize just how much of a pain that would be just for a career that may or may not pan out. This guy is literally just complaining about his poor time management skills. Use those 2 hours a day to your advantage. Listen to audiobooks, practice your singing, hell you could even watch some shit on netflix if the traffic is bad enough. Plus, sooner or later we'll all have autopilot cars so you could potentially sleep on your way to and from work. That would be the shit. (Additionally the prevalence of autopilot vehicles would inherently reduce traffic anyway as the cars would be programmed to communicate with each other for the most efficient routing possible).
This guy needs to suck it up, I work from 8-5 with a 1 hour commute both ways and I feel great. I don't normally get much sleep before I have to be somewhere the next morning anyway, so just learn to deal with it and it all works out. You also have to kind of enjoy what you're doing. If you believe wasting your life on the internet is preferable to making a difference in the world, then maybe you were meant to perish.

>>38245679
Even with /pol/ the "redpilled" community mainstream reddit tier liberals come in and btfo them all the time on race, 4chan is a meta experience, the closest thing to a social life some of us will ever have.

It's hard to know exactly what's beyond these walls we've built for ourselves isn't it?

>>38245802
Good job at missing the point, idiot.

>>38245814
His point was that work sucks if you have major anxiety issues. If you have your shit together, it's not a problem at all.

>>38245808
>It's hard to know exactly what's beyond these walls we've built for ourselves isn't it?
You say it like if only failures come to this place. I've met, and befriended, literal millionaires who spend 3/4 of their time traveling all over the world and working on stuff that most people wouldn't even be able to comprehend even if shoved down their throats, on this site, even on this board.

Just because you have shallow experiences and a shallow worldview doesn't mean everyone who browses this place does.

>>38245834
That's not the point at all. Get some reading comprehension bub.

>>38245802
>coping this hard because you sold your soul to be a normalfag

>>38245857
I was a NEET for several years and coasted through college with a humanities degree (which as we all know is just adult babysitting). I've been on the opposite side of that lifestyle for my entire life, spoiled rotten and lazy as shit. One day I hit an emotional rock bottom and genuinely wanted to kill myself because of how worthless I felt. I went to a therapist, found the motivation to work, and now I actually feel proud about myself because I'm doing something with my life that doesn't solely involve jerking off to hentai and raging about video games.

>>38245856
You're not arguing with me, you're just calling me an idiot and acting like you know more than me. Explain yourself or don't respond, faggot,

>>38245900
I concede you're right, I just have my own experience I relate to his post. Maybe it is just an anxiety disorder or some other thing, maybe it's feeling like we should have accomplished more.

>>38245900
how did you pull yourself out of neetdom

is it just me or is it really fucking hard

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>>38245989
looks like he went to college when he was in his early 20s and is actually an utter normalfag roleplaying as one of us outcasts but he has such willpower and genetic superiority he overcame our lowest lows.

>>38245989
You realize there are only two paths in this life, one of which will inevitably happen whether you like it or not:
1. You will literally kill yourself from boredom and/or depression.
2. You will see the reality of option #1 and do whatever it takes to avoid that.

The only way for you to reach the second conclusion is to reach the edge of the first one. You never know what you truly want until you're actually standing over that precipice. I was borderline suicidal before I decided to make a change. It is really hard to pull yourself out of that complacency, but unless you realize the immediate necessity of it, things will never get better. In other words, you have to hunger for new perspectives, new connections, and a better life for yourself. You're a NEET because you feel no tangible pressure to exist any other way. For me, that pressure was internal as I legitimately wanted to kill myself and saw that it didn't matter how much I didn't like the idea of working or needing to impress others or getting a girlfriend, etc. Anything is better than letting it all end for nothing.

When you ask yourself, "What is my legacy?", it all becomes pretty clear just how much you haven't actually done or tried in order to create one for yourself. The only ending for you is the one you make for yourself. If you don't want life to end within the confines of your bedroom, then it's time for a change. Only you can make a difference in your life. Stop fighting life and just embrace it. That or use that pent up rage to start a revolution if you really feel so strongly about it. I doubt that's the case though.

>>38246110
did therapy help?

I'm becoming one of the lost souls who is coming to the point of telling myself I'll never make it out of this.

>>38243870
Jeeeeesus, bullying in third world countries is rough.

>>38246253
It did for me, I had issues with codependency, my dad dying at a young age, and general anxiety issues. My sessions focused on generating self-esteem from something other than myself and it helped immensely. If you have insurance then I would highly recommend it...of course getting a full time job (not retail) usually comes with insurance as a benefit so maybe you could start there if you can't afford it otherwise.

>>38246310
Shit, I meant generating self-esteem from within and not exclusively from outside things. Video games, girls, etc. If you let this shit define you, it'll leave you hollow when it's all gone.

>>38246310
that interesting since my dad died at a young age as well, I recently quit my job, but now time is flying by and I haven't killed myself so I'm stuck as me again.

anyway that's my problem.

>>38246110
what if i'm actively seeking to find a job but always get screwed over left and right

i know exactly what you're talking about but nothing i seem to do changes anything. i want desperately to change my life, i want to go out there and make something of myself but i can never seem to be able to. i look for work but no one ever seems to hire me.

nothing is crueler than false hope, i suppose

>>38226839
This gives me some hope.
Maybe, while my means nothing now, just maybe sometime before i was really meant for something.
Maybe thats why i want to fly planes and look at the stars all the time, its because my left over purpose wasnt fully washed out by some evil over lord that wants to control the population.
I am the husk of what was meant to be a great and adventurous human being.


Or im justifying my worthless existence

>>38230960
>>38231012
I'll bet neither of you have been on r9k since 2009.

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>>38225054
>this is your future

It is terrifying

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>>38228601
>>38228614
>>38228626
I knew all of this, but Jesus Christ

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>>38225042
>>38225054
>>38225072
God, just how many people feel these feels? I never imagined any one person could experience these things yet duplicates of these exact people and scenarios fill this board. I mean how many people here live in such a hell every day? Tens? Hundreds?

>>38248648
How many posters that you've replied to or laughed at or baited do you think have killed themselves?

>>38248739
>implying death is the worst thing that can happen to a person

Imagine thinking that things are going change, that today might be the day...

Rip in piece, my soul.

>>38229815
That contrarian rage will eat you up inside anon. Living out of spite is no life at all. The best we can hope for is to just seek a good, simple life. To do anything else is to give too much credit to the unwanted wishes and advice of people who have hurt us. It's not worth living in defiance of.

>>38227251
Holy fuck, that feels bad man. It's so true, though. Realizing you'll have no impact, whatsoever. It's such a killer, but I can't escape it.

my gut wrenches like a motherfucker, too. I slump over, sometimes.

>>38229815
>Fuck that. I may not be special. But then the only thing I have left is to try to live a special life.

Something inside of us still wants us to live a special life, despite everything the world is telling us. Thats weirdly inspiring.

Guys, I'm 18, just got out of high school. This thread has thrown me into an existential crisis. HOW DO I STOP MY LIFE FROM BECOMING THIS?? PLEASE TELL ME HOW TO PREVENT IT AS IF TELLING YOUR PAST SELF PLEASE

>>38249915
It most likely won't. Let's be honest, 95%+ of people don't end up like this.

>>38249937
I feel as if im headed down this path though. Ive browsed /r9k/ and other boards since I was underage, I feel like it has rotted me

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>>38249915
what if this site is the problem in the first place

>>38249989
Don't browse then.
Take the blue pill.
Leave this place.
Block it.
Just start walking around your neighborhood, or go somewhere with people, and just walk around and try to talk with young, friendly looking people.
Just keep doing this until eventually, one day, you meet some people.
Be good to them and eventually you'll meet their people, maybe even their peoples' people.
Figure it out from there.

People like this board because it feels more real than real life, it feels more tragic and meaningful. Even in the posts about "life has no meaning," they feel a rather noble sorrow over their "understanding" of the true nature of life, a claim that is rather grandiose and meaningful.

These feelings are nice, but they probably won't lead to a conventional happy life, so get out of here, never ask a robot for advice, never talk to a 4channer ever again.

>>38250034
I'll have to try. I can still change things

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Here is my attempt.
Please consider giving me a (you) if you get any sort of affect from it.
I have not had any good interaction with people.

So here we are, in the slow death of western civilization, the death knell of capitalism and the dark dawn of degeneracy.
What choices do we have? Wageslave for a society that doesn't care, Toil away for the scraps of paper that stave off starvation or NEET it being a drain on already dying world?
The truth is there is no right answer both are paths of suffering and boredom.
But, at least with normie life you can earn some freedom. Some small illusion of accomplishment. With saving and some drive you can forge some meaning with your existence with what you have learned and earned however small that may be.
Or you could stay NEET with escapism to get you out of bed in the morning and keep you up at night. Take it from someone who has seen both sides of the coin. Attempting to do things will get you failures and regrets true but, it's not always the case. NEET life will ensure that you suffer from a want with absolutely no means.
NEET life can show you that in someways purgatory can in some ways, be worse then hell.

>>38250279
As you're consciously trying to make a contribution to a thread about the subject itself, it seems forced and takes away from the natural quality

>>38250520
Sorry. I'll go away.

>>38250279
A little heavy handed in your verbiage, but pretty poetic and rang true overall. I appreciate it, could be a good one, just tune it up and post it a few days later

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>tfw brainlets are the only people who think "I'm too smart to be happy"
>tfw real uber-mensch brain masters are smart enough to send their lives into a fun and interesting direction

>>38225054
jesus christ that is a scary post

These threads give me temporary motivation. But then I wake up in the morning and do the same exact thing. And I'm not going to kill myself, I'll keep posting here saying I will to get some (You)s. I'm too afraid to actually do it. That's because my life is built around fear.

I just want to fucking die but I can't. God damn fuck this board. Are any of you even real? Am I just talking to a advanced AI? Is my mind just simulating conversation to make up for lack of social inteaction? I don't know anymore to be honest.

>>38225054
>tfw 99% of people can look at this post and say "phew, glad that's not me"
>tfw you're the 1%

There is no reaction image that can properly encapsulate my 30 year long feels streak sufficiently

2 words: jordan peterson

>>38250892
Yeah sure, ask Arthur Schopenhauer how happy he was, or Nikola Tesla, or Alan Turing.
Sure there are exceptions, but many brilliant people suffered greatly during their lives.
The difference between them and us is that they had a passion for something. Passion literally means suffering, so they were willing to suffer for their interests.
As for me, I don't really want to be happy, happiness is only a passing feeling. What I want is meaning. To know that what I'm suffering for is actually worth something. But I can't find it.

just stop crying lmfao

>>38252871
For every Nikola Tesla there's a Richard Feynman and for every Alan Turing there's a John von Neumann. Most people brilliant enough to become world renowned don't actually lead shitty lives.

>>38249915
If you're not going to college, try to keep your friends around as much as possible and be as social as you can. Try and find a job as soon as possible, don't let it wait - every year longer in the gap of employment post high school will not only make it harder to get a job, but also take a year of your life.
Doing both of these things will ensure you are forced to be social around people a lot. The inability to socialise at the same level as your peers is what defines a robot - this is why you need to get into the world now. Don't worry if you think you are a loser, nearly every 18 year old is kind of a spergy loser in retrospect.

If you're going to college try and make as many friends as soon as possible. Go to orientation activities in the first week of school (this just might be an ausfag thing but I'm sure your school will have something to get people to mix), everyone there is there to make friends - you can just start conversations with anyone and it won't be as weird as you think. Make sure you are constantly socialising (even if you just hang around the same people) because as above, decent social skills are the key to having good life and not becoming one of us.

Also now that you're out of high school, never talk about high school again. This sounds silly but if you start trying to meet people your own age, you will probably try and talk about high school with them because that's something you know you have in common (and it's consumed most of your life to this point). Doing this makes you look a little retarded and infantile, you need to talk about experiences or interests that show you have a life outside of an institution you were forced to attend.

Always try and do now, the regret of inaction will be a far more burdensome pain than the most humiliating situation that you could reasonably get into.

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I can never be happy
I'll always return to baseline

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>>38253611
>that pic

Jesus Christ, Could humanity truly be a mistake of evolution?

>>38230214
Because not having a partner is literally the ultimate sign of weakness for a human. People are literally unable to understand wizards.

>>38253672
>Because not having a partner is literally the ultimate sign of weakness for a human.

Even if that human is a 6ft tall ultra-chad?

>>38253587
Also 18 is not too late, most people have up to 21-22 to fix their life before it becomes much harder. You may feel like you are falling behind your peers but it's alright - most people will forgive inexperience up until about 21-22 then it starts to make people think you are weird. At around 23-24 is when people start slowly drifting away, getting pulled into their own lives. It will happen slowly and you will not realise until suddenly everyone has their own life that keeps them occupied. You need to be one of these people - you need your own life.

Go traveling at some point. Yes everyone that is really into it is a big fag but you will meet so many people and gain many experiences to share. People in foreign countries will also treat you like the most interesting motherfucker around because you're an exotic traveler to them - it's the most easy mode socialisation possible and even if you fuck up horribly, you'll never see these people again.

Don't be like one of us, you're better than that.

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>>38253690
How often do you look at a 6ft tall ultra-chad and think "man, I bet that guy looks like a total loser, I bet he's a kissless virgin"?
On the other hand, this is what everyone thinks when they look at you or me.

Unless you're a 6ft tall ultra-chad I guess, in which case pics or gtfo

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>>38243870
children are basically sociopaths

>>38243870
i would honestly kill myself
fuck normies

>>38244977
>you get immediately v& by the fbi for conspiring to commit a terrorist attack
Thank God for America, the land of free speech!

>>38253772
This, i can't understand how can people say that children are "innocents" or "dindu nuffin".

Try to leave an infant or a relatively young child inside a room with a newborn puppy dog, after 1 hour come back to the same room, chances are that you'll see the puppy shredded to bits, while the infant it's happily playing with his limbs.

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I wish I could go back in time and fuck everything up. Ever since I was a kid my parents told me that I should focus on my studies, focus on being a success and that "the friends and girlfriends will come after you're successful" and that "it's what you know, not who you know!"
I am now convinced that this is something every parent tells their child as some sort of sick test to see if they have enough common sense to disobey them. A test that I failed, because there is absolutely no way that someone could seriously believe that shit.
I wasted my best years not socializing, not going out and getting wasted and getting girlfriends. forging relationships or having campouts with "the boys". I spent that time studying and playing videogames. I graduated with honors, went to college, and I still can't get a good job. I kill myself doing manual labor with uneducated mexicans that can't even speak English. I look at the facebook pages of my graduating class and see that all of the sports chads that failed class after class are making good money. A girl that was getting arrested several times a year and could barely read is now a pornstar making good money.
I wish I could go back in time to when I was fourteen, when a school administrator pat my head like I was a fucking dog and started talking down to me in front of a bunch of other administrators and calling me "well trained" and punch her in the face. And take the consequences that came with that, and become a juvenile delinquent drug addict pussy slayer. Because I'm absolutely sure that being studious and meek didn't help me one fucking bit

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>>38243870
Then, the very same normalscum will pretend to be wholesome people who oppose bullying. Fucking hypocrites. They only oppose it for people they don't deem subhuman.

>>38225042
29 here. I can conform that picture to be accurate.

>>38225054
Jesus Christ. I've always none in the back of my mind this is my fate, but seeing it spelled out like that? Fuck.

>>38251240
29 years old here. Also part of the 1%

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>>38225145
WAKIE WAKIE RAGIE WAGIE

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>>38249937
>95%+ of people don't end up like this.
>tfw you're part of the 5%

>>38249915
You're 18 and you're here. If you joined recently, fly, you fool. It's the last chance you'll get before your life hits a brick wall of suffering. Being here will just intensify your suffering more and more until you can't drown it out anymore.
Get fit. Leave the Internet as you know it, the only websites that exist are normiebook, instagram and wikipedia if you need to look something up. You can read the newspaper, but stay on the mainstream media. Get a normal career. Don't go into tech, you'll be without work before you turn 50.

But if you've been here for more than a year? You're past the point of saving. No matter what you do, you'll be dragged into another shithole like /r9k/, /r/incels or whatever. You'll long since have internalized the way the world works and you can no longer unsee. Your brain can't keep tricking itself, eventually leaving you to feel very strongly two mutually exclusive feelings: hatred and the desire to be loved. The former will make you ugly, prevent you from doing what I told you to in the previous paragraph. The latter will be impossible while holding on to the former. Yet neither will go away because what you've seen can't be unseen.

We're all here, whether we're NEETs or actually have some kind of career, because we know that our lives have ended the second we were begotten.

>>38254141
I've always known I mean. Jesus.

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>>38249915
get out please. I've been reading wallowing self pity posts on this website for nearly a decade. I really didn't think any of it would happen to me, in fact at one point when I was an especially stupid, especially autistic high schooler I romanticized it "awesome, noone is talking to me! It's like I'm invisible! pretty soon I'll be like those anime NEETs and I'll spend all my days playing videogames and watching anime, I can't wait!"
If only I fucking knew. I'm not telling you to leave to be elitist or mean, this is for your own good. Really, leave this place. Even if you have an iron tight will and can somehow balance the constant mopey, self wallowing pity and hatred with an outside social life why risk it? If you really need to, for some reason, be on 4chan stick to hobby boards like /fit/ and /o/ or /sp/ or something. Never touch /r9k/ again. by the time you realize you've fucked up your life it will be too late. Don't look back.

>>38249915
Go to university, make connections, and work while you go to school. You're actually lucky to know you still have a chance to avoid this kind of result in life. I would emphasize the networking and job aspects, actually. School isn't that important, it's just really good for meeting people. I got a good job because of my connections, not because of who I am or what I know. The key to being a normie is mastering the art of social engineering. I don't mean PUA nonsense, I mean establishing strong relationships in order to get ahead in life. You can do it, man.

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>>38225145
Why the fuck does anyone need to work 40 hours a week? I don't understand other than to assume that those of you who do just waste the money you earn on useless shit. I'm a NEET who has never had a proper job but pay for all my own shit bar rent and amenities. For 20 hours at minimum wage in the UK I could pay for all the shit I need (food, water, rent, electricity, motorbike insurance & fuel, other essentials) and still have a little left over for saving. And that's at minimum wage.

This motherfucker needs to put down the fast food, energy drinks, anime subscriptions and drugs and start valuing his money more because that is essential what is costing him all his precious time.

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>>38254654
>Never touch /r9k again
I don't know why people say this, I spend time here to know that I'm not alone in this world and it helps with the loneliness. /r9k/ is not the cause of your shitty life situation, it just allows you to connect with others like you and find some salvation in belonging somewhere.

I agree though, someone freshly turned 18 leaving highschool I would much rather him be on another board, so that this board is for true robots only. As general advice it's useless though, I would rather be on r9k than reddit some fake bluepill normie advice on reddit.

>>38227012
I'd at least use a rifle. Would you want your last act on Earth to be remembered as another failure?

>>38227074
>I have all these opinions about life or something to share with people but can never find the appropriate time to actually do so because people end up just talking about stupid shit like some local places around town or stupid, pedestrian shit. I can think of multiple times I was talking to some family and I got way too serious way too fast and said something too serious and too sincere.
>I just really hate the way people programmed to socialize. It's completely at odds with the way I think.
I'm the same way, the topics of normie conversation don't even enter my mind.

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this fucking thread made me realise what they meant when they said "/r9k/ will ruin you, dont go there" fucking robot motherfuckers, i hate these fucking feels

>>38225145
>there's a light at the end of the tunnel and I can only hope it's a train

Fucking hell, this poor SOB is me.

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>>38226741
When I was young, I was always reading travellers biographies, those very famous and those locals, and I wanted to be like them. I didn't know back then the world will turn into globalization this quickly. I've been hiking, camping outdoors, living my big adventures on a small scale, I was still middle and highschool, I had time. I did courses for mountain guide, I worked as guide for summer camps with kids, I started going further, sailing, kayaking, cave climbing, I wanted to cycle around the world, or sail around it. I wanted to write it down, and I wanted to be known as my heroes were known.
But then my knee happened, I don't know enough English to describe what exactly happened, but I had three surgeries, and I can't walk 30 minutes with a backpack anymore. All I've been working for 26 years is now gone, I had no plan B, this was everything to me. Probably my country bad medical care didn't help. The pain is real everytime I forget a little about this, not only pain in the knee, but pain in my heart.

Now I'm almost 28, and I've been in limbo for the past 2 years, don't know what to do, don't know where to start.

>tfw I'll never feel like that anymore

>>38225054
His resilience will be awarded in the next life. God speed dollar store man.

>tfw see one of my long posts reposted in this thread
>tfw still a useless post that wasted bandwidth
>tfw this is another
>tfw sorry.

>>38257970
well, which one was it?

>>38257926
One can only hope. I would've killed myself long before that point.

>>38257441
I'm really sorry to hear that brother. I'm 25, and my only hiking trips were the ones organised by the school, and they didn't happen often. I've been venturing a lot throughout my whole life, riding bicycles, I never had a solid job and I'm currently looking for one, and I really hope I'll get to taste the /out/ properly, like on your picture.
I don't know what I would do if I realized that it's simply impossible. Life is 50% desires, and 50% letting go. I hope you'll find an answer.

>>38258004
Yeah nah. Here's your (You) back.

>>38226741
This is how we got Hitler.

>>38256570
Agreed. Part of the reason I have to move out. We have the same petty conversations, I hear the same petty complaints from my mother about the people, neither I nor her knows.
You just know you've been playing the game for too long because all the dialogue lines keep repeating to the point you wish to skip them.

I don't like complaining about shit they play in the radio. I like to turn off the radio and pick something I want to listen to from the internet.
I don't care about politics, celebs, everyday occurences I wasn't involved with. And most of all, I don't want to talk about past, what I did as a kid. I want to focus on today and stop talking about the damn feelings, especially when I'll be punished for speaking my mind. It's fake. It's all so fake and I want to stay silent, and hear silence if that's all you have to say.

>>38225054
>>38225081
These are fake and gay and don't belong. The idea is introspection and insight, not make belief stories.

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>To be alive, to walk this earth...

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Feels galactic, mane

>>38258237
If he didn't fail in his shortsightedness by making order, authority, and white pride evil, then I would admire the guy.

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good thread, liked the abstract ones especially

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I'm so tired guys. I'm dreaming of cuddling someone at night everyday. I'm not even suicidal because I'm sad, anymore. I just want to get it all over with. This life wasn't good to me.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Y-Qu_Fk23T4

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>>38258656
At least you dream

>>38258656
Hope you find what you're looking for, anon.

>>38258741
I have a terrible habit of remembering the past and reminding myself "good times don't last". There's no happy ending anymore, but thanks.

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Don't want this thread to die.

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Reminder that being a robot is a choice. Your suffering is self inflicted as you decide not to change your ways. You've designed the gilded cage you want to live in and you get exactly what you deserve. This board is only good for bullying people.

t. normie

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>>38259369
You've just activated my ALMOND card!

>>38251050
This tbqh Iktf all too well. I've been browsing this shithole since I was 15 and it's changed me.
I wanna restart

>>38225054
I'm not really convinced. Pretty sure not asking someone out just can't be your biggest regret as a 54 y.o. NEET.

>>38259621
Yeah people totally don't get hyperfocused on one issue, circumstance, or event in their lives that they blame for things.

>>38259621
That wasn't his regret. It was the fact that he allowed fear to stop him from living. Asking a girl out is just a little piece of that.

>>38258652
God damn. This couldn't be more perfect, and depressing.

>>38259369
This is in some extend true, but you have to understand that what seems for you very easy to do, is actually very hard for us, so imagine doing something you find hard.
Basically what you seem normal is for us almost impossible.

>>38259369
Read >>38227109
and stop posting.

>>38258652
So why MUST the underground man exist in this world?
I can relate quite a bit to this and it doesn't feel good at all.

>>38260384
that wasn't the new thread button

>>38226599
Fuck, man, I am pretty sure I wrote that.

I tend to be particularly "grammarly" when I feel like it, using correct punctuation and sentence structure. It's almost OCD. Though that last comma in that post makes me think I probably didn't write it.

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I found one, at least I think this one wasn't posted yet

>>38235006
this is the best day of my pathetic life right now

>>38259621
>Pretty sure not asking someone out just can't be your biggest regret as a 54 y.o. NEET.

One would think so. Regretting that you were too fearful to attempt to initiate a relationship is a concern that should belong to an adolescent for whom something so small appears so very significant. Our old man has gone an entire life without marrying, having children. He never had a career. When Death claims him he won't have the memory of a single accomplishment to console him. There will be no mourners, no teardrops to wet the ground he's buried in. The imps of self-doubt plaguing an adolescent that prevent him from trying to court a girl should be of little consequence to an old man tormented by dragons.

But, though tiny, that silly gesture is the first step a child takes on his journey toward adulthood. Bereft of that initiation, our adolescent finds himself frozen and alone with nothing but his nasty imps as companions. Time passes and both he and the actual human beings grow older. The difference is that the latter begin to grow up. They encounter new struggles, learning to negotiate romantic relationships while the solitary man still suffers as a boy does. What once were pesky imps become a little more vicious. Their horns lengthen, their fangs sharpen. They once inflicted minor scratches but now draw blood.

Years pass and the hermit watches others marry and have children. They develop careers for the sake of those families but, without the motivation and confidence to do so himself, our poor soul lives only for the sake of the next moment. There's no actual future awaiting him. His devils grow stronger and they graduate from cutting flesh to tearing gashes.

Eventually the clock sounds the ancient child's final hour, jerking him from the morphia afforded by despair. He looks up, expecting to see the petty imps of his youth leering and screams in terror as the rough beast before him lunges forward and rips his anemic soul to shreds.

>>38261253
screencapped. that was bueatiful, tripfag

>>38225107
what the fuck this is actually nice
what's the problem?

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>>38253829
and shoot them up first, right?

>>38243870
Should've just shot them all. I hear it's not hard to get an illegal gun in Brazil.

>>38254088
This.

>>38225145
this is excatly how i feel, just in my case it's even worse. cause i wake up in 3:45 so i dont miss first bus in 4:10 , and i get to workplace in 5:10 and i start to work in 6. AND, i work 48 hours every other week. and i'm afraid to quit that job cause on this job i can actually have a good pay if i stay, and if i find some relaxed working place, pay would probably be shit and i would have to work for very little money the rest of my life.

>>38253587
Fuck, all the people who responded to this poster made me even more depressed. /r9k/ has grown to be my only refuge and having tried being a normie I feel blunted by all those recommendations. I'm starting uni soon as well. This has got me down too. I'm depressed and I'm shy so how the fuck am I supposed to act all good from day 1?

>>38225042
I'm 23 and so far following the progression perfectly. Was a video game playing NEET until age 20 when I realized if I didn't start doing something then, there would be no hope at all. Took one class at my CC that quarter and gradually increased my course load until I was doing more than full time.

I made a Facebook account, talked to people in class and added them, even went out to get food with some normie-ish guys a few times. But after it became clear that I had no similar life experience to theirs and no ability to reciprocate conversation after my list of prepared topics and responses had been exhausted, they stopped inviting me and sat in different desks in class.

I've already fallen in love twice and been rejected once, and I'm far less stable than I was when I was a NEET. I can't deal with my failures much longer now that I know what the real world is like, I just want to end it all before the last of my dreams are crushed.

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>>38262251
This is me at 19

>>38261975
Trust me, it only gets worse. I'm more of a cyborg but meeting young kids in college that had robot tendencies, only to then watch them become well-adjusted successful normies was painful.

>>38262325
Yeah I've fallen into full robothood since being a semi-normie didn't land me any success

>>38262291
Want to tell me about your unrequited love anon?

>>38262402
I met her at 16, we parted ways at 18 (already posted here bout her quite a long time ago). Late so I won't delve into details but I've been attracted to girls before, the common crush, etc...She was a whole different deal. Although I didn't truly love her till we both reached 17 she always was special. There was something about her. Then when I actually talked to her I found out she was truly unique. Not just her beautiful face and her nice body, but the way she was. Kind yet willing to be defensive about things. Shy but not afraid to speak up. Intelligent (even though our interests were different). The kind of girl that you really felt like she cared about you when she looked at you in the eye. Can't exactly say why I loved her. I never expected to love a girl like her, it just occurred. She didn't have any social media, only talked to girls, heck, she was...just unique. To my eyes, at least.

I'm posting that secretely hoping you're her. She's been introduced to 4chan by another guy. So I'm hoping she sees this. Quite sad yes?

>>38262594
And shit I'm actually 18, no point in lying. Just feel like fuck, I'm crashing down when normies around me are taking off

>>38262594
Sorry anon. No I'm not her, but she sounds like a girl an online friend of mine had talked about.

>>38262750
From where is your online friend?

>>38225054
That's why it's important to have money so you can be a 54 year old rich middle class virgin.

>>38262791
Met him in an MMO 4 years ago. Won't divulge much else because I have my own opsec to worry about. I'll tell you about my failed loves if you want.

>>38249915
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>>38253733
I really don't know how to feel about all this. I'm 20, I passed the last two years here and it's like like I already missed the train. I'll be 21 at the next university reopening, what should I do? Is there still a legitimate chance for me to socialize in college? I still look younger than most 18 years old guys but I'm afraid that people reject me when they will find out my age.

>>38262926
I don't know. I'd tell you to lie about your age or make up excuses like health problems. But I lied to an online friend who lived near me about my age and just about everything else, and had to cut contact as a result when he started asking for details. I could've actually been good friends with him too.

>>38262898
Is he from France? Say yes or no

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Posting this so I can track back my query tomorrow. G'night

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>tfw anyone on here could be the next hitler

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good thread lads, probably the best discussion I've seen on r9k in the last 6 months.

>>38261038
>pathos is related to pathetic
whoever wrote this didnt finish high school

>>38249915
i wish i was conscious about this when i was your age. Im 26 and barely surviving. Still fucked in the head. The last 5 years went by in an instant.

You have to pinpoint the exact problem you have and work on it. Eat properly, sleep properly, dress properly. You need to invest in yourself. Not like us, we neglect ourselves because we hate what ewe see in the mirror. Then depression kicks in and you're too lethargic and cant be bothered to do anything than the most passive shit like watching tv/anime and vidya. The moment you are clinically depressed, you dun goofed

Wanna go to the gym and get /fit/? no energy
wanna brush your teeth? no energy
wanna learn something? no energy and no attention and worsened memory

The very moment the lethargy then it's 90% checkmate for you. Be proactive about it.

in social terms, really, and i mean really appreciate your friends. I've kicked my friends away over the past years and regret it a lot. I may never get together with my bros just because im a reclusive piece of shit.

Heed my call you nublet. AND LEAVE THIS GOD FORSAKEN PLACE.

>>38250024
the addicting nature of this site is definitely a problem for most of us.

>>38225042

i'm 35 NEET KHV here, never had a job, on the bux.

i didn't even finish high school because i stopped growing at 13 and realized by then i was gonna be a pathetic manlet for the rest of my life so i just stopped going after a couple of months.

now onto daily life for me now, i try to get up early because it's less depressing being awake in the day time,

i don't drive, i cycle to my old moms house for lunch erryday, i think i would be dead if not for this excercise by now (somehow i am still fat)

everything feels shit now, i used to enjoy vidya but everything is completely niggerlicious now and i can't be assed to do anything

i spend all my time being an introvert and daydreaming and from all the free time i've had i can tell you that not a single thing matters here, it's a contructed simulation we are in here and everything is one big massive lie, not just some things EVERYTHING IS.

when you've reached my level, you don't even have to pretend to be retarded to get on the bux, you will just become wierd and seem demented to normalfags

so yeah......... i am just waiting to die now really, just doing my time here and when that's over no more thx. any kind of reality here is shit, even in the best body and with all the money in the world it's all garbage.

>>38225054

fake story, a 54 year old NEET wouldn't break down and cry to a normalfag kid

>>38229250
Christ I'm not reading this, where's the trademark ""reddit spacing"" when you need it? Paragraphing saves lives and helps people actually give enough of a shit to read your garbage

This thread is nothing but filthy normie propaganda.

>>38263731
t. 16 years old edgy kid trying hard to fit in, thinking his bubble of entertainment and instant gratification will never pop

>>38263088
No, he's from the US west coast

>>38226839

this is some tard level bullshit

space is fake, internation fake station is a nigger, earth can only be experienced as a more or less flat plane NOT A BALL

god you are such fucking niggers.