Have you got someone you love and wish would love you again robots?

>>38142323
Yep, I wish I could have loved your mother but she was so goddamn ugly.

My ex. I fucking miss you Megan.

I miss my entire harem but I was a fuck up and deserved to lose them.

Although I didn't deserve to be treated the way they treated me either. never trust roasties. But youll still miss them.

>>38142323
I have someone I love, and wish they would love me.

We really are two peas in a pod, and she seems to put forth a genuine effort to remain in contact with me (including starting conversations), but my instinct tells me she isn't romantically interested in me.

it fucking hurts

>>38142399
Did you meet her here?

>>38142414
No, she is a childhood friend of sorts. Went a long time without seeing each other, and we met up for the first time a few weeks ago, and become pretty close in a really short amount of time. Now, though, we're just keeping up through text.

>>38142399
You need to make yourself worth loving. Improve yourself as much as you can and be the best person you could possibly be for her

>>38142372
What happened between you two? Was it mutual

Kind of. There's a person I wish I had met under different circumstances, but even then I know we could never be happy because of my issues.

>>38142604
How bad are these issues?

My ex. It's my fucking fault, too, because I was too autistic to stay with her. It was online, and after a while I just kind of ghosted her. I told her that I cheated on her when she asked why I left (she asked about a year later) which isn't even true. I just didn't feel capable of keeping up the relationship. I miss you, Ashlyn

>>38142604
>There's a person I wish I had met under different circumstances
Iktf. Right now I'm in too deep with someone who I'm almost certain I could've at least dated had I met her earlier somehow, but I met her too late and now my chances of ever being with her are next to nothing. Maybe I would've sperged out and screwed it up anyway but I just wish I'd gotten the chance to try.

I love christina but she will jever have feelings for me

His name is Johnathan

>>38142323
She's all I think about besides suicide and weird imaginary scenarios, it's pretty pathetic. my heart aches a lot

>>38142323

Yes I'm completely in love with a femanon from this board, I've talked to many girls from here and ghosted most of them for various reasons, but of course the one girl I actually end up liking is the one who ghosts me first. Irony I suppose

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>>38142708
I've felt like this for way too long

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>be friend with someone from middle school
>gone through the same high school
>we still contact with each other
>love her so much
>doubt that she likes me as much as I love her
>has gone through 2 relationships throughout the time we've known each other
>she sometimes asks me for advice
>wants a "man's perspective" on things
>she considers me as her best friend (she knows I'm not gay)
>she's the one who, 95% of the time, initiates conversation through text
I know that a part of me is telling myself that I'm getting friend zoned, cucked. But another part just can't stop loving her. It's few and far between when she asks for advice.

>>38142792
It's going to rip you apart inside if you aren't honest with yourself and her

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>>38142323

I don't know if I'm lucky but I hate every ex I ever had due to various forms of betrayals.
I mean I fucking hate them.
I don't miss them. I only miss the ghost of who I thought they were.

>>38142857
I had a friend who got cheated on. She said once that even after that, she still remembered a lot about when they were happy together.

My ex you beautiful soul, long gone. I wish you would come back, to yourself, and then me. Goodbye sweet angel.

>>38142323
I have someone who I loved, but not in a romantic way. He was my best friend, and I miss him greatly.

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>>38142901

I pretty much routinely check if any of the exs has suffered some sort of tragedy.
I'm just fucking ready to feed on it.
I don't like wish for their death or anything like that. Because when they are dead they can't feel anymore.
I want them to feel. I want them to hurt. I want them to suffer. I don't want them to die.

I feel so fucking alive when they lose something precious.

No. I don't miss any happy moments with any of them. Because I know it was all fake.

I miss companionship I guess. But it's hard to say because it was a illusion I created within my own head.
In the end they never loved me I just loved who I thought they were.
Which concludes to myself that I just tricked myself into loving something that was as real as a animu waifu

>never had anyone love me like I love them
not once not ever. in my 30+ years in this shit fuck hole

>>38142631
I'm a pretty shitty guy that ended up hurting that person badly and I' pretty sure I'm incapable of truly loving a woman. But even if I wasn't all that, I couldn't have given her the life she deserved, not for many years at least.

Nah. Go to hell Amber.

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>>38142844
>It's going to rip you apart inside if you aren't honest with yourself
But I'm not gay
Jokes aside, I dredd the thought of confessing my feelings towards her. I feel that if I do, things will just get uncomfortable between us, thus losing someone I deeply care about. In addition most of her friends see me as a creepy, autistic wierdo, which could play a factor in her deciding who to be with.
I just have a gut feeling that she just doesn't like me as much as I love her. She's the only true friend I have apart from memeing assholes.
I don't know man, maybe she's just a oneitis and she really is only using or making fun of me for some reason. I'm just venting at this point. I'm too much of a coward to tell her what I truly feel.

>>38142734
Whats his name

organic

>again
lmao implying

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>>38143068

Tell her how you feel anon.
If you have to write a letter, email. Whatever just do it.
You may never know.

I scored a pretty hot one doing that. I even stated I probably don't have a chance in hell, bla bla.
Just said the truth. She accepted it.

We were together 2 years before it all went to hell.

But really I'd rather of experienced that and hate her today than never experienced it at all.

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I wis h everyone except first comment in this thread the best. If I stay awake any longer, I might do something I'm not ready to do. Goodnight everyone

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>>38143132

You will never be ready.
Just fucking do it.
Or stay a faggot ass robot the rest of your life. Faggot.
Tell her you love her. Be a romeo faggot.

>>38142323
I did not love her, and I don't think she ever loved me, thou there is another qt who keeps me coming back, who I find it hard to part ways with, might that be love? co-dependency?
I dunno.

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>>38142323
>again
I wish. I just want somebody to love me who isn't one of my parents or other relatives for once.

>>38143157
Not what I meant, but I think I needed that. Thank you

>>38142928
>be me, rising junior in high school
>move from Midwest to Deep South suburb of large city
>find out I have summer football practice
>show up and meet the team
>never seen so many black people before
>every other word I hear is nigga
>in complete culture shock, and dont know who to trust
>get put into lifting group with other linemen
>big black kid with corn rows introduces himself to me
>My name is Tamarie
>struggle to repeat it
>he starts laughing, giant smile crosses his face
>I know its a pretty black name, you can call me T
>work with T for the rest of the day

>>38143225
continued

>T introduces me to the black kids on the team
>most of them seem like decent people, but he warns me of who to watch out for
>next few days, T and I start talking more
>T cracks a joke about black people
>I laugh and I crack one about white people
>T laughs, so I go for it, crack a joke about black people, T laughs even harder
>this continues. Racist jokes become the foundation of our friendship
>start to get close and I invite him over for dinner
>my parents are happy I have my first new friend of the area so my dad grills some t-bones
>T has never had a T-bone, and cuts into fat
>T tries to be polite and chews on the fat for like 5 minutes
>I finally tell him he can spit it out
>we laugh about his, another racial joke it made
>spend the night playing video games and having fun
>over the year T and I become best friends
>never been closer to someone, we are so similar even though so physically different

>>38143239
continued

>one day, T asks me to say nigga
>I refuse
>says its okay, just say it
>still refuse
>says I can whisper it
>fine, on one condition: You must beat on your chest like a gorilla
>T agrees but before doing so yells out Yo hes gunna say the n-word
>some black kids come over to hear me say it
>I feel pressured and dont want to
>I wince as I say in the most white voice possible, niiiiiiigggaaaaaa
>so awkward everyone starts laughing
>T get a major kick out of it
>see, wasnt so hard, its just a word
>fine but you still have to dance like a gorilla
>T pounds on his chest and makes monkey noises
>laugh it all off
At the time I didnt realize the importance of this day, but after a few weeks I realized why he asked me to say nigga around him and the other black kids. He wanted to remove any last bit of separation between us. We were equals in his eyes, but there was no other way for him to show it to express this.

continue?

>>38143113
Do you think you share the seemingly nice times you've spent with your ex? Should I just do some kind of anonymous e-mail to her and see if she talks to me about it?

>>38143263
>Do you think you can share the seemingly nice times you've spent with your ex?
Fuck me, I'm losing it.

>>38143259
Please continue, if you think it's worth telling

>>38143259
fuck it I'm just going to continue regardless if people want me to continue or not.

>after the day I said nigga we were as close as brothers
>started spending as much time as possible hanging out and being bros
>our fist football game came around and we had to eat pregame dinner together as a team
>local church made grilled BBQ chicken
>T and I sit next to each other surrounded by the other white kids
>T starts munching on the chicken and smacking his lips together, making a lot of sounds
>White kids near us start making racist jokes about T
>but they arent joking
>I start smacking my lips and slurping my drink
>White kids are in shock Im acting like T
>T and I start eating as barbarically as possible as we hold back our laughs
>White kids are disgusted by our actions, which only makes it that much more funny
>this continues for the rest of the football season and into our senior year
>overall we are super close
>call each other white brother and black brother
>hang out as much as we can
>start a ritual of going to the movies every weekend and then hitting up sonic
>as high school ends, we both put a picture of us on our facebook timelines of each other in our graduation cap and gowns

>>38143322
>both go to separate colleges
>vow to meet up over Christmas break
>I love my freshman year and have a great time
>hit T up when I am home over break
>we make plans to have a bon fire with mutual friends
>I bring alcohol to the event
>have fun at bonfire
>drinking, music, and stories of high school/the past semester
>T is quiet
>doesnt have much to add
>ask him about his semester
>doesnt want to talk about it, says college is overrated
>says hes not going back
>we all get wasted
>That night we share a bed in his friends house
>I wake up in the middle of the night and T is starting to piss on the wall
>stop him and carry him to the bathroom and clean the piss
This isnt important but I thought it was super funny

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>>38143357
Please let this end decently

>>38143357
>next morning I drive him home
>hes hungover as fuck
>stop at stops sign and T jumps out to puke
>boots in the road
>gets back in my truck
>I tell him about the night and him peeing on the wall
>we laugh
>continue to drive about 20 miles, almost to his place
>realizes his phone is gone
>drive back 20 miles to check the stop sign
>phone is in the middle of the road
>after he grabs his phone he starts crying
>T breaks down
>Youre my best friend man. No one else would have drove me back to just look for my phone.
>erasure him that its nothing
>he says its not. He says that literally no one has had his back like Ive had his
>tells me that I was the first and only person to invite me over to a sleep over
>tells me that he hates college because he has no one to talk to and feels alone
>tells me that he has been struggling with depression for a long time, and that he was at one of his lowest points when we first met

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>>38142323
J E S S
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>>38143395
>I was shocked by the whole thing
>T was one of the nicest guys on the football team was liked by mostly everyone
>I was the awkward white yankee and somehow became the closest to him
>even though most people knew him longer, no one took the opportunity to reciprocate his kindness
>do my best to stay in contact with T the next semester
>the following summer we start going to the movies again, went to a concert, and did what we could when our schedules would allow
>last time we hung out that summer, we went to the opening football game of our HS alma mater
>talked about previous times
>things seemed to be looking up, T told me he started seeing a girl
>feel happy for T, and before we leave I say off the top of my head Be safe, be smart, have fun.
>T laughs and says thats kinda catchy, I like it

>>38143423
>dont see T again until the next summer
>dont see T at all really
>that summer my parents ended up moving about 40 minutes away from my old house
>parents also sold my truck
> ended up traveling to Japan for a few weeks
>T was also super busy with a construction job
>messaged him a few times but plans never worked out
>super tired one night but cant sleep for some reason
>start scrolling facebook
>see people posting on Ts wall about him Getting better
>find out he is in the ICU at the citys hospital suffering from a heat stroke
>collapsed at work in the sun, admitted into the hospital with an internal temperature of 107 degrees
>hes non responsive
I say this but it doesnt explain what I saw. He was in a limbo between life and death. At the moment looked at him, I knew he was dead for all realistic purposes. His breathing was erratic, eyes were swollen, and body was twitching.

>>38143263

Well. uh. Love.
Like feeling like someone actually cares about you.
This was like way before normies invaded the internet >pre 2002 ish
Phonecalls, Hanging out watching movies from blockbuster.
Getting to know someone, have them fall in love with you. You know all that stuff?
Eventually you hold hands. They tell you they love you.
You get taken out of the comfort zone and go to places you would of never bothered with single. You meet new people and just do things you never would do alone or with your guy friends.
Just breaking lots of barriers you may have had.
Just walking in some forest you never been to or drove past 100s of times is new.
Then when it's over, you can go back to those places but it's now a lonely forsaken place. Where it use to be bright and full of hopes and dreams. It's just all dead.
You remember your true value which now seems lower than before.
But hey it was fun for a time.
You may never experience those feelings again or see those things.
I don't regret it. I just don't understand how females just throw shit away so easily and don't even try to repair things. Just oh well I have so many men just waiting thirsty for me. Bye! faggot.

yeah.

Well I wouldn't do it anonymously just send it as yourself. The worst that can happen is you get rejected and maybe suffer some humiliation.
If it works then you may have some years of some shiny new life ahead of you for a while. Hopefully it lasts.
In my experience it never does but it doesn't mean I wouldn't do it again and again.

>>38143439
>his mother left the room to give me some time
> As I looked down at him, I started to cry
>realize that I hadnt seen him in almost a year
>realized that I could have if I just tried a little harder
>realized that he did so much for me but I never told him what he meant to me
>realize that I never told him that he was my best friend too
>I never did say anything to him as laid there because I knew it was too late
>stayed until he passed a few hours later
>I hugged his mother and she told me that she knew I was his best friend, that I meant a lot to him
>few days later was the funeral
>they handed out reembrace pamphlets for the service
>I look over the one I had
>all the photos are pictures of T and his family
>except the last one, which is a picture of T and me under a banner that said Brothers
>after the service I sat there and cried for a good time
>the pastor at the service recognized me and sat there looking at the photo
>he said I made that pamphlet, but Ts mom specifically asked me to put that picture in there. I can tell you two were close.

>>38143461
Deep down we were close. The closest friend I have ever had. I miss him a lot. He taught me so many valuable lessons about accepting who you are. He allowed me to understand race and feel accepted for my differences. Sadly, it wasnt until his death that he taught me how important it is to be honest to those who you care about. He told me upright that I was his best friend. He told me what I meant to him and how he impacted my life. But I never took the chance to explain what he meant to me. I regret my last words to him. Sure it was catchy, but it could have meant so much more if I spoke from the heart. I wish I could go back and change this aspect of our relationship, but I cant. So learn from T and I, /b/. If there is someone special in your life, do not wait to tell them what they mean to you, because you never know when your last opportunity to do so will be.

So OP, that's who I love and wish I had back in my life. sorry if it wasn't about a girl, it was what was on my mind.

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>>38143225
Someone needs to screenshot this

>>38143477
just realized i was on /r9k/ and not /b/. sorry had multiple tabs opened.

>>38143477
Great story my dude, sorry for your loss. I've been in his position before and I can tell you that just by being there you made everything a lot better.

>>38143477
I'm fucking crying right now man, that was beautiful. I'll always be honest with the people I care about. best of luck to you, anon.

>>38142323
Of course. Almost every night I dream about her. If only I met her a little later in my life, as a more mature person, it could work out and I wouldn't be that miserable.