>tfw you have dreams
>tfw you put zero effort into attaining those dreams
What the fuck is wrong with me
>>37874536
Hey that's me. It's the detachement.
>>37874536
there are obvious things that you're not admitting to us.
your obstacles, doubts, and what your dreams actually are.
this world is hostile to you
>>37874563
The detachment from your own life?
>>37874608
Obstacles only exist if you actually put effort in. Without effort, there was never any obstacles in the first place.
>>37874611
From my own self basically.
>tfw you have no dreams
>>37874611
when you put it like that, i feel like this is the reason
>>37874698
What are you detaching from your own self?
Why do you identify with this not-self than your own self?
>>37875272
What do you put effort into then?
Why can we so easily imagine these things we'll never accomplish or experience?
>>37875659
nothing. i don't do that much anyway so there's nothing that i even could put effort into if i wanted to. i play video games even though i don't enjoy them anymore basically because i'm so used to playing them and can't think of anything else, it feels normal, other than that, i might watch tv which requires literally 0 effort other than maybe like keeping your head trained on the tv, but without arguing semantics, there's nothing.
The last two years of my life, chronologically:
>enroll into college
>breddy gud tier STEM
>stop working out
>start smoking weed
>start staying up late (like 4 am) to play vidya
>10/10 grill from college hitting on me
>ignore that as I can't possibly believe someone like that would be interested in me
>barely finish first year
>second year
>stop going to college altogether
>didn't tell it to my parents so I can stay away from home to play vidya unfettered
>parentbux still flowing to fuel my weed binges
>been doing nothing but playing vidya and staying up ridiculously late doing just that
why did I ruin my life?
>>37874536
>tfw used to have a dream of falling in love and having a soul mate for life
>tfw the dream has died and you finally realize it's not possible
>tfw you stop trying and sink into the pit of depression
>>37876585
Sounds like you're living the dream, bruh
>>37876685
>tfw you keep having literal dreams of that girl
>>37874536
I've put so little effort for so long that I can barely remember what mine were.
I have no dreams. Closest thing is getting to Gold in league of legends.
Today my psychiatrist wished me luck on league. I'm 27 years old. I'm so pathetic.
>>37877584
Hey, at least someone is encouraging you
>>37874536
oh absolutely, that was me for like 10 years.
Part of it is that we're raised by pop culture that never shows how much effort is put into becoming someone. Hard work and studies are boring so those are usually cut down into a neat little montage or left out altogether.
Another part is why so many of us go the extra step and become NEETs. Humans prefer a familiar suffering over the fear of the unknown.
I guess also depending on your upbringing you were either told that you couldn't be the thing you wanted to be OR you were told that you could be anything you wanted to be but again no one told you about all the soul-crushing effort and repeated failure that goes into.
Becoming someone, learning something, it fucking sucks. It's never fun or easy, it's difficult and frustrating and somehow also boring all at once.
You just have to want it, really want it.
That burning desire overcomes that boring struggle of working hard and studying diligently and sacrificing temporary pleasure & distractions so that you can enjoy your life a few years from now.
I hope you find your path as I've found mine OP.
>>37878328
>He's motivated
Get out of here, Chad
>>37878562
Not everyone here is a piss-bottling NEET
>>37874536
I have impossible dreams I put no effort into. It's all ogre.
I have no dreams nor desires.