How are your families? Did they emotionally abuse you? I just

You don't even have a psycho tier mother my dude. Breaking down and crying like that broke through to her human side. My parents would laugh at me and call me a faggot if I did something like that. In fact my mother told earlier that I was "Disgusting in every way" and I laughed in her face.

>>37878082
She sounds like one of those venomous snakes that poison the conversation in the most shady, unaccusable way. Become independent, shell have no power over you, you can still give her the benefit of the doubt without her being able to manipulate you because "you're her son" and she's an innocent old woman

>>37878169
Sorry man, they sound insufferable.

>>37878174
Yeah, i gotta leave and let her rot in her bad life choices, it's just that i'm feeling very emotional right now.
Nobody in this world would hug me and say "i love you" if i cried, not even my own mother.

>>37878169
amazing, how do you stand it?

>>37878210
well I'm also a piece of shit, it's not like I'm delusional enough to sit here and think they are completely at fault. My theory is that none of them are worth going to jail for so it just isn't worth it to confront them in any way

Make them pay for what they did.
Show them how much they underestimated you.
Be ruthless.
Turn your sadness and self pitty into anger and destrucion.
Now go out and show everyone who has ever wronged you, how big of a mistake they made.

>>37878268
I'm fucking dead inside my dude. I went to my uncles funeral the other day and watched all my relatives cry and I felt absolutely nothing. I had to feign sadness so as to not offend the bereaved,

>>37878306
This might come off as edgy but that's EXACTLY the mentality you need to move on. That hurt and pain? Hone it, once it is focused it becomes a godly rage that will keep you sharp 24/7. I sleep maybe four hours a night at most and my anger keeps me going, it's the closest thing to godly wrath any human will ever experience

>>37878362
I turn my rage into weightlifting.
I went from barely lifting a 135 deadlift into a 405 desflit in about a year.
I hone it all too. I want EVERYONE who has every wronged me to pay. They will look at me and wish they treated me better, and if in any way someone asks for mercy, none will be delivered.

Now i went to check on her and there she is crying, i'm sure she'll do something stupid in retaliation to today's event or maybe even something drastic, maybe she'll kill herself and i'll get to live with it. Maybe she'll leave a self a little not passive aggressively blaming it on me, wouldn't surprise me in the least.
Now i need to sleep, wake up early for a useless internship and find the will and focus to right my final essay so i can get a degree and find a job.
Sounds very likely that i'll fail and slit my wrists before long.
>>37878362
I feigned sadness at my absent father's funeral.
I'm not angry, i'm hurt, i just wish i was dead.

>>37878082
all my family hates me, im a piece of shit so i thinks its ok neet atm and a useless garbage too