My story of becoming a robot

>>38021125
Yeah, I'd like more.

Well fuck it, im going to post it regardless of what you are thinking

>hang around with her the whole evening, cant get rid of her
>talk with her about all kinds of stuff
>actualy she's pretty cool and kind of cute
>feel sorry for her since nobody sees more in her than the annoying girl
>hang around with her for the rest of the trip
>become friends
>sit next to each other in class
> start getting feelings for her. there it goes.jpg
>know she would reject me since beta, got some skin problems and realy ugly glasses in need of a good haircut and skinny. low self esteem for my looks
>besides my looks i wasnt a total loser, liked by everyone in class, was some kind of smart and argued with my teachers a lot
>even get elected class spokesman after kate suggests me "hey anon, you know who would be a good spokesman? - you"
> stuff like that leads to me falling for her
>fast forward a few months
>madly in love
> im the personen closest to her in her whole life by now
> know everything going on in her life
> one day she says she needs to tell me something
> its about her crush
>describes him tall, blone, cute, super nice
>heart skipes a few beats since i am all of that (and fucking ugly at that time)
>could that be real?

>of course not, wouldnt write a greentext if it would be or?
> its her fucking driving instructor about 10 years older than her
> heart kinda breaks
> listen to her stories about him for the next months
> she gets realy sad because he got a girlfriend and wont notice her
>try to comfort her the best i could although the thought of her with another one kills me inside
> goes on and on for months
> getting pretty sad myself
> everyone except her already noticed i have a crush on her
> on a birthdayparty of a classmate, both of us are there. we even picked a gift together
> everyone drunk as fuck
>she is talking to another girl about her miserable love situation
> nobody can hear it anymore since she talks about nothing else even in class
> drunken girls losses it
>you need to get over him, you miss out a lot of great guys, great guys like anon
>overhear this
>oh shit
>kate looks at me
>Is that true anon?
> yeah its true i admit

> she rejects me. of course
>mental break down, get escorted out of party by female friend
>drink till passout at her friends home
>next monday in class
>still sit next to kate, very awkward
> dont talk a word to each other for the next few days
>listen kate, i need to talk
>go on a walk with her, talk about it, says she doesnt want to lose me as a friend.
>decide to go along with it. one day she will notice that she has feelings for me too
>am sure of it
>stay friends
>still madly in love
>still get to hear her stories about drivin instructor guy
>hear about other guys trying get near to her
>so much feelings, cant describe
>but nobody does, since feelings for drivin instructor guy
>i even visit her at home, although i have to drive around an hour to get to her place
>her family knows me
>her mom loves me, guess she wants me to date her daughter
>still no chance
> but still hope. guess she hooked me on purpose, gifted me a framed picture of both of us for my bday and stuff like this
> last year of school
>finals around the corner
>talk to her every evening on the phone for hours
>learn together for the finals
>partet all the things we know, everyone learns half the stuff and teaches the other half
>works great doing both an awesome job in finals
>prom comes up
>i even become her prom date, but as you know just as friends.Plus dont have much time for her on prime since i am one of the persons in charge of the organisation
>even got matching clothes.
> her mom think its sooo cute
> looking back it all feels like a bad joke, like seriosly how can you do all this to a person you have no feelings for?
> fast forward
>everyone about to leave for college
>ways about to part
> she is going to study law
> i kinda wanted to become a researcher something biology related, healing cancer blabla
> apply for several colleges

>get accepted in a few colleges
>but nothing in the town she is moving to
>brain sets out
> apply for an uselss degree, history and literature or some of that kind in the city she is moving to
>think i can become some kind of writer with it

>college starts
>instant regret
>classes are all like shit
> all the people there are like shit
>decide i need to change my major
>stop going to my classes
>pretending to look for a new major
>truth is i sit at home whole day
>playing videogames all day
>leaving from time to time to buy food
>downpoint of my life
> i didnt knew about r9k back than but guess at this time i was a robot
>but at least there is kate. meet her up every few days
>listen to her stories
>cook with her
>still think one day i will get a chance
> see her less and less since she got " a lot to do"
> still very happy evertime we can manage to see each other
> one wintersday i takw the bus to her place
>bus breaks down
> walk an hour to see her in the freezing cold
>always seems happy to be with me, but hints everytime that we wont work
> one time she says to me no matter what, even if both of us find a partner we will ever be friends (to this day i can hear this words)
>tkaes me with to her classes since i am looking for a new mayor
>never thought i would like that stuff but its amazing
>decice to major law
>semester still goes on
>get some health problems
>doctor says somethin in my ear is beyond repair
>need operation, otherwise the desease could spread in my head and possibly kill me

> rly shocked about that
> tell kate. She acts if she would realy care
>At some point she started going on parties a lot
>gets known to fraternity guys
>still writes with me the whole day, i got a smartphone just to write with her
>the only reason for me to live by now
>the day of the operation comes up
>i dont mind just think about that i will meet kate
>think that of course she will visit me
>something goes wrong, operation lasts 5 times as long as expected
>lots of things blurry in my head
>wake up in the middle of the night
>feel sick as fuck. cant move a single inch without getting the desire to vomit
>call nurse
>what happened?
>i dont know you have to wait for the doctor
>doctor comes in about 10 hours
>beliefe me 10 hours turn into years when you know something is not going right
> got a roommate in hospital, jury terminal throatcancer
>sounds of him dying the whole night, cant get sleep
>cant move due to sickness
>start reaching for my phone
>takes me hours
>write kate
>wish her luck for her exams, that take place the next day
>got a text of her on my phonee that she was worrying about me since she didnt hear anything
>glad that i seem to be ok
>guess she will visit me the next day
>next day doctor says i nearly died of blood loos, couldnt stop my bleedings for hours
>okay, look in mirror huge fucking bandage around head
>pain is killing me
> wating for kate, even thought of some bad pun i could tell the moment she comes through the door
> somethin like "did i die during the operation or why do i see an angel?"
>kate does not come to visit me
>spend weeks at home trying to recover stacy still writes me but doesnt come to visit me, says she had no time
>stalk her facebook, see that she attended 3 parties on the weekend i lied in hospital. sure no time.
> already broken heart shatters into a trillion pieces

> another girl i barely know, friend of my little sister got my nuber starts to write with me
>dont think much of it
>just a girl trying to be nice to a nearly died fag
> lose contact after some time
> help kate write her holiday papers, hit me up again after i was recovered

>next semester is about to start
>lots of partys in the week before to get all the guys of the same major get to know each other
>attend lots of partys try to forget about kate
>drink till black out
>next day next party same people
>kind of awkward since i blacked out
>just say okay next round on me
>erveryone loses their shit.
>gain some reputation as kind of party god since i drink the whole week to the limit
> last day of week, party in a club
>dont like clubs, cant stand the music
>get realy drunk
>fuck kate. lets see how far i can get without her
> looks got better over time would say i am a 7/10 by this point (got an haircut, contacts, skin got better overtime)
>make eye contact with random girl on the dance floor
>smiles were exchanged
>engage in dancing with her
>buy her a few drinks
>start to talk
>want to know how far i can get with her
>kiss her. first kiss in my life. feels good
>start making out realy wild
>she whispers in my ear that she wants to go to my place
>turn her down. feeling of betraying kate is too strong
>still gives me her number
>leave the club alone
>few days later meet clubgirl, go on a walk eat icecream
>know from the start we are not ment to be
>end somehow anyway at her place
>obvious she wants to fuck
> to her dishes instead and leave
>why am i like that?
>say to myself things cant go on forever like that
> its not good for me
> i know since forever, but finaly decide its about time
> cut contact with kate.
> i am pretty sure this is how drug addicts without drugs feel

> see her walking around campus hurts the shit out of me
> try to forget her

> hospital girls starts writing with me again
>text for over an year
>finaly come together with her
>most loving and caring person i ever met
>fast forward a few years been together with hospital girl for a few years by now
> on my way to become a great lawyer, loving a subject i wouldnt even thought about without kate
>suddenly have a dream about kate
> decide i need to write this story down to get it out of my head forever


There are two things i wanted you to say with this
1. Cut out people of your life who are clearly destroying you
2. Out of every shit that happens something great aspires
3. Everything happens for a reasons
4. i believe everyone on this board will be happy one day

>>38021339

God you're a fucking mess I'm not taking any of your shit advice.

She was guzzling the jizz of hunky college football dudes at the parties the whole time while you, her little sweet "best fwiend" almost died! HAHAHA!

The weak deserve to suffer.

dude you had some serious mental health issues going on back then, glad you made it out.

Thank fuck for that ending anon. I really didn't like where it was heading. Delighted for you and wish you well. Really liked this story.

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>>38021125
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>>38021339

Hey OP.
I can tell you're new because you posted your ultra-long autism story in a thread that will get no replies. I know. I did it too, when I first came here.
Part of ascending to normiedom is recognizing that
1.) nobody wants to read your autistic story
2.) this happens to a lot of people

At first you'll think you've got over it, but you have to make sure you never have contact with her again.

You'll get over it and realize how stupid you sounded after a while. You'll be lying in bed at 1 AM and remember and cringe at your autistic self.
It'll just be a cringy memory, just power through it OP.

Now get the fuck off /r9k/.

>>38021375
good tldr anon
>>38021125
go back in time and ignore the girl so you can get stoned with your friends

fuck, OP. Why did you keep her in your head this whole time?

take your experience as something NOT TO DO again, and obviously don't ever make contact with kate and don't let her in to you.
It's ok to small talk with her only if she contact first
How old are you?

safsafgsg

turns him down
gifts him a framed picture

why are woman like that?

>>38022019
as writen i was around 17-20 at the time the events occured. Now i am 26 and all over it, cut her out of my life never talked again. Heard about r9k went here, read some threads. was reminded at my cringy story thought to myself maybe this will help some poor robot in the same position since it got a happy end for me

>>38021125
Why do redditors always feel the need to add in
>let's call them blank
When theres less than 7 re-occurring characters?
Do you think we are retarded? Do you think anybody cares if you just call her girl, bitch, woman.
I wish reddit wound leave already. At the very least the could stop posting their cancer and lurk moar.

>>38021850
Shut the fuck up, tripfaggot. This board was created for funny, original greentext. A retard like OP doing his best, baring his soul, practicing his writing is always better than some snarky, arrogant transplant from reddit like you.

>>38021850
Tripfag plz quit being a fag

>>38021850
Once a normie. Even Normies can not be cancer though.

>>38021850
i'd like to read your story

>>38022185
/r9k/ is not people's personal blog to share their life stories and get sugary advice from people about their social lives.

There has been way too many threads asking for life advice these days.

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>>38021125
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>>38021339
Is there any way to be more beta than OP at this point

>>38022242
no you don't it actually is very autistic

>>38021850
fuck off u tripnigger, i want to read the story
ignorant goon

>>38021311
>do her dishes and leave
top kek my dude

>>38022814
>>38021125
>do her dishes and leave
How did this even happen op, can you elaborate? holy fuck dude

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>>38021125
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Well my dude even though you call yourself a robot, you actually had a chance to become normal with those girls that wanted to fuck you. Some guys here just don't get that chance and will forever be alone. But remind yourself that you're still a 7/10 and successfull person and can achieve what you want.
Well, I will considerer you as a robot and one of us for now, and wish you the best of lucks.
Just forget about that bitch

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>tfw after reading that whole thing
disappointed honestly. no emotion. just

>>38022814
>>38022869
respond already you gay fuck, I'm waiting to laugh at you

>ruining your life just for the sake of one girl
You're not a robot, you're a beta cuck tbqh

did you ever try smoking weed?