suicide general

tomorrow i'll "try" jumping in front of a train, while being extremely drunk, hope it goes well

>>37914942
I'll overdose on fentanyl soon. I'm fucking scared. How do you deal with fear, anon?

>>37914977
With alcohol, thats why i'm going to get drunk before dying, gives you more courage and confidence to do it

>>37915030
I was planning to get drunk before too, it would even make the fentanyl more effective, but I can't fucking stand alcohol. The taste makes me want to throw up. It's weird because I used to drink a lot. I'm thinking about getting some xanax to make me calm before.

>>37914977
where did u get the fent?

>>37915105
alphabay market on deep web. There's a suicide board on infinity chan with lots of tips on how to buy fent and nembutal

>>37914890
i wish handgun licenses had a lower age requirement

>>37915157
That's what I've been thinking of doing but what dosage would you need? on abay they're mostly selling 100mg I think, would that be enough?

>>37915157
did you mined the bitcoin to get it?

>>37915219
LD50 is 2mg. It's more than enough

>>37915224
I've bought the coins with money

>>37915259
how much did it cost? thanks for the info. I'm a bit intimidated by deepweb shit desu, how do you know you won't get busted?

>>37915303
I've seen 100mg around 80 gbp I think

>>37915337
>80 gbp I think
wow that's so cheap, how did you receive yours? it seems so sketchy trying to get it in the mail or something

I wish all you bots good luck. I'm too scared to do it. I would love to join you guys on the other side though.

>>37915398
I haven't ordered any, in the past I've bought some LSD from there, just got a small envelope with a mylar case inside which I had to cut open, the only thing suspicious would be that it says nederland on the envelope. Even if someone were to find it, cut it open and see the drugs then there's still no way of proving that I paid for it.

>>37915457
interesting, thanks for clearing that up.

>>37915303
I've bought 500mg for U$150. Just go for a seller with good reputation. Mine is about to arrive yet, so I don't know how the stealth is, but it already passed customs

>>37915733
Why so much?

>>37915813
I wanna be pretty sure that I'll die quickly

>>37916234
will you just eat the whole thing or what?

is using a double barrel shotgun to the roof of the mouth at like 45 degrees a bad idea if youve only shot it one time years ago and it was fuckin loud? two barrels at once with either buckshot or slugs would you probably be dead instantly even if your aim wasnt great but still aiming out the top of the back of the scalp?

Just a friendly reminder that if you kill yourself you miss out on so much potential happiness

>>37917349
If i kill myself i will also escape from a bunch of shitty situations, pain and humiliation from being homeless.

>>37917349
That's like saying you miss out on so much potential money if you don't play the lottery.
All that the world has to offer us is suffering. There's no winning.

>>37917462
Have you looked for any homeless shelters?

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>>37917349
lol I'm about to hit 30 soon and am friendless, live with my father, and work a dead end, stressful, physically demanding, and dangerous job that consumes 10+ hours plus 3-4 in commuting every day, with only one day off every 6-20 days, often wedged between a shift that ends at midnight and a shift that begins as early as 3AM.

I have literally no reason to live at this point. There's pretty much nothing I can do to recover. That scruffy blue collar person you see on the bus or train with shoddy clothing, stubble-stricken face, and generally makes those around them look away and ignore? That's pretty much me.

I get literally 1-2 hours of free time a day, which are typically spent eating and showering in preparation for the next work day.

>>37914890
starting to run out of money sooon, will have to kill myself once my money runs out.

>>37915457
If it isn't too private of a question... What country are you in?

In countries such as the U.S. would you consider ordering stuff from darknet markets to come with any significant complications? Would there be much of a risk of one getting jailed for ordering drugs off of it? I don't intend to purchase anything, simply asking out of curiosity

>>37914977
U a leaffag?

>>37914890
Why do normans shill that mental illness is just as bad as physical illnesses while only considering assisted suicide for physically ill people?
aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!!!!!!!!!!!!

>>37914890
its not so much that i want to die as it is i just dont want to live any more. my mind wants to give up buy my body keeps going.

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On the fence.
I've come to the conclusion that I don't want to die alone. So a group suicide would be ideal. One awkward night of drinking and eating, those who change their minds can fuck off and the rest die like good boys.

Is it possible to hang myself on my doorknob? If so, how? I dont really want to go into the woods since there's no places in my house, but if i must i will.

>>37916903
Boy you post this like every day
Yes it's a fucking shotgun
It'll blow your head off
Doesn't matter if you've shot it once or 50 times. Might be better that you've shot it so you have a smaller chance of flinching
Even then it's a shotgun nigga
Flinching won't factor in much as long as you are able to hold the gun well enough, I.e. lean on the gun or make sure you can hold it up
Mouth is always best, behind head and other locations have a much better chance of fucking up

>>37916903
Go for either, buckshot = feet are spread = greater chance of hitting what you want but at the same time it's not as powerful if it has a large spread. Again it's in your mouth, only going a couple inches, so it really won't spread much

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Carbon Monoxide

Do your own research.

I couldn't follow it to the end, but until then, everything was scientifically verified, thoroughly planned.

>>37914890
i want to tie up loose ends before i go. i owe my mum almost 10,000 GBP for surgery i had. want to pay that off then i plan on ODing on heroin. in the uk so no chance of getting a gun. i plan on getting on some from alphabay. i live alone at the moment but will be moving back to my mums so it's easier to pay her back with no bills. i want to get the heroin before i move back there.not sure if i'll do it at my mums or rent a place again then do it.

>>37918374
sex change ?
the operation I mean

Please don't kill your self
I don't know any way to get you not to but if your having these thoughts then call this number (one eight zero zero two seven three eight two five five)

>>37918462
no. had heamorrhoids.had gone through the NHS before but that was useless so went private. there was talk of cancer as well,but unfortunately all the tests where negative.

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You are a pussy OP
If you wanted to kill yourself you would of done it without shitposting first.
You would of chuged a bottle of votka and hung yourself.
So stop being an attention seeking little bitch and go jerk off to your tranny porn fucking faggot.

>>37918525
well shit 10k for nothing ?
How's your relationship with your mum ?

>>37914890
carbon monoxide is the easiest way, OP, breathe it in and let the comfy feeling wash over you. I plan on doing it soon

>>37917349
>potential happiness
>you miss out

when will this meme end?

>>37918584
well 10k to not feel like shit. would have waited but it was a 3month waiting list for the NHS. and that was just to see a dr.would have had another wait for the surgery.it had gotten to the stage where i spent most of my time curled up in a ball in constant pain.
the relationship isn't too bad.it got better after i moved out. but the 35yrs before were quite shit.

>>37914890
I'm not suicidal, but I just feel so empty inside, and wouldn't care if I were to die any minute

What would it be considered as if you don't want to kill yourself but want to die?

>>37914890
I'm not planning on an heroing right now but I am damn sure not gonna bother living on past my prime. I'm gonna go to college, live my best, maybe use all my money to travel and be hedonistic (not in a reddit way, but traveling because of my actual passion for seeing other cultures).

But past around 35 years old or whatever? Probably gonna want to an hero. So I'm curious about methods you guys are thinking of.

>>37918769
halfway through the journey

>>37918882
I wouldn't know about that, but I've had this idea for over than a decade that I'd want to be dead before 36 for some reason, and while I don't want to kermit suerciede if I were to find out tomorrow that I only have X amount of time alive I would not be sad to hear those news.

>>37917698
working class slaves are so depressing when they're not loudmouth chads

>>37917698
M8 whatever job this is it isn't worth it. I presume your living costs are low if you are with your dad, so quit. Get a less demanding job and try to get some kind of autismbux as well.

anyone here wanna shoot themselves but cany stand the thought of living as a retard and having my mom feed me and wash my ass

i hate my mom already but i cpupdnt take that

if i did shoot myself and live what wpuld happen? gonto annursing home to rot?

fuck normalfags i didnt ask to be born

>>37919375
Stop being so paranoid. A .40 will turn your brain into gelatine.

>>37919375
How about stop being a fat fuck and exercise. Only you can make yourself better. I bet your fingers are too much like sausages to pull the trigger. For that matter, you wouldn't be able to get a gun because you can't walk like a human being.
Feel different?

>>37919475
im 6'3 and 200lbs

so idk if im fat or not but my fingers are normal

I had some hope before today, but now... How do I obtain a gun for self defense if I am disabled and mentally ill? How do I prove I'm not? What comes up on background checks and who cares about which things?

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>>37919564
Saw your thread but now it's gone. Just build a zip gun, anon. No reason to get the government involved over one bullet.

Has anyone called the suicide prevention hotline before? I think about suicide everyday, but I'm still pretty young and maybe life could turn around

>>37918125
Dude I'd totally go for a suicide party. You from the US?

>>37920683
I am and I'd be down for that. I just don't want to die alone either and would rather die with my my fellow robots. What's state anon? Washington here.

>>37920660
>life could turn around
Climb a mountain without equipment. Rest at the top for a while.

If you want to help protect our oceans anons, you can

I've got it all planned. Not for quite some time but I'd like to stream it. Shot to the back of the head work? near base of skull is where I've heard the brainstem is

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I hung myself in a wooded area of a local park last night. I was finally ready. I did a partial suspension hanging Tested the branch/rope before putting it around my neck.

I savored one last beer and cigarette, made my peace to the wind and began the hanging. At first, i had one left out in front of me, slowly letting the weight begin to strangle me. I then let the other leg out and let my full weight begin the final process. It wasn't as painful as I had thought, and I was calm the entire time. But yes, it was still unpleasant.

Right as my vision began to blue and the dark was creeping in from the sides of my eyes, a police patrol was passing through the trail just 40 feet from where I was and was shining their light into the area because its used by teens to underage drink and smoke. I wasn't going to risk being seen and taken into custody because fuck going back to the psych ward. I immediately bolted up and undid the knot as i didn't tie an actual noose but a loose knot. I ran up the hill and jumped over the barrier into the main park area. If I had finished my beer a few minutes sooner, I would have been dead for 28 hours by this point.

My neck is sore and I had a headache for half of today but the redness went away by the time I woke up.

I think I am going to go back to the spot and see if the rope is still at the tree and try again in a couple days. What do you think?

>>37921854
no anon do not do this please Jesus christ man i did not know you where this serious

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Howdy, y'all.

>>37921934

I don't know if you're thinking I was another anon, but I am a first time poster in this thread.

I don't feel relieved I didn't die, nor do i feel sorry for what I almost did to my parents. If I was truly about to die, why would that matter to me? I truly was ready in that moment. And that fucking patrol car saved my goddamn life.

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>>37921854
You don't know me and I don't know you, but I would like say there is so much to look forward too but I would be lying. Yet don't go back and do it. Might sound weird but in a way I care. I doubt you do but do as you wish just don't regret it.

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Every morning before i go to work that is hell, I go in the bathroom and wrap a plastic bag around me tightened. I keep doing this just before I feel myself passing out then I release. I just dont have anything going for me, I'm a 22 year old loser piece of shit. I dont deserve to be alive if I really hate living you know? I just need to man up and fucking do it already.

I even told my mother I was gonna kill myself and told her first before she doesnt get surprised when it does happen but she played it off as I was joking but I stated I was dead serious and she just start bursting tears and urged me to seek help. The look on her face made me almost reconsider but I just hate living, I'm a good for nothing shitter I don't want to feel anything anymore.

>>37921854
Please don't anon
Plz

>>37921969

god damn she looks 40, how long ago did that texting shit happen?

>>37921854
I envy you, friend. My brain is still a chickenshit that's afraid of the pain and death even though I have no desire to live and hate my life.

>>37921854
I envy you. I want to hang myself, but i can't find any decent rope in the garage. Wish you luck in your next attempt.

>>37922124
I'm 22 as well, I've already told my roommate what valuables she can sell and what should go to my estranged father. I'm torn between going all out and making an exit bag or getting high and sucking on whippets on the train tracks until something comes along. Its comforting to me to know that I have a plan for a way out.

>be good looking white20something yr old
>hoodrat takesinterest
>knock up hoodrat
>lose job

I am currently planning a suicide by OD. The question is on what? No turning back now.

>>37922397
your best bet is probably barbiturates but they're hard as fuck to get ahold of, if you can get ahold of some heroin and xanax and mix them with some strong booze you should be set as long as you take an antiemetic beforehand and shoot the H

I'd tell you don't do it, but I'd be a huge fucking hypocrite since I'm planning on doing myself in too pretty soon here

>>37922330
>>37922357

don't envy me. i'm still alive after all.

either take a few shots of alcohol or beer, and if you can get your hands on some benzos like xanax or valium they help with the nerves and relaxing your body.

the scariest part of death, i've told myself, is not death itself but the act of dying.

>>37922846
>is not death itself but the act of dying.
This is my problem. I'm a coward and the process of dying is hard despite wanting to die.

>>37921854
Do what you think is right.

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Over 50-YO here--literally almost 99% of days I think about it. So you never outgrow it, that's for sure.

>>37923041
50? How'd you come across /r9k/ and why are you still here? Sounds pretty cool
Also who are you as a person?

I want to do it, and I have more than enough pills to do it, but I cant. I have did it before, and the scariest part is taking the meds, after I did though, I just felt relief,

Anyone feel like they know they're gonna end up killing themselves eventually but not planning on doing it in the near future? Like it just feels inevitable.

Nobody is proposing any original suicide plans. Someone come up with something extravagant.

>>37923140
How about a bomb strapped around the forehead with just enough force to destroy the head without causing collateral damage? Sneak it into some area with high foot traffic and detonate it.

Why not shout in a crowd hardcore muslims that Mohammed is a pedophile.
Or fake out a cop and get shot to death.
Let someone else kill you.

>>37923501
Because why would you saddle someone with that guilt? Don't drag other people into the immediate equation when offing yourself.

Gotta keep the good threads going

Bump

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>>37923140
>Buy as many eggs as you can
>Break all the eggs into a huge metal container and whisk them up
>Make a fire underneath the container
>Text everybody you know to come to where you are for a party
>Tie weights to yourself and hop in the egg pool
>Drown in eggs
>Fire slowly cooks you into the biggest omelette ever seen
>Friends and family arrive to see a large cooked mass of egg with a sign on it that says "eat up"
>People start cutting into the omelette and find your body

>>37917836
UK, even if someone were to find it, cut it open and see the drugs then there's still no way of proving you paid for it.

>can't get drunk enough to kill myself
FUCK ROBOTS. I just sit around wasting time all day. No job, no friends, no school, etc. why can't I fucking shoot myself? I'm more worried about what happens after death. Considering no one knows. What happens if it's worse? I don't care about putting a bullet through my head as I know it'll work 100%. But still I just fucking sit around yet I can't die

>>37914890
PERMANENT SOLUTION TO TEMPORARY PROBLEM
YOU'VE GOT SO MUCH TO LIVE FOR
YOU'RE TOO YOUNG
GO SEE A THERAPIST
THINK OF YOUR RELATIVES AND FRIENDS
IT'LL GET BETTER
YOU CAN DO GREAT THINGS IN LIFE

>>37925324
Think about all those friends you have that will worry when you die hhaa :))) jus beeeeeeeeeeee urself buzz buzz

if you guys weren't closet normies like the quintessential fat emo whore begging for attention via suicidal traits you'd just get it over and kill yourselves

no one literally cares, stop stalling, stop talking about it, stop looking for attention and thinking your "suicidal" nature is a quirky aspect of your personality

stop being faggots

>>37925391
This. People that have really resigned themselves to death don't use it as a way to get attention. My cousin killed himself a few weeks ago actually, shot himself in the head. Never once talked about how depressed he was but he did have really bad drug problems which wore him down. His parents obviously are crushed, their lives will never be the same. he had a brother and sister who loved him, they are fucking crushed too. Suicide effects everyone around you, it's some evil shit to ruin all their lives on the way out.

What I think I'd do if things ever got to that point is go out into the woods or something and make sure my body was never found, at least then my family would think it was an accident. Oh or work one of those high pay high risk jobs like working on an oil rig where odds are I'd just killed on the job.

>>37914890
I'm on DXM right now, yet I've always thought that running away and starting a new life is my alternative to suicide

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>>37914890
>at the gym last night
>got out of my house for the first time in a few weeks (not including my wage slave job)
>find myself just looking around at all the people drinking or working out
>i go to a corner and open up 4chan
>as im about to sit down with some whiskey this song starts playing in the bar
>https://youtu.be/cLoytewvn0g
>i sat there for 2 hours getting drunk
>after alot of thinking i told my self id finally be happy if i were dead
>the happiest most elating feeling flows from my chest to all my limbs
>feel tingly and happy
>i realized then and there that i didnt owe any thing to this life
>i can just quit when ever i want


I neveeer looost controool...

>>37921854
Ignore all these faggot normies.
Do it. There's nothing for us robots in this world. I wish i had the courage

>>37925528
Your gym has a bar?
Love that song btw, surprised it was being played anywhere. Sometimes I get moments like that where I just feel at peace completely and stop caring, the anxiety and dread all fades away and I actually feel happy. Its nice