Does anyone else feel as if they'll never get along with others?
I've never had any serious friends and haven't had any friends for years. Even when I made internet friends I would get bored of them or screw them over and end up alone again. I get banned on pretty much every platform of social media and even gaming servers for one reason or another. I've never had a date or anything close to romantic encounter.
I like the idea of friends or a relationship but despise the concept in reality. There are so many issues and problems with relationships that I don't see it as valuable. I have a lot of philosophical issues with romantic relationships. I'm not some teenager that says they "hate the world" but I tend to be repulsed by so many normal activites or beliefs of normal people.
I don't know where to progress with this. I have no desire of running and business and achieving wealth and success. Everything else seems to be impossible as it would require me to socialise. I don't see the point in much else as it is unfulfilling. I just don't want to interact with anyone anymore in real life.
I made friends in the past but I would turn down 9/10 of their invites and they'd stop inviting me. Or when I'm around them I'm just a negative person I think, because of shit self esteem or because I'm used to talking to cynical ironic pricks on 4chan all day usually. Those two things combined lead to people not inviting me places. I get butthurt when I find out I'm not invited to stuff, even though I knew I wouldn't go if I was. I just want to be invited.
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And I should add that /r9k/ is pretty difficult to relate to as well.
I don't even come here anymore. It's like a new /b/