Post your feelings in this thread right now. Preferably not

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>added 3 boys from here today
>ERPd with one

Hopefully all of those work out and I can ERP with all of them frequently.

Im jealous of other people who have an actual life. Everytime I hear or read of someone close to me doing good I get a bit more depressed

>>38120320
That's because you're a failure. Do something about it cuck.

>>38120254
I'm coming to terms that there will be no ones as passionate about games and anime as I am so I should give up trying to find someone to date.

>tfw just horny and desperate to be bullied over being a chubby slut

pls help i'm dying

>>38120254
I don't understand the retarded amount of "tfw no gf" fags on here. It's like they're just trying to meme, there's more important shit to be sad about. I can't even get my life up off the ground and I'm trying to figure out a plan before I'm thrown out onto the street.

>>38120394
Fatty.
I didn't say that to arouse you or make you feel better, just did it cuz I could.

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>>38120254
i'm just enjoying life
i've got shit lined up in the next few months but for now i'm a NEET with literally nothing better to do than play vidya and watch anime. feels comfy desu

I can't find dick girl porn anymore, i've looked at all of it in the world i think

>>38120254
I'm angry right now because I am thinking about Jews

I'm kicking myself for not talking to a girl I shared a class with a semester ago. I'm convinced I had a chance with her. I want to kill myself.

>>38120254
I'm doing alright I guess. Comfy job working with video games. I wish it was full time cause I need the extra dosh.

I've been single for 5 years now and haven't had sex in 3 years so I'm not enjoying that.

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i'm feeling pretty isolated and sad cause i've had a rough night, i've just had some bad luck and i'm completely outta my groove i was on, feeling lost

feeling fuckin pissed about it all too

I didn't get a position that I was overqualified for because the employer didn't want to "get in the way of my ongoing education." Said education is going terribly, because I feel like it only gets in the way of everything else in my life. Now I'm going back to trying to make character rigs in Blender, hitting roadblock after roadblock and generally feeling like I've made 0 progress overall. Every problem seems equally simple, yet often takes a long time figure out. Ditto for UE4 development.

In essence, I feel like a complete failure in everything that I try.

>>38120254
I'm tired and I wanna go to bed but I just got started playing Serious Sam again so I don't want to get to bed too. I am conflicted but it's 3:30am so sleep will win.

Grandfather died.
Saw him two weeks ago, not well, not eating, since then he went into hospital. Had plenty of oppurtunity to go see him but didn't know how bad it was.
Dad found out wednesday, I didn't find out from him until saturday morning because he didnt know how I'd react and wanted to be with me. Went to go see him saturday, he was sleepy and didn't even know we were there, we only stayed for about 10 minutes. Uncle went with eldest cousin and grandmother, got there not even half an hour after my dad and I left, they at least got to talk to him though he didnt recognise my cousin. Was going to see him again sunday afternoon but dad called at 8am that morning and told me he had passed away that night (later found out it was between 07:30 and 08:00). Went to see him.

It's absolutely worse for my other uncle, who is on holiday in cyprus for two weeks
I just regret not staying longer on saturday and am fighting to keep back the thoughts that my dad shouldve told me sooner.
Can hardly believe that hes gone when I saw him three weeks ago with only normal old man pain.


now call me a faggot and move along

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>>38120520
Been hitting the bottle pretty hard recently. Feeling nostalgic about my past and tired of my current situation.

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Pretty melancholic actually.
*sigh*
idfk

A lot of motivational energy, but also a lot of anxiety.

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I'm really mad because I've been sick for the past year, pretty much bedridden so I missed out on half a year of college, can't see my friends, and can't work out. Working out gave me purpose and now that that's gone I don't even know what the fuck I'm doing. Then I see a relatable comment >>38120320
and responses like >>38120334
drive me off the wall fucking crazy because this is seriously literally unironically not my fault and I can't do shit about it (been to Mayo, seen 3 GIs). I don't even want a gf I just want a life. The only thing that makes me feel better is reposting this story on every thread that's applicable. RREEEEEEEEEEEE THIS ISNT FAIR

I'm feeling shaky and anxious every night I can't sleep more than 5 hours.

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Pissed at myself because I got a C chemistry by less than 1%.

Pretty much in a state of perpetual emotional apathy or indifference. I'm in a constant state of mellow sadness that can really be attributed to my tendency to internalize all of my pain and lash out upon myself over time, endlessly. I know that people care about me, but I still feel unwanted and that no one REALLY cares for me in the way that I do towards them. I'm not entirely sure whether I'll find someone that I can love outside of my family and confidently say that they love me too. I've never been able to create friendships or bonds with people growing up because I'm a military brat that moved between my separated parents. This led to me entering a completely new school every single year since elementary school. It sucks man, it really does. I have serious bonding issues and feel afraid to form friendships, let alone relationships, with others because I know deep down that I'll have to say goodbye and never see them again. I'm deathly afraid of loss, and I have been scarred by it to the point of no recovery. I can't feel the warmth of friendships like most others, I just feel afraid that I might lose it again. I can't lose anyone else anymore. Every time I felt as though I could reach out and make good, life long friends, that privilege was stripped from me without warning. I now have been in one spot for 3 years and have made real friends which I can count on to care for me, but I am often frozen in fear by the suspicion that I'll lose them all over again, that my emotions and endeavors will mean nothing at all.

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I feel overwhelmed

>>38121825
Allow me to shoulder some of you burdens.

Too depressed to live, too much of a coward to kill myself. At least sooner or later I will get cancer from smoking.

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I'm weak. So weak.

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>feel like I need to explode but can't
>feels like I'm teetering on the edge of completely losing it but know I wont
>keep wanting to disconnect with everyone and go back to total isolation
>no reason not to just leave the two discord groups I'm in because I'm just an extension
>realized I'll never actually be one of them
>realized I've never been and probably will never be the person someone likes best
>will probably never actually be a real friend with someone at this point
>just the guy that hasn't done anything wrong and you respond to because it's polite but not someone you really care about
>talk to a single person in one on one conversation
>have been feeling really anxious when talking to them lately
>have no idea why but I just don't want to talk to them anymore
>can't actually talk to people
>severe autism
>been waking up in the middle of panic attacks again recently
>22 and know that I'm going to need to get a job soon
>the thought makes me want to kill myself
>the last time I was working I was considering seriously harming myself just to get time off work
>got fired before it ever came to that

There's more but I don't know how to put it into words and I've already rambled enough. I feel like I need to kill myself but it's a combination of cowardice, jealousy over never having experienced anything in life while others have, and how my mothers not very strong mentally and my dying might break her.

I feel the impending dread of knowing something bad is coming (Results day) and knowing nothing I do now can change it. And I failed the captcha three times in a row fml.

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I really, REALLY want a friend that would let me casually suck his cock
It would be a totally normal platonic friendship otherwise, I would just occasionally doing him a little favour in that regard

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I'm so fucking nauseous

>have dreams/nightmares every night about cuddling, mutilating and/or making love to corpses
>last night had a nightmare that my dead brother was watching me the whole time
I'm so disgusted with myself that I've wanted to vomit all morning. Why the fuck do I have to be like this? Would he have understood? Did he struggle with feelings like this, too?

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>dreamed of all my bros gave them all hugs and we were all happy
>also dreamed about her again its been 5 years now
>woke up realizing things could have been so much different if my friends didnt move cities or get deported

Fuck I really miss all my friends Manny Ovidio Israel Kelly Josh. Now Im all alone its been years but they were the center of my life at one point

I think I'm friend zoned again

>inB4 friend zone doesn't exist

Whatever, at least I get to see her today.

I had a dream that I owed Brock Lesnar money. He said the cash I have him was fake. Tried to convince him to join Venmo.

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>tfw no bf

origami

>>38120424
Are you me? Did I post that comment?

I fucking hate everything around me. I hate my house. I hate my family. I hate my friends. I hate my girlfriend. I hate my work. I hate my car.
>i hate everything around me and i'm too poor to go somewhere i'd like

>>38123083
Say it as it is. She rejected you

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Feeling pissed off about someone who keeps posting about me in some of the boards I frequent.
I get it, you realize I have glaring flaws as a human being. But did you really think it was necessary to broadcast it to everyone like a huge faggot?
I recognize how you type, you know. Luckily for you, I'm patient enough to wait for an explanation the next time we meet. Just don't expect me to forgive you right away.

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>>38123245
possibly, maybe you're bipolar, maybe you'll never know

>>38123374
>so autistic you can recognise people by how they type
There's definitely something wrong with you

>>38123397
No need to be jelly of his superior pattern recognition skills

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>>38123152
I'll be your bf as long as you're atleast a semi qt :^)

>>38123408
I'm just saying that that's not normal

>trying to separate present self from past self
>no luck

I'm thinking about moving very far away from where I am now. A new start can't be worse than here.

>>38120254

Tried life of a soldier, uni student, ordinary office worker and going into trades but it all ends up becoming mundane

I try new things but never develop a passion, thus I drop it and move on

No interest in people, had friends but suddenly cut them off for no other reason than it becoming boring talking to them. Knew this one guy since childhood but it only took a week to forget him

The only feeling I have is this frustration to simply exist with no distractions, I'm upset at myself for not giving a shit, seeing no point investing time in things I never feel good doing. My only interest seems to be having something to care about.

>>38123444
Just find sometheing you like. Then when you stop liking it, drop it and find something else. Rinse and repeat

>>38120254
Fucked up bad with gf
>inb4 normies out reeeeeee
Got really drunk last night and basically told her shes a slut, while shes the most pure girl i know, having only kissed 3 guys before me

Now im kicking myself for being such a worthless drunkard. I dont even have a clue why i said it, she didnt do anything slutty

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>tfw ordered drugs to the house
I just hope I catch it before anyone else living in the house does. Everything will work out fine I bet, in any case what's done is done and I will deal with it when it happens.

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>>38123397
If you spend every day talking with someone through text messages, you'll be able to get a feel of how they type.
It's not normal, I'm very well aware there's something wrong with me. That's why I'm here on r9k.

I just got out neethood as a full time wage slave at a car wash and I wash dishes on weekends I'm a highschool dropout so immigrant tier jobs are that only I can get. I'm watching khanacademy video lessons inbetween driving uber. On one hand I am sleeping I have a healthy sleeping schedule and feel alot sharper that I've ever been in my life but If I to keep this effort up for another year I'm going to blow my brains

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I have a sudden urge to kill after realizing that my "friends" are using me. I'm not sure if this anger is justified or not.

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>>38120254
I'm really fucking horny right now

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Pretty good after using my prostate to the fullest famalam

>>38124433
greentext it because I'm horny

>>38120254
My professional career is fucked because i chose arts 4 years ago, i want to stab myself now.

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>>38120254
I just had my fourth wank and the image you've posted makes me want to go for a fifth, that's how I feel right at this moment.

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>no gf please

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A burning anxiety I can feel in my chest that resembles a fight or flight response. But I just woke up, just brushed my teeth and shaved. I have nothing to anticipate today, yet I feel like this. I've felt like this since I returned home a failure and a freak.

I guess I'll go see Wonder Woman and sign back up for my gym.

>>38120254
nothing
I have a great life and i feel nothing
I honestly wish I could trade lives with some you miserable fucks so you could be happy and I could finally die

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>>38120254
>tfw came into work just because I knew I'd just be sitting around doing nothing if I went for the 4-day weekend
>tfw almost no one's here because they all have friends, family and lovers to spend the time with
At least it's quiet I guess

I feel dead inside. I don't want to eat and when I do because the hunger pains become too much I can only eat a few bites before I look at it and stop. Every time I try to live a relatively normal life, whenever I try to improve myself life just shits all over me. I don't know why I even try anymore, or why I tried in the first place. It's such a waste of time. I'm seriously considering killing myself if I don't get a job soon to pay off all the bills my ex left me with because I just don't know what to do anymore.

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>>38120254
Do you know that feel when you have so little in terms of normal human experiences and accomplishments compared to everyone else? Friends, a girlfriend, love, achievement, self-worth, feeling like you belong anywhere, not feeling like you're poor, actually having any hope for the future, all these things seem like fairy tales at this point.

>>38121790
You let fear control your life. The only thing you have to fear is yourself. Look at yourself and realize you have complete control over everything you do and you will realize there is nothing to fear.

>>38120254
I don't know what I'm supposed to do with my life. I don't know where I'm going and I feel bitter about the poor decisions that I've made in the past.

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https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=051C0FiNX5U

I feel great, actually. That's why I'm bringing myself down with depressing music.

Feeling great is boring.

Saw Death Grips live a few weeks ago, felt like I was actually alive, yelled as loud as I possibly could several times, sung very loudly as well. Threw myself into the mosh pits and got fucking destroyed.
Wish I could feel this again.

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>unironically go 2d
>waifu loves someone else in her story, but its an unrequited love
>this shit kills me whenever i think about it
>can't just give up on this either since i swore an oath just to spite someone

when will it end.

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I'm feeling the tired feel that sleep can't fix

Nobody likes me or wants to have me around. Not even my dad wants to talk to me. What is wrong with me? I am tired of being alone all the time.
I thought i would grow out of it, but its worse now than ever.

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>got fired today
>been applying at a ton of places
>can't get a single interview
>got maybe 4 months worth of rent saved up

Feeling pretty shitty desu. Got some booze left at least so I'll just drink myself into a coma and fap to hentai today after applying for more places.

the author uses two pivotal characters in the text to propose to the audience the internal struggle that they face. This is characterised by the introduction of two characters during chapter 16 and 17. The characters depression aesthetics and vapourwave display the internal fight between the authors underlying desire to draw themself into their own mind and dwell on events while preparing for what is to come, and the feeble desire to accept and move through faults in the authors character, this is also shown during chapter 17 where the author exclaims during a late night monologue, "even if i am wrong, or even if I do look stupid. Atleast I can have slice within myself that I did what I wanted to do, even if it damaged my social being. The preservation and safety of my mental being is of the up most priority right now." the use of contrast within depression aesthetics rival's that of the contrast between itself and vapourwave aesthetics, where vapourwave aesthetics uses contrast to display how little a person's individuality truly means in a capitalistic corporate world, this is achieved through contrast between late 80's computer generated graphics and early 90's advertisements samplings. The common thread between vapourwave aesthetics and depression aesthetics lies within the contrast between either aesthetics use of contrast, where depression aesthetics displays a more contemporary take on vapourwave aesthetics early 90's consumer culture, much of the appeal that depression aesthetics displays with the author is within its use of late 90's anime graphics that have been parodied to embody a feeling that the author has felt, the images convey a deep emotional meaning to the author by sympathising with their past mental instability, this sympathy is denoted by its use of bleak, dark, suicidally suggestive captions and its vapourwave graphics that have been parodied with the incorporations of modern day business logos.

>>38126878
The ideas that these images convey lies within their use of parody to contrast societal issues that resonate on a deep emotional level with the auuthor. Many such images stimulate internal debate stemming from the prior mental instability of the author. Through analysis of these two characters within this text in relation to the authors past experiences it is clear that the author uses these two characters to display to the reader the internal struggle they feel with what should be shown to the audience, and the side of the author that they feel will lead to hurt, disappointment or possible instability within the relationship between the author and the audience, the side that popular consensus says to stay in personal life, and only shared with those close to the author. The or blame with this thinking stems from the authors perceived socials ineptness, perceived due to the debate 2ithin the author on the topic of whether the audience simply dosent like them or the author is making it difficult for the audience to share the authors feelings

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>>38120254
I'm going to sign up for snowboarding lessons tomorrow. Hopefully I'll be successful and be able to start at the end of the month. It looks really fun and I'm very excited.

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i feel like im playing Russian roulette with my life

>>38120254
>have to wage for 2 months for nothing in an internship before apprenticeship starts and I get paid
>want to be an artist, but still fap to much and dont draw as much as I should, probably too scared of failling

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i will never amount to anything. everyone i have befriended leaves. im boring, i bring nothing to the table. im awkward. no one will ever love me.

>>38120254
I feel nothing in the 'I don't know what to do' kind of feel

i can stop harming myself psychologically and it's taken a toll on my looks

>>38129608
why is that?

also don't do that

I keep spending way too much time lurking 4chan, even though I keep telling myself to quit this site.

This site used to be fun for me around 5 or 6 years ago, but now I just come here out of habit.

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>>38120254
I'm just sitting at home the entire day. But the crimson court dlc for darkest dungeon came out so it isn't half that bad (I still hate it)

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>I cant really support myself or my family
>I just want to run away from it all
>If I do ever run away Id have no where to go and die living on the streets
tfw no gf

>>38129639
various substance abuse addictions. kicked them
started using porn as a drug. just addictive personality. everything I do seems to scratch an itch which in turn causes distress. I could have it all but for some reason i choose this life.

>>38129747
>running away from it all
are you me?

>>38120254
I almost have a job and things are starting to get better.. But I can feel the universe charging up for a final cuckening blow to make me commit sudoku.

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>>38120254
>tfw I have great ambitions in life and the talent to achieve them
>tfw life is so vague and there is no clear path to take
>tfw things have worked out fine so far but afraid to fail or get roped into a standard, boring life

I really can't imagine working 9-5, getting married to some boring woman, having kids that annoy me and then work until I'm in my sixties, all the while being surrounded by dull workerdrone peers

I'm actually a normie now because the first couple of feelings I could think have to do with sex and recreational drug use

>>38120254
>tfw too terrified to accomplish even most basic tasks like socializing or going to the dentist
Not having friends is not even that bad but having destroyed teeth is no joke.

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honestly ive been preferring to be at work lately, it's comfy there and being at home makes me miss my friends
at night ive been walking around campus and downtown hoping someone might start talking to me
>>38120424
what do you have lined up anon :3

>>38120254
strange feels t b h. Was a full on autist 3 years ago but found friends and a passion for my field in college. Started a text based pseudorelationship with an aspie girl from my uni. Then I graduated this may and it seems like everything has been mightily swept away as DiCaprio said in Gangs of New York. No job despite my engineering degree b/c I'm shit at networking and lazy without amphetamines, my pseudo GF is becoming distant and I feel like my new life is slipping away each day

>>38120254
I'm depressed. I can't express it in words. I don't have a future. I have no friends, no social skills, no mental edge besides in useless subject like geography or history, and even then it's at a trivia level.

>>38129946
Wanna run away together pal?

>>38120367
kay why esss

>>38120254
I'm living the seim-NEET life right now on summer break, feels good not having to do any homework, plus I have friends online to play vidya with, so I don't have to feel lonely.

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>>38130108
I somehow managed to get an unconditional offer for the university course I want to do, so i'm able to continue being a NEET until september, and then go and do what I want at uni

>>38130108
>at night ive been walking around campus and downtown hoping someone might start talking to me

kek, are you me? I did this for a solid 4 years in downtown Baltimore of all places. Fun times, keep it up, you'll get some interesting experiences if nothing else. Schizo people make great stories if nothing else.

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I didn't do anything i said i would do but feel good.
I guess i didn't have any expectations after all.

>>38130410
yeah the only bummer is downtown here in flagstaff is pretty small, theres only so much walking i can do before ive circled the place twice
i just gotta keep my distance from drunk natives

>>38120367
I'm more passionate about games and anime than you and I love nintendo so stay free normal

I've been alone for a very long time. It feels suffocating being this way and I can't really do much to escape it. My only break from these feelings are in my dreams.
I was in some foreign mall I've never heard of before looking around in an isle where someone came up from behind me and hugged me for like a good 3 minutes. It felt nice feeling a hug again, I forgot what it felt like and it felt extra nice because I could feel their warm intentions in the embrace too. Then just like that she disappeared I went back to just walking around and I saw her again waving at me. I approached her and before I could even finish my sentence to ask her for her phone number, she asked for mine. She saw my waifu wallpaper on my phone and called me an adorkable weeb. And then after that it was mostly just talking to her on the phone in various time skipped places in my life. I kept falling alseep to continue the dream as long as I could, I slept like 13 hours today. I never wanted to wake up.
It's nice having these experiences though... it's a nice break from the suffocating despair of feeling alone. The lingering feelings stay for a day or two which is nice.

>>38130366
oo whats the course

Feel the need to get some stuff off my chest since I have no one to talk to.

I write shipping fanfiction so I can project onto the guys.
I listen to girlfriend audios.
I have a three inch dick and I'm circumcised. My parents weren't even jewish.
I have a giant fetish for cheerleaders. Once I went to a uni basketball game just so I could record the cheerleaders for a few minutes, after which I promptly left to beat off to the footage.
When I was a kid/teenager, my dad used to shave me, trim my nails, trim my pubes, pop pimples on my face and back, and would smell my penis to make sure it smelled nice after the shower. He would beat me if I ever told him no.
Every weekend for the past four years I've gone to the movies by myself or taken a nap in my car and told my mom I was out with friends. I've also told her I'm dating a Korean girl named Kimberly who was in one of my uni classes.
I cheated my way to an A in an astronomy class and intro to video game design course in uni last semester. The professor in the game design course thought I was prodigy at programming when I can barley program basic shit.

>>38130546
cyber security. it's the first year they're doing the course near me as well, its only going to cost me 1/4 of what it would if I did it where I planned to go

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>>38120254
I'm awfully dulled out by my daily schedule which in and of itself comes as a surprise seeing as I'm always going out with friends. Lately I've just been waiting for my way back home, then I can come back and finally get going on adulthood. I guess? I don't know. It'll totally be fun though so.

I don't really have any vision for what I should do with my time. It's really depressing.

>>38120254


I am really down on my knees right now.

>have a group project in university I barely contributed to because I am a lazy idiot, feel like killing myself because we have to present the project in two weeks
>all of my "friends" are people I really hate, but not having someone to talk to at all is killing me aswell, so I am just pacing back and forth between avoiding and obsessively pursuing them
>fell in love with a chick I barely know for some fucking reason, absolutely no chances with that one
>millions of small things I have to do yet, barely keeping track of them, leave alone actually solving the problems

Here I am again with actually considering an heroing. Those issues do not even sound that bad, but damn, once depression has you even jerking off is out of reach.

>meet someone through an r9k discord
>hit it off really good, he/shes funny
>similar intrests
>although on opposite sides of the political spectrum
>not a nazi, but reveal power level
>make myself look like a weirdo idiot more than already so, something about my very presence people dont like
>find the persons steam profile, leave a joke comment
>refresh and private profile now
>no reply
>contemplating leaving the discord server

i doubt youll find this, but j youre p cool and you should hmu sometime

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>>38120254
I'm truly afraid that I will not be able to satisfy the people I love, and that I will never be desired by a woman.

>>38130769
You could do the normie thing and pursue money.

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I'm tired, OP.

I'm tired because I'm not getting any younger. I'm going to be 30 next year, and I feel like I'm no closer to happiness despite working hard for it. I'm tired of getting dragged into family members' petty drama that only exists because of kneejerk reactions and stubbornness. I'm tired because every time I save up a little bit of money, something happens that eats into my savings. I'm tired of my computer not being able to keep up with the video games I want to play, and the experience being ruined because of it. I'm tired of chasing after a dream that I have to accept will never happen. I'm tired of feeling like a bad person because I'm not always there for my online friends, despite things happening while I'm not on. I'm tired of feeling like a selfish asshole just because sometimes I want to sit down and relax and not have to worry about what other people are doing or how much time I have left. I'm tired of being tired all the time.

I'm just. Tired. And I don't know how to fix things.

i feel very angry and destructive, but only toward myself.

feels are full of anxiety bc i need to get a fucking job and I have 0 qualifications and there isnt shit where i live.
I dont have a car because I cant afford it.

I gotta work and have been a NEET for 2 years, im scared.

>tfw no sketch comedy group.

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>>38131807
i'm 30 as well, brother. and i know exactly how you feel. only difference being i don't have a family to reel me in to their shit and my pc is pretty decent. but there's never a time during the day where i don't want to just lay down and sleep. it's just a constant state of exhaustion. i never thought i'd see the day where i wished i could be in high school again, but it's happening a lot lately. god, i would give anything to be able to have fun again.

>>38120254
going on a date my mother arranged and i really don't want to go. cant decide whether or not i should shit it up on purpose

>>38130189
I wouldn't mind having some company while robbing passersby and eating food under bridges in the meantime

Got a gf that i dont like anymore, go to loads of parties but mostly just get ignored cos im low on the social hierachy.

May aswell have just stayed a Neet, now i just feel like a social peasant instead of a social outcast.

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My only friend is ghosting me and its causing my anxiety to kick in full force. I really want to get drunk but if i do when im like this i could either have a panic attack or forget all about it. Im not sure if its worth the risk because im suffering right now anyways.

>>38122000
You're just an edgy teenage fag

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Feeling confused: What does it mean if a girl calls you "boo-boo"?

Fingered and licked a tinder girl tonight, couldn't get it up becuase i was too drunk while she was kinda sober. really like her, hopefully it works out

>>38134796
Thanks for the (You), I'm actually 22

Why am I confident around people, but deeply insecure when I have to do things by myself? It's so stupid.

Also I wish my best only mate hadn't gone on holiday for the rest of the summer.

>tfw idk if I want a gf

Worked for the 4th day in a row. Then had to ride the bus home. Now I'm super fucking sick from the motion. I am physically sick and emotionally drained. I don't want to do this anymore.

>>38120254
Angry and sad because of a co worker and a shit storm of drama she brought up. Over exaggerated everything and now we don't even talk

Starting to realize that killing myself might actually be the best decision. My family is overburdened by me and I have no real drive to get better besides pleasing my parents, otherwise I have nothing that makes me want to be alive. No hobbies, no friends, no goals or accomplishments.

I've grown more and more numb and at this point I'm just tired. I don't fit into society and I never will.
I've often considering running off into wild and living like a hermit, but I'd probably die by the time winter comes, so it seems pretty pointless in the end.

I haven't felt any emotion for months, fuck off.

Deep in debt, working like a dog. Now have to go even deeper into debt and get another job. Don't know how much longer I can do this. Need peace.

I want to talk to cute girls. I need a soothing sight. OCD sucks. No women pass and shit trashes my ondest memories.

wish i could eat all this food without gaining weight.. but not as much as i want to get laid

>>38122297
How did you get to be so fucked?

>>38120254
been drinking since I woke up today and applying for every job that is even a vague possibility. I dont have any hope.

feeling demotivated, shitty, and hate that I have to become a wage cuck.

god pls help me.

>>38123675
You are memed.

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>>38135700
just applied to home depot, WTF is wrong with this bitches face

>>38135506
Not sure what you mean, but I have OCD too (it's professionally diagnosed before you say anything) and it's very frustrating. I used to have a lot of trouble holding my ex's hand after he'd open doors or do other things. I felt like a jerk... at least I don't have to hold anyone's hand anymore ;_;

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>>38120254
I just really never wanted to be alive. I resent my parents for bringing me into this world, no matter how much I tell myself that there's no benefit to giving up on life and rolling over and dying, that's all I want to do. Roll over and die.

I resent existing. I resent that I had no choice. I don't understand what I can do for others most of the time, let alone myself. I have lost all of my dreams, goals, aspirations.

I feel empty and dead. But I keep on pushing so hard. Everyday. I feel very close to the end.

>>38129665
The whole internet

>>38135735
She unleashed her inner orange.

>>38135821
Heh this tbqh.

I'm a ginger, got bullied in middle school, beaten etc... 2 months ago I was discovered a type 1 diabete, will have to take insuline shots 4 times a day for the rest of my life, forbidden to scuba dive, I love scuba diving, forbidden to fly a plane, planes are my fucking life since I'm 5. Now I'm the diabetic skinny ginger, pretty much the fucking faggot of the campus everyone laughs at.
why god? Why do you hate me?

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>>38136017
We had no choice but to exist. That's why existence is so empty.

Feeling embarrassed after getting my ass kicked by a crackhead yesterday morning.

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>>38136017
I am also an outcasted ginger. Hang on bro.

There was a girl who I'm friends with who I was really into. Like can't sleep for weeks into. And she was my first head over heels "crush". Told her how I felt last summer before she went off to college in florida (real far from me) and she didn't feel the same and just wanted to be friends. Still can't shake the feeling no matter how hard I try and sent shit that makes me cringe harder than anything. I'm glad I'm still her friend but I hate myself what I've said and done and still have a hard time moving on.

Having sudden inspirations after a while of laziness getting boring.
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