Faking happiness

I Did this for the first 25 years of life. I regret not getting help sooner.

step 1 - get your shit together

>>38047406
Thanks anon I'm going to have to it might sound weird but reading that you said you regret not getting help sooner has made my mind up this has been going on to long and it's just getting worse Im going to get help I don't know if if you will see this but thanks

>>38047626
i know I m going to try thanks

Does anyone else here ever get feelings of relief from depression where they feel happy and normal? Im 25 and I honestly don't remember the last time for me. My head feels dull and clouded. I can't enjoy anything. Hard to focus. This genetic Lexapro doesn't do shit but I still take 5mg just so I don't have withdrawals or risk it.

Guys, I hate my life. I feel so alone.

>>38047406
What kind of help and has it cured your depression>>38047406

>>38047349
step 1 head over to the elementary school ptsd thread

>>38047349
>faking a happy personality

Once you experience genuine happiness, it will seem fake to you

>>38048909
God do I want to experience genuine happiness.

>>38047349
I thought people got used to it, I did.
It's like second nature now, I don't even have to try. I still suck at starting conversations though, once I went a whole week and only spoke twice.

>>38049112
I fucking love to think out loud and talk to myself. If this weren't the case I don't think I've ever talked.

>>38048730
The only relief Iv ever had from depression is when I get a idea for something that's i thinks going to change my life the feeling only lasts 5 mins it's like a manic rush i can't explain it I feel like I can do any thing in the world then i crash down hard realise I won't or can't do it an depression feels worse than before

P.S
I honestly hope things get better for you aswell anon