>the depression has become so central to your identify that

"Getting help" terrifies me because it's been imposed on me before and the term has become scary to me.

i know that feeling. i'm so scared of the fact that i might be able to be happy because my sadness is everything that definds my personality and my whole fucking life. i cant let go of my depression because it gives me hold

I'm positive that seeing a therapist will end up with me being involuntarily committed. I have a major fear of that happening and will attempt to kill or maim anyone that tries to.

>>38041573

Do you not understand how to lie?

Or do you not understand what the therapists want you to say?

>>38038907
>somewhat this
to be happy things in your life would need to change (most of which can't be changed)
therapists can't actually change anything about your life
they can only change your point of view
but that doesn't get rid of those things making you unhappy
you'd just be deluding yourself
>to be happy you have to ignore the truth

I feel the same way about some of my autistic behaviors, but sometimes those make my life fun.