Does anyone feel like they can never be happy because of the ever-looming presence of death?
If I'm not sad about people close to me that have died, I'm sad about people close to me that can die. I feel like death is waiting to take everyone away from me at any moment.
I even got a hamster a few month ago, and all I can think about is how he's going to die in a year and a bit, and then I spiral into a deeper and deeper depression.
I know this isn't normal. Does anyone else experience anything similar?
The only alternative to an inevitable death is eternal life. Living far after everything you knew has passed on (or, an interminable eternity with the same people forever).
Death is a gift. Embrace the void.
>>38180823
I experience the same thing. I know my dogs and grandparents have very few years left and it puts me in a permanent state of sadness and depression, knowing that even if my life gets better they will be gone sooner or later regardless.
>>38180823
Living forever is 20x worse anon, be happy someday you get to die
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>>38180908
It's not my own death that brings me down. It's everyone else's. I'm getting fatigued from it. I don't seem able to move on. My father died 17 years ago and I still can't move on.
>>38180892
That's definitely the feel I've got. Almost like there's no point in being happy because it won't last.
>>38180823
i guess i get a lot of anxiety anticipating my cat dying, i don't even know what i'll do
but it doesn't affect me every second of every day or anything
he's like 14 yrs old and super healthy and everything but just knowing he's elderly for a cat is unsettling