Do you think you can still be fixed?

>>37964751
No.
It's only getting worse.
I used to only be failed-normie tier.
However lately I have been unable to do any work.

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>>37964751
Fuck no, I don't have anything and who I am will never be enough for anybody, no matter how many times i try to put the pieces back together.

>>37964751
Nope. I'm going to commit suicide soon probably with my only form of escapism gone.

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>>37964751
the black pill is beginning to poison my heart

>>37964751
No, my legs aren't growing back any time soon

>>37964751
Im working on it. Im a student, so I still have some unsquandered potential and might still make it professionally, if not socially

>>37964751
Unless they can repair nerves, nope.

>>37964904
>>37964936
Cripples don't deserve to be fixed desu

>>37964914

Get the fuckoff this border normie

>>37964966
>>37964979
Geez why are you being so combative faggot

>>37964966
And you don't deserve to be alive so kill yourself immediately. Your mother cries and begs for your death everyday, you fucking waste of sperm.

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>>37964751
I was like this from the very start, I was raised to be like this, I'm an animal, you can't change me, its my nature to be this way.

>>37965015
BECAUSE I HAVE IMPORTANT THINGS TO SAY AND PEOPLE ARE ACTUALLY LISTENING

STOP FUCKING GETTING IN THE WAY OF MY LULZ MACHINE

>>37964751
Yes, but it would take a lot of effort on someone else's part to fix me.

>>37964751
Yes, but that'd take time and energy. Both of which, I don't have.

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There's always hope, if you only have ambition, energy, and motivation. So no, I'm well and truly fucked.

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>>37964876

What was your escapism, friend?

On one hand, I'm turning 21 soon which is still pretty young

On the other, I feel like I'm too old to do anything really significant with my life.

I don't have any talent or passion for anything. People who are successful started early in life

>>37965048
I have nothing left 4chan. It's all I have. Nobody else will even talk to me

>>37964751
If I had someone to motivate me to do better, like a qt3.14 gf, I could be fixed.

>>37965018
>assmad leglet got so btfo he had a meltdown
Lmao

>>37965073
Improve global living standards to the point that anyone can shit-post on 4chan for free. Eventually raise energy production and earth can become free from want, and we can colonize other planets.

But no. Just ban me. Let's keep doing what we're doing.

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>>37965065
>tfw a bunch of anonymous faggots on a Mediterranean underwater cooking forum are your only friends

At least we have each other, anon

>>37964751
I don't need to be fixed, If people dislike me they can suck it. I am my own person and no one is going to change me ever. This is why you must accept who you are and live for yourself. Because only you can find your way to your own happiness. There is no reason to be an uncaring asshole though.

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nah i've accepted the forever pain

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>>37964751
The odds are against me, but I'm not giving up just yet. I can still do this if everything goes according to plan and nothing bad happens.

>>37965119
Truly. I would like you guys to continue to exist so I can have quality anime and play video-games. Deep down, I've always cared about you people. I was never built to be NEET, I wish that was my lot in life but it is not.

>>37964751
Maybe, but it gets harder and harder every day that passes.

>>37965130
I was gonna post an image calling you a fucking normie but I couldn't find it.

>>37965170
Well, we need more information on climate science. That is the second biggest threat to humanity aside from global security protocol. We could end up setting off a cycle of global warming where the planet gets hotter because the planet is getting hotter because the planet is getting hotter. We need to be able to engineer our planet and harness natural resources. With the right technology we can reverse the effects of global warming and clean up the environment. In a post need society, it would even contribute to a post-need economy.

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>>37964751
Nope, wanted to kill myself when I was 20, decided to give life one more fair shot first.
Closing in on 30 now and I regret not just killing myself back then.
Fuck, I'm so tired of trying.
I dread having to go through an entire day every time I wake up.
It's very unlikely I'll survive past the end of this year.
Fentanyl, take me away from this horrible place.

>nearly 30
>self reliant, good job, live alone
>no good women in my area

I'm perfectly happy here, I have everything I want and I'll die before I change.

>>37965234
Goodbye, my love. May you find peace.

>>37965234
As of now we're in a fucking downward spiral. WE NEED TO DO SOMETHING. There is no known research on the long term effects of climate change, because our short sighted governments don't think into the future beyond what their next meal will be. It's fucking retarded. I Hate it all. I hate everything. Sometimes I wish this planet would just fucking blow up I hate it. WORK. DO SOMETHING. You guys know what one of the fastest growing jobs in the world is right now? Wind-mill technician. It basically takes metal and water, and turns it into energy. Chemistry could also transmute useful resources in this conquest. Along with physics. As well as other things I'm forgetting. It would also benefit the health industry, tourism industry, housing market, it would improve the economy. people just don't understand.

>>37964751
>emotional neglect
I wouldn't call it that, I think I'm just wired incorrectly. Not fixable.

>>37965262
I'm happy enough as long as I can continue to post on 4chan. I think I might kill my self if I can't do that. Probably not, but I would want to.

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>>37964751

No.

I've removed myself from social media. It's the closest thing I can come to non-existence short of killing myself, which I'm trying nto to do because I don't want to burden my family with my funeral.

>>37965262
The children make up stories about me, I'm sure of it. It doesn't bother me, I don't let it. I love me and my money. I like my house and car.

>>37965300
Unless you have a genetic disease, then the fix would probably come in the coming years may be too late.

Climate science is at that same point, it may be too late, it may not be, NOBODY FUCKING KNOWS. There's no money in saving the world apparently, but that's fucking wrong. You don't make a profit off of a world that doesn't fucking exist, you fucking retards.

>>37965317
I planned a way to kill my self, told my friends and family, was ready to do it. But I pussied out. It was my last option, my plan if everything failed. But I pussied out and kept going. I don't care if I live or die at this point, I just live for other people right now. I hardly do anything for fun anymore. I hope one day I can have fun again.

>>37965048
>tell me that ain't #blackexcellence
It's not, it's #affirmativeactiontakingawayopportunitiesfromfarmorequalifiedanddeservingindividualsyetagain

>>37964751
Well, 4chan has been the only thing keeping my sanity for the past few years and unfortunately I just got fucking permabanned a few days ago. I have Comcast and my IP's permanently assigned to me, so pretty much I'm fucked unless I get a VPN. Sad!

>>37965343
I'm in a lot of debt but I plan on buying a nintendo switch when I get the money, and drink beer and play Mario. That's gunna be great I hope.

>>37965317
I did that a few times, I recently reactivated an account and kind of made a game of posting statuses, and ignoring any comments/likes/etc. my family is dependent on me and I have a couple life insurance policies so if I die it won't impact them financially

>>37965356
Sad!

:) I love 4chan I'll tell them how to make a secure site if I think it's in their best interests.

>>37965379
I know if I get two jobs and program my ass off I can make 100-200k a year if I'm cutthroat and kill off any dev that gets in my way. That sort of stuff doesn't fly in the business world, but you know what I mean. If I can do that I can maybe be debt free in a decade or two.

>>37965356
drop the cable modem a few times and swap it at a service center, new DOCSIS MAC = new IP

>>37965404
Internet service providers have pretty much fixed this.

maybe with a lot of help that no one can or would give. otherwise I just exist to serve some company, if they're willing to offer the privilege, which most of them won't because I smoke weed to cope with the crippling anxiety that comes from being useless and broken.

>>37965413
At least I'll get to play the new Mario if I'm lucky. That's quite a privilege.

>>37965215
But the next ice age will eventually come around and pretty much fix things. That won't be for millions of years, but it's not like we even have the capability to ruin things here on earth permanently.

>>37965356
what was the ban for? just want to know how someone who posts for years can pull that off.

>>37965404
In all honesty, I'll probably just make a case for myself on IRC. I didn't even fucking do anything illegal or spam or do any bullshit like that.

>>37965048
League. I got permabanned from League 3 days ago. It was my only source of escapism. They told me you'd be 'reformed' after starting to get hextech loot. So I started using chat again and I got permabanned.

>>37965428
https://www.youtube.com/user/potholer54

This guy does lots of journalism on climate change if you need some information, he used to be a professional journalist but know he does it for fun. The thing is, the science is simply not there.

>>37965445
Off topic discussion :(

>>37965412
I've never seen Comcast do that.

>>37965445
I don't want to say because I don't want to be outted.
>>37965463
This isn't me.

>>37964751
No, and I dont want to.

Fixing my life is hard (I know that after many tries) but the reward is not good enaugh.
Best case scenario, I get to become a late normie, have a slut as a wife and a job that pays the bills but makes me want to kms.

Games is rigged, dont play.

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>>37964751
Im past normal trivialities, all I want is destruction

>>37965455
Yeah, I'm already aware that climate "science" is mostly propaganda driven bullshit.

>>37965466
I mean I don't know about your internet service provider, but I've done ipconfig release at multiple locations to no effect, and 4chan is IP banned at most major corporations in USA as well.

>>37965489
It's not bullshit, it's fucking imperative for a functioning economy. People hedge away from long term investment, the kind of thing that makes a strong economy, if they're not sure the earth will even be here as it currently is 20 years from now.

As I see it, the global financial system is moving away from small pockets of rapid unsustainable growth, caused by the tech/oil industry, and towards more sustainable equally distributed growth.

>>37965481
>Games is rigged, dont play.
It sucks, got married and divorced young, I know I'm going to end up doing the whole loveless marriage/kid who hates me thing eventually because biology

>>37964751
Theoretically if there was a war or something maybe. Still lucid and healthy. Under my own power though nothing will ever change, I have a self-festructive personality

>>37965541
There is loyalty, money can not buy loyalty. Money can not buy love. Money can not buy character. Money can't buy a future, or a meaningful life, or a wife that loves you, or a child who will grow. Only man can create those things, with that that he was born with.

>>37965563
I understand the rules of war very well, and MAD is an effective strategy for getting what you want.

There's nothing wrong

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KAExa9P7hME

>>37965592
There is no loyalty. We are all animals.

>>37965343

Did anyone try to intervene?

>>37965379
Family as in your parents and sibling or do you have kids?

>>37965454
you can have my account if you want anon. It's level 30 and has around 20 champs

>>37965619
Lol this is terrible. In a functioning economy I would have endless mario games and could get home from work and play mario all day. That is the dream for me lmao

>>37965631
I'll plead the 5th.

>>37965626
Not true. Animals display loyalty.

>>37965631
parents and disabled sibling. no kids, but will probably find someone with a ticking biological clock and get married again

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>>37965665
>I'll plead the 5th.

Ok, but if you ever want to talk I'm here

>>37965684
get chu a woman who cooks and cleans and does the dishes to bring you beer while you play mario! Or whatever it is you do for fun, that's what I wanna do..... She can either play with me or do her own thing, this plan isn't full proof however. I would hate to alone in old age however. Nobody to touch me. Etc.

>>37965700
No nobody tried to help me. They wanted me to do it so they'd never have to talk to me again. Fucking normies reeee...

>>37965527
> if they're not sure the earth will even be here as it currently is 20 years from now.
You're fucking retarded if you think climate change will destroy Earth in 20 years, or even a million years.

>>37965705
i'm shit at human interaction, really bad these days I skip funerals and things like that, I can fake it in a relationship for a little bit

>>37965728
No you're the fucking retarded one. Because stupid people don't know how fucking stupid they are. I'm not stupid, I know that I don't know. You don't know that you don't know. That's stupid.

>>37965733
Lots of people skip out on relationships because "Why bother" but if you come to understand that they will benefit you personally, you will peruse them.

>>37965795
There are things I enjoy about relationships, I'm just garbage at being a boyfriend. I hate my face and avoid eye contact, I don't like the things that I see when I keep focus, if I ever do. Pretty much any interaction with people outside a business/transactional setting and my mind goes into "this is a potential physical threat" mode.

At what age does being a KHV shut in actually start to wear on you mentally and emotionally?

You're a failed normie if you graduated High school.

I will never be normal but psychedelics have given me some hope recently that I could still live happily

>>37964751
not-at-fucking-all

>>37964751
I know that feel. I used to be so nice and shy, would never argue with anybody. but now I have no problem telling people to fuck off for bumping into me or to yell and cuss at mcdonald staff for getting my order wrong.

>>37964751
Probably not. It's hard to care to fix myself when I don't see the point in it. I don't want to spend the next 30-40 years working my ass off with too little free time, too little compensation, and nothing too look forward to. There's nothing I want out of life, and I've spent every day for the past 10 years indulging in escapism every day just to get away from the stress and anxiety and emptiness that I like to create for myself and brood in. Even if I could be fixed, I'm not sure it's worth it.

Nope. I can't hold a job to save my life and I'm too fucked up to be with people. And it's getting worse every year. Unless things change I'll kill myself when I turn 30. Only two more years.

>>37964751
Honestly I think I enjoy the self-loathing. If I really put in some effort, I could slay pussy and enjoy a happy normie life. (Whatever that entails).

But realistically I don't want to. I'd rather stay inside, shitpost everyday on 4chan, eat ok food, and wallow in my sorrow. Pretty patethic desu

>>37964751
>I'm broken
No, the damage makes me more effective.

No desu sigh

>>37964751
no I'm not repairable the damage has been done

what do you mean by fixed?

i go to a top tier engineering school. i have had girlfriends. my dad is very wealthy. however, i was born to be this way. i dont WANT to care about anything. if it was up to me, my life would be fully segregated into two parts: work and fun. it feels sometimes like it is this way without me even trying. i don't care if i am an uncaring asshole, my only goal is to enjoy myself as much as possible, even at the expense of others.

>>37967190

Get out, young newfag.

>>37967103

Be a happy, productive, socially well adjusted member of society.

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>>37964751
Yes.
I feel the grip of hate and resentment around my heart, but I have to believe I can overcome them. If we have no hope, what is there?

I don't want to live in a world of only despair.

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>>37964751
I think I kinda fixed myself, I was depressed for years and was hoping for some love from people. Now I know people are only motivated by money or violence and will only care about you if they themselves can climb the ladder of status.

I got to the point where I just do whatever I like. The world is now a place for me to shamelessly exploit people without any morals, everyone is just a tool for profit for me.

>>37964751
I'm 26
I can make some choices to possible better my situation, but it's to late to fix me.

i'm probably fucked. maybe some day i will try for the it/coding meme but i don't think it will work, i drank away too many brain cells and my work history will be hard to explain, and there's too many things i could fuck up at work, i've just become too accustomed to doing whatever i want all day, constantly calling inanimate objects niggers and faggots, always jerking off, always ripping greasy farts and laughing about them, just everything stereotypically you'd expect from a fat disgusting moron. i could go through so much and work so hard and be all the way back at square one in two seconds.

>>37965795
The earth will be fine. Miserable retarded cunts like you might be wiped which is pretty A+ you sub 50 iq faggot

>>37965639

This is my life tho

>>37967959
das the libertarian dream babbyyyy

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>>37964751
No, I tried to change and I didn't work

My presence makes people uncomfortable and recently realized that the people I consider my friends don't mean anything to me and I sure as shit don't mean anything to them.

"fix" implies that I was broken in the first place, which I'm not. Why do "robots" assume that every little shit posting here must be a retard orbiter crying about his shit life without a gf ?
I just don't really give a fuck about "fitting in", and not chase 3D women, guess that makes me a normalfag now.

I think so. It takes a lot of effort though. You're not going to wake up tomorrow and everything will be fixed.

look into finding a decent therapist, do some cbt and see if a low dose SSRI can improve you any. Also exercise and go for walks regularly

>>37965493
Maybe you got hardware banned

i cant even post in my shit country

>>37964751
There's a decent chance. Chances are probably a bit better if I get a job in the city I went to college since I actually have a few friends there and there are more girls my age in a more concentrated area than in my hometown. Though getting a job in general would help me a lot at this point. The post-college job search is pretty demoralizing.

>>37964751
I still have hope, but I doubt it will happen. I have to hold on to my hope, otherwise what will I have?

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I gave life my biggest shot and it amounted to nothing. Its good knowing your maximum potential.

>>37964751
idk whats there to fix, i'm a cool guy

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>>37964751
No.

But I've gotten used to being broken. I kind of like it now

>>37965454
hi tyler1

My brain is flawed. I'm inherently broken. There's no point for me to continue living. As soon as both my parents are dead, I'm killing myself, but it's still some time.

No, I am 3 decades old and nothing can be fixed.
I just want to fall asleep and not wake up anymore.

hi ppl here. srs advice: go see a therapist. if youre in uni its even better cos its free. you'll feel much better i swear

If I get a gf in the next 3 years I can.
Afterwards I'll use my wizardry powers for evil.

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>>37965428
>That won't be for millions of years
it's coming sooner than you think man
-temps rise
-ice melts
-cold water reaches oceans
-interrupts golf stream, etc

>>37967959
The phantom thieves are gonna steal your heart, and change your distorted desires scumbag.

>>37968003
You sound like a filthy unlovable shell of a person

>>37964751
I don't really think i can be fixed but i think if i fall into the right routine, i can function without being completely miserable. Thats what im working towardsright now. If that makes sense.

Anyway i still think that i should have killed my self back in highschool when it seemed much more practical.

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>>37964751

yes anon i truly believe it i dont know why. but, i know i wont but still there's that little hope.

If I didn't have my dogs I would have nothing just knowing they need me is all I have to stay alive for

>>37965130
There's also no reason to be a caring asshole, though. Fuck off

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>>37971749

dogs are the shit man. they get it you know.

>>37964751
I think I can fix myself not that I can be fixed, it's a small chance but still holding hope. Nobody can fix you only you can fix yourself.

I think so, but I don't want to get fixed.

>>37964751
Stupid bitch. Just take the window seat.

>>37964751
i feel inspired today so i'll say maybe.

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I guess I'll be fixed when I pass away, since currently I'm just a lazy dream machine that always gets exploited for work by family and all my true wants and desires are incompatible with reality. I feel like If I had a woman to care for I'd do better, but woman are not as loyal or loving as all my fantasy reading has made me crave.

>>37964751
I'm 26. Life is long since over if you aren't a normie with a clear path in life by 25.

Just leave it to the younger generations and accept being forgotten the back seat from now on.