>be me
>severely depressed for the past few months
>medication and psychotherapy are ineffective
>depression worsening
>so jaded literally everything irritates me, including my own self-awareness and consciousness
>only thing that would sooth me is oneitis
>oneitis hates me for being severely depressed
>looked into how effective was suicide by hanging with a belt on a door knob today
>almost went on with it
>considering letting myself starve to death
>there is no hope
>i want out