>fell for the 'crossdressing is cute' r9k meme
>not gay at all, barely like trap porn
>buy girly clothes, a dildo and some ass lube
>try and dildo my ass while sucking myself off
>hurt my back a lot
>dildo just feels like doing a poo
>decide whatever, I've come this far
>cum in own mouth
>that feeling of shame the second the cum touched my mouth
>instantly not horny anymore
>having to clean up my own shit and cum half crippled
>catch sight of myself in the mirror
>feel like a total degenerate, ashamed of what I've done
I can't believe I fell for this shit, the whole trap and crossdressing thing is best saved for the internet, in reality it's fucking disgusting. I'll just stick to straight porn from now on and never do this again, I already threw out my girly clothes.
Anyone else done this and felt the same way? Maybe I did something wrong?
>>38115881
iktf. but I always do this at least once a month.
>>38115881
I think you jumped the gun a bit, OP. You should've run some control tests before running head on.
>>38115881
>not gay at all
>wears girls clothes
>sticks dildo in ass
>sucks own dick and cums in own mouth
Yeah you're a total faggot buddy. Fucking kys. I'm glad you've taken positive steps to end this degeneracy though. There may be some hope for you yet.
>>38115881
Thanks for the story op.
I've only bought girly panties and fingered my asshole, but never came in my mouth.
Lately I've been wanting to buy a cute dress or skirt but reading your story reminded me of that time I stuck a cucumber up my ass and felt horrible after I came.
I think now is a good time to stop this before it develops into true degeneracy.
>>38116021
>'only bought girly panties and fingered my asshole'
>'b-better stop now before I become a true degenerate'
kys you are self fucking degenerate, sweetiepie.
>>38115881
>>feel like a total degenerate, ashamed of what I've done
That's the best part. I start calling myself disgusting and whore and shit. Then I get aroused again from the self-humiliation and I start again. I can go all day.
>>38115881
Very good goyim, listen to our friendly faggots here on r9k!
Dont internalize homophobia goy!