Kms

So to distract myself from feeling like life is pointless i keep doing things that dont really make sense

I took off from my home all of a sudden with a one way ticket to another country with 1 month of preparation

And i made a few friends from 4chan so meeting some of them once every 1~2 years is my motivation to live poor and spend all my money going to see them in different parts of the world

I dont know why im writing this right now

I think someone to talk to about the feels may be nice

But it's not like there's anyone to talk to

"Friends" from r9k are full of their own issues and wont/cant handle having me say all this to them

Maybe you are reading this tho

Im about to move home again in a foreign country where i can only speak like a kindergarterner in their local tongue


Just to find something to do (pack my furniture and belongings)

I've been crying myself to sleep for about 12years so thats about half my life

Why am i such a miserable edgelord shithead

Kinda wish i have a gf
But i also know that even if i had one i'd still be a misersble piece of shit

I grew up in a happy family my parents never fought i have never experienced abuse

Why am i fucked up??