How are you?

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My son will not leave his room. I didn't raise no loser.

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Incredibly upset but I'm doing my best to ignore it like I always do

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>>38180575
Halfway through the work night I'm feeling really relaxed. More than enough time to get my work done and take several long breaks. A tiny bit of longing for my friends is also present to be honest

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my istincts tell me we weren't supposed to end up this way

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Decent.

I quit cigs and I'm trying to get a job cause I've been a NEET for 3 yrs and my country doesn't pay out a lot of neetbux. I am a bit afraid of going back to work because I haven't worked for so long and I don't like social interaction one bit. I hope the govt can give me a comfy job where I don't have to talk to people.

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>>38180601
Dad how do I get a gf

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longing for a gf not in the normal r9k no gf feel but my (for lack of a better less edge word) yandereishness makes me super starved for females. BPD is a bitch

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>>38180973
just be yourself son.

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>>38180575
Extremely unhappy and directionless. I'm 20 years old, my entire life has been a failure. I have no friends, no job, no hope. I'm currently staying in my brothers room because otherwise I'd be homeless. I feel like shit for always leaching off of my brothers, when they were my age they supported themselves. I need another job but I don't even have any permanent residence or any way to get to work. I dont feel like a human, every attempt at connecting with others is a fail, I can't even succeed at small talk or introducing myself or buying something at a store without it being awkward and uncomfortable. Every word I speak falls flat or has an unintended effect, people react to my presence similar to how you might react to a giant hairy tarantula on the ceiling above your bed.

I slept all day today, literally the entire day. I'd wake up and remember I have nothing to do and nowhere to be and then I'd go back to sleep. I want to go outside but I can hear that one of my brothers roommates (I still haven't even seen any of them because I never leave his room) has a lot of girls over.

I'm a fucking mess and I don't care.

>>38180575
Everything is boring, I don't really feel anything, I wish I was at least mad at something, or even just sad. Instead, it's like everything is grey and in stasis. I don't do anything, I waste my time to get to tomorrow and nothing even remotely intresting ever happens. I wish I had somthing I wanted, maybe this want would push me to work towards it. But instead I want nothing, I care about nothing. I don't want to kill myself, but I really don't want to live anymore either.

>>38180601
Apparently you did. Nice parenting dipshit.

>>38180575
Paranoid as heck

>>38181159
"I dont feel like a human, every attempt at connecting with others is a fail, I can't even succeed at small talk or introducing myself or buying something at a store without it being awkward and uncomfortable. Every word I speak falls flat or has an unintended effect, people react to my presence similar to how you might react to a giant hairy tarantula on the ceiling above your bed. " i can relate. feels like people always get the wrong idea when i talk to them. They always seem to think that I am either trying to be aggressive, or am lying or hiding or something, anything other than what i am really trying to say. FUCK THIS SHIT IT GETS ON MY NERVES. This is especially true when I ask questions. They always assume that i am suggesting something or whatever.

Life is as mundane as ever. Here's the thing. I really wish I were normal. I wish I weren't tired all the time. OPs pic is pretty much 100% accurate.

But every time I try to push myself, say going out with friends and making an effort to talk to people, trying to be funny, and whatnot, there's always that... thing.

It feels like something is sapping away my mirth and vitality. It's almost as if I'm self-aware that I'm being a tryhard, and that in the end all my efforts are futile. I really don't have an urge or a drive to do anything. I can sit in a chair picking at my fingers for hours.

Sure, I may occasionally bump into something nice. In fact, I held a girl's hand a couple weeks ago after more than 7 years of hardly talking to females in general. However, just like everything else, it goes fucking nowhere. My life is fucking stagnant. The years are passing by like minutes because I'm running the clock all day, mindlessly going in an out of fantasies.

I'm finally going to try antidepressants soon. Maybe that'll save me, because frankly I don't know what will.