Anyone here got fiddled with as a kid/teen? How are you holding up?

>>37900346
>Anyone here got fiddled with as a kid/teen?
[raises hand]
>How are you holding up?
Horribly, thanks for asking.

Im holding up terribly, i have a good list of mental illnesses/disorders, but im not sure if its cuz i was diddled or because genetics. But its whatever.

My cousin (F) and I showed each other our junk and spied on our adult family (parents/aunts/uncles) while they showered. She ended up ratting us out. I've always felt sexually anxious/paranoid since then.

Nothing like being fiddlee-dooed though, sorry for all anons who were subjected to that

Yeah; not bad considering. I was not hurt at the time, so the only harm was growing up thinking I was a queer who should kill himself and burn in hell.
What still irks me is that I had sexual intimacy before I knew what it was, and now I can't get any when I actually want it.

It is impossible that scandals should not come: but woe to him through whom they come. It were better for him, that a millstone were hanged about his neck, and he cast into the sea, than that he should scandalize one of these little ones.

My uncle used to tickle my feet all the time. I thought he was just playing around, then one day, I went with my mom to see him and he accidentally left foot fetish porn minimized in his browser on his desktop. In retrospect, he did act pretty strange whenever he was near my feet.

I'm fine though. Could have been a lot worse. Pretty creepy nonetheless.

How does one fixes sexual aversion? I dont remember me being fiddled but im afraid of intimacy.

As a guy who made little girls sit on his junk, what are the chances they'll remember this later?
One of them will go to a psychologist shortly, I think it's prettyl likely she'll tell about me. How fucked am I?

>>37902626
i think you'd probably have to go to some kind of therapy for that.or maybe you just have mild autism.

>>37902653
you're fucked if you had a boner.

might be okay if not. you'll get whatever's coming to you.

>>37902626
Find someone you're comfortable with and take it slow

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>>37900346
no sir mr FBI sir

>>37902653
If they were under 4 there is next to 0 chance.

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>>37902653
lucky prick

were the girls really cute?

>>37902653
Remember: if you don't confess it's literally impossible to prove it happened. Children's memories are very unreliable (see how Freud had almost everyone saying they had been molested through suggestion).

>>37902774
Only one of them wasn't
And she realized what was going on, too (she said "I'm feeling your thing")
For that reason, it was easy for me to resist temptation to do it again at the next opportunity.
>Except that one time at the pool

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>>37902839
me needs some greentext on this
also don't worry, the judge can't fuck you over if there's no proofs

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>>37902839
i am really jealous

green text? ...pls?

>>37902886
>>37902834
I'm not worried about law enforcement. It's the angry parents I worry about. They won't be stopped by such technicalities as proof.

>>37902926
Deny. Deny deny. If you're in a savage shithole where you're risking being lynched flee the country now (google brazil wheelchair pedophile shot in the head for a graphic example).

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>>37902886
>Bunch of girls swimming in the pool
>One of them can't swim and must use pic related the whole time
(Google images seems to actively avoid showing pics of little girls using this stuff)
>Stupid easy to just grab her hips and put her ass wherever I want it to be
>Has to leave shortly after, but I got my 30 seconds of bliss

doing peachy my butthole is still getting love

>>37902978
Brazil has the right idea, anyway if you're retarded and ew enough to touch people's kids especially in a public pool you deserve whatever comes you're way and theres no denying shit when your at a pool for christ sakes.

Meh. The emotional abuse growing up and the domestic violence + rape of my mom fucked me up more than anything molesty, if only because emotional abuse fucked up my personality and made me a pretty anxious person, and the mom stuff gave me weird phobias even though I don't remember it at all. How am I doing: I grew up to look almost completely normal, except I keep choosing partners who beat me (except the current one), I disappear to the psych ward every few years, I fuck up my body with drugs and self-injury all the time, and half the time I forget where I am and think it's 2-10 years ago and I'm getting raped, beaten, scolded, or threatened. I feel like I'm evil but nobody believes me about it. I don't talk to most of my bio family. My first boyfriend, when I was 11, was 22.

>>37902658
When i was 5 i stumbled into nudist beach and naked whaled started shouting at me.
>>37902690
Anon im 24 khv. Its a bit too late for it.

i got fiddled when i was a teen by this guy on church. back then i thought he's doing that cuz he thinks im gay or what. But now that im grown up, i wholeheartedly believe that he is the gay one. Like, really? Fiddling some dude's cock? Whenever i see him out , i could still remember it. I feel like he also remembers it and that he's ashamed.

>>37900346
apparently this happened
>got molested as a kid
already knew that
>apparently my mom told one of my friends parents or something
>they told everyone that we knew and I lost all my friends because they thought I'd do something to their kid
This was probably when I was around 5

When I was 16 I had awful self esteem and used to camwhore for men on omegle because it made me feel useful to someone. I wasn't even gay.
I don't think it's what OP is talking about though since it doesn't really affect me and I could legally consent to sex anyway. It's been years and occasionally I just think, "oh yeah that happened"

>>37904013
>get molsted
>lose all your friends too
Anon I'm so fucking sorry that happened

>>37903975
Nigger wat
Lmao

>>37903975
>>37904227
>he's just sucking my cock cuz he thinks I'm gay
Topped my fuckin Kek

I did. I'm doing bad. All sorts of fucked up. I'm an alcoholic and can only stand being around my brother that I have a flowers in the attic thing with.
Usually I'm pretty manic, so I just have to ride this out and I'll be back to normal. I'd fucking kill for a drink, though.

>>37900346

My sister sucked my dick when I was 8 and she was 12. Feels ok I guess.

I got filmed in amateur porn a few times by a guy and his wife when I was 13. It was weird at the time and it makes me feel awful now.

>>37904482
Anon I'm so sorry to hear that.
How did that even happen though?
Did they kidnap you or something?
Did you ever go to therapy?

>>37904581
At the time during the summer I got sent to this day camp at a local college and the guy worked it and sometimes his wife showed up. Maybe they just settled on me but took a liking to me which led to spending time with them separately since they lived right nearby.

It ended up going that far because they gave me gifts to try doing stuff. As far as it went was the guy filming me and his wife as she'd do things to/with me. Their gifts made me keep quiet, so no one ever found out. Never went to therapy or got to talk about it really.

>>37905002
How do you feel about it now? What feels so awful?
I shouldn't have to say it, but I hope you don't feel any personal shame over it. You were the victim.
I'd highly reccomend talking to a therapist, even if you don't feel like you need it.

>>37905002
Are you a guy or a girl? originalio

No fiddled but disciplined with a belt somewhat regularly.
I'm doing alright though, thanks for asking.