So anon, why are you deciding not to an hero today? >my dog

An original fear of going to hell

Too much work o

Not really sure. My sister died 3 years ago, I'm the last one now.
I guess I'll just wait for something significant to finally occur.

>>38157760
I'll get caught. I'm waiting for family to go on vacation.

Fear of going to hell and finding my parents their since they already an hero.

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>>38157760

Because I don't know which one is truly worse for my loved ones.

Watching me suffer and struggle with almost everything in my life, and being helpless to provide me with relief

Or the grief and solemn cold from knowing that they'll never see or talk to me again. Everything that I am has ended, and there's nothing but memories left.

opinions? I feel lost.

>>38157880
If there is any chance of being happy again then I would not an hero. Of course they say that you living is better but it all depends on if you are burdening anyone.
If you have loved ones you should live

>>38157855
Wont they see you when they get back?

My sister died and i don't want to upset my parents further or bring even more shame on my family than I do already. Most of the community knows I used to deal and use drugs do to my mother being overly trusting and telling some other moms. Spread like wildfire, killed my social life cuz no one wanted me around their kids, I never recovered. If I kms now everyone will think I never got better and just hid it.

Don't know if there's punishment for doing it and I can't get access to a gun.

Have half a bottle of rye whiskey and two kegs full of delicious homebrew.

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>>38157760
I would but gf. Tried once already and it was awful to her so i promised not to. It's an hero or military and she hates both and she says shell an hero if i do but i think that's just what thots say idk
>still think of it everyday and read my letter from 4 months ago

>>38158004
Yeah, but I'm planning on using sleeping pills and I don't want to be interrupted while they are being absorbed. If I had a gun I'd just do it now.

>>38158335
Question, will using sleeping pills hurt?

>>38158302
>gf

Hmmm ok

2 last friends and the video game franchises I have love for

>>38158354
It won't hurt, but it will cause nausea. The hardest part will be keeping them down, I assume.

I dunno man, it must be some science biology shit or something.

My cozy bed

>>38158571
Will liquid zquil be enough?

id be fine with dyibg in my sleep pr soneshit but personally im afraid to try it and i mean whats the point im gonna die anyways

My own cowardice of either Hell (suicide being a sin) or complete non-existence. I solve my own shaky hand by putting myself in dangerous situations in the hopes that someone\something else kills me.

>>38158671
This, living is all the suicide I need.

I'm writing a lengthy suicide note/manifesto that I'll give to my parents and oneitis. Still haven't finished it and haven't felt like writing.

Also, I went outside and shot a blank gun today. It was much more powerful than I expected and scared me a bit so that shooting myself seems distasteful now, but that feeling is already receding.

If anyone is reading this, list your paypal account and I'll send the first couple people a few hundred USD before I check out

>>38158764
>My own cowardice of either Hell (suicide being a sin) or complete non-existence
This, I'm terrified of both and my present life although shitty is still infinitely better than either.

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>>38158764
All of this, famalam. Although these days I'm even too scared to put myself in dangerous situations, so I just dream about it.

I want to kill myself more than I ever have in my entire sad life, but I'm also the farthest from actually going ahead and doing it - and getting farther by the day.

>>38158788
Mine is paypal.me/rayvelt
I might suicide soon but if you transfer it, I'll make sure someone else gets your and my money I guess

>>38158786
i like try dry fire my shotgun in my mouth when i feel like i wanna die as edgy as it may be

honestly though im afraid to ever try it because id imagine it would hurt

but hey i like to smoke and since in gonna die anyways i smoke all i want

however i do fear getting copd or bot being able to breathe but in moderation i dont think itll hurt

>>38158662
I don't think so, but it can get you high which is always nice.

I'd rather have something else take me out somehow. If I kms it would be horrible for my parents

Pls no suicide

>>38157760
Everyone thinks I'm cool for some reason so if I killed myself everyone would find out how much of a faggot I am.