Meaning of Life Thread

>>37851543
A romantic relationship.

>>37851543
I don't know. I've been looking for one for 8 years and I feel more lost everyday.
Short term right now is just to keep my depression in check enough to not kill myself before my mom pass away first is what I've decided on.

>>37851561
is that short term or lifelong, friend?

>>37851640
It's the only thing I care about.

Like literally.

My whole life I never cared about anything, had no drive or motivation to do anything. But this year I slowly realized that there is ineed at least one thing I desire and that's having an intimate relationship with a girl.

>>37851613
that's a noble goal to have, i'm inspired by your strength, i dont think i could act the same way in your situation

>>37851674
you don't have any hobbies or interests?
not that those would make tfw no gf any less strong i guess
good luck on your quest though

>>37851709
>you don't have any hobbies or interests?
Playing video games, browsing the internet or just laying around feels all the same to me desu.

>not that those would make tfw no gf any less strong i guess

Ah, it's okay. I still feel mostly numb and detached unless I have one of my short hypomanic episodes.

>good luck on your quest though
Thanks!

>>37851678
Thank you anon, I know that while she's disappointed in me she also loves me a lot. I don't want to hurt her even more.

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Just the sweet release of death, senpai.

>>37851847
i know some people who completely abondoned their mothers over disagreements, some people arent strong enough to stay when their own emotional health is at risk, and to do this while depressed is something else, congratulations on your strength dude

>>37851875
how come dude? do you wanna talk about it?

>>37851776
i kind of know what you mean, not that i could ever understand your situation through an r9k post
and while women hate threads are fun, they are amazing things, we are lucky enough to be biologically programmed to receive endorphins from just looking at them, the eternal mission

Escape. That's all. I can't stand this and I never could. I know it's going to end in suicide but I'm trying everything else first. I can't stand you fucking people. You have no hearts, none of you.

long term - be happy. would be cool if it was short term too but....

>>37852161
what do you mean? people as in humans? r9k?
what are you escaping from? if you need something to do to post-pone your suicide, you should try to learn a new skill for free at home, for instance, learn how to animate with opentoonz, or make music on fl studios, if you are less introverted than me, try wacky shit in public, if you carry the belief that your death is imminent then what is stopping you from pulling pranks for your sole ammusement etc, everyone is entitled to that, no matter who you are

>>37851543
My end goal in life is to have my name in a history book, I want to have a lasting positive effect on humanity. I understand it's not very likely but I like having something to work towards.

i have no goals or aspirations.

i just want to breath and have enough food and medicine to survive, is this selfish or weird?

>>37851543
To become a Buddha for the benefit of all sentient beings, everything else is futile.

>>37852255
thats positive thinking, good to see, you'll be happy some day anon, i hope, especially with that attitude

>>37852009
Yeah I can't blame them, it's incredibly hard.
Truth be told I also secretly resent my mother for giving birth to me in the first place, but I know it's not actually her fault and she never asked for a depressive son either.

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The meaning of life is that you are born and then your body dies.

>>37851543
To learn everything. Learning new things is literally the only reason i get out of bed in the morning

>>37852294
hey i share that goal with you, thats what keeps me going really, you have to remember that if you do what you know to be heroic and others try to demean or villanise you, this will make you even more popular with people who share your ideals in the future

Self-sufficiency and enough time to play video games every day is all I desire as a 22-year-old NEET with no access to the bux, retirement is a pipe dream.

I want to work enough I can retire early and be a neet forever. I'm already working a bunch of over time and it's starting to stack up.

Short term - I want to travel to Peru and take Ayahuasca for two months so I can heal from being raped as a teenager and the PTSD I have from it.

Mid-term - Prepare for the Racial Holy War

Long-term - Live on a mountain and have a waifu and a greenhouse and a goat

Thern after I die be a Boddhisatva forever.

>>37852357
this another one of my goals, ive started reading a lot of ancient philosophy recently (because its free) and its really helping in my average life i feel

>>37852026
In a nutshell, my life has fallen appart. I am clinically depressed and most of my friends, including my very first love and oneitis have abandoned me for being a bitter asshole wallowing in negativity and self-pity because I'm so jaded with everything, nothing brings me satisfaction anymore. The only thing that could've brought me solace was being held by my oneitis and feel loved for once in my miserable life. But no. I'm not worthy of that. Just scorn and contempt, because I'm a weakling and a manchild. I have no right to feel this away when others have it way worse. It's an insult to them.

>>37852328
i think i understand what you mean, to me you sound like an upstanding citezen though, 1 in 100 people will manage to act your way when that time of their life comes to them

>>37852406
i have recently been reading about the behaviour of subtropical marinelife and im having a blast. will probably look more into philosofy outside of the basics (Kirkegaard, the greeks and Kant) when i feel i have had my fill of fish

good luck in your knowledge pursuit my friend

>>37852390
kek iktf, what do you play dude?

>>37852403
a few safe investments and you'll get there friend, good luck

>>37852405
short term? when are you planning on going to peru?
a lot of us are in the same boat on the mid-term haha

>>37852414
You sound young. Self-pity is the most insidious thing for those of us inclined to it. It demands continually that you draw your own attention to yourself and there inflict pain. Good on you for recognizing what you're doing. I didn't for years. You can stop.

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>>37852511
I want to go as soon as possible, but I don't know if it will happen at all because I have a total mental breakdown every six or eight months. It makes it rather hard to hold down a job and save $10,000. Impossible, even.

Most likely I'll be strung up on DOTR for being a degenerate :^)

>>37852414
oh cut that oneitis crap.
i understand having a girlfriend or a partner. but having the notion that there is "the one" is false.
this is where men are weak. we get attached too easily and its hard for us to let go. while woman turn stone cold for retarded shit like money in a serious relationship

>>37852414
i was in the same situation you described before, i wont tell you any of that "it gets better" shit, im sure youve heard it,
when it comes to yourself man, fuck what others feel, theres no free-market for emotions man, i still keep the contempt in the back of my head but when i think of the people i hate i just try harder in whatever im doing or i walk, it is freeing to be alone i feel, i have a lot of time to think, which i find worthwhile, hope you stay safe dude

>>37852466
wow you already sound like youve learned a lot more than me so far
thank you:)

>>37852581
>Most likely I'll be strung up on DOTR for being a degenerate :^)
which of us can really say for certain that they wont be too?
it will be nice meeting you in the forced labour camps haha

>>37852322
that made me feel really good anon. thank you. thank you. thank you. :)

I kinda guess I'll end up killing myself, but I wont do it until my parents die (and I hope they wont die soon). Until then I want to be self-sufficient and make my parents proud.
I spent a few years as a neet but now I just finished my studies, I worked very hard during my trainee months, and there's a big chance they will hire me.
A gf (or bf maybe? I have a fucked up porn addiction that broke my sexuality) would be nice.
Health is important for me too, I want to start going to the gym. I need it.
I also would like to keep enjoying my hobbies. I still have fun playing games, reading books, watching movies and driving.

>>37851543
>Create a webcomic
>???
>Get into a college for animation
>Become a storyboarder at CN
Not great but it's the best I have at the moment.

>>37852704
glad to hear it, keep on pushing till you get to the plateau

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>>37851543
I just what to be a good Christian who grows up and becomes sanctified as time goes on. After I would like to find a nice Christian girl, who loves God as much as I do, and we will have children and raise good Christian children and after we all die we will meet each other up in heaven.

>>37852720
when i was younger i felt the same way, about waiting for my parents to die before i kms, when the time came i realised that for millions of years our ancestors have survied long enough to pass on the genetic seed down the ladder, and if i can't carry on the tradition i am going to make it all worth something by contributing somehow
its great that youre working on being self-sufficient anon, i hope you get the job,
what kind of books do you read?

>>37852745
hey i know someone with the same ambition, you graphic design/ animation people are the most underated contributers to pop-culture, thank you for your service and i wish you good luck

>>37852807
good luck christanon, that sounds like youve got a great future planned out, im glad that you've got something good to look forward to

>>37852891
Im a pleb when it comes to books. The last three books I read were books related to movies or actors I was interested in. The Norm Macdonald book, The Disaster Artist and Wired, a John Belushi biography.
I enjoy crime novels like those of James Ellroy or Elmore Leonard. Cormac McCarthy and Bukowski are my favourite authors.
Thanks for the kind words anon.

>>37853006
haha i didn't know the great gatsby was a book before the movie, i just didnt bother with "the classics", but i have read Cormac McCarthy before, i like his work, what video games do you play? i hope you stay safe dude

>>37851543
My goal is to have a short dark elf sexbot. All I have to do is wait 10 years ;_; hopefully

>>37853913
good luck to you and i wish you and yor future sex bot a happy life together

l dont want to fail

l dont want to faiI

I dont want to faiI

I wanna be a navy SEAL and when I get out buy a fursuit and have sex and smoke weed every day then kms when I'm like 60

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>>37851543
>everyone post what their goal is in life, if you have one, or what your aspirations are in the short term

Right now, my goal is to join the military (army or airforce) and figure things out. I want to get some kind of MOS in Intel or mechanics. Get a degree while enlisted to have more options. Then I can stay in the military to try to become an officer, get a civvie job, or try to get into SOF. Or I can try to get into the FBI after leaving and go into intel or SWAT depending on what I do in the military

Besides that, I want to learn a lang (which I will get in Intel), learn how to program, become stronger, learn how to play an instrument, learn a martial art, and master a few things. Then potentially start a business if I can create ideas.

Sounds like a lot, but I just don't like the idea of pissing my life away. You should always have goals. I want to be the best, learn a lot, and be remembered - all while being paid

>>37852271
I don't actually mean it. Sometimes I feel things and they seem right in the moment until I regain the sentience needed to see why they aren't. I only feel as though I've been injured by a lot of people and nobody has ever cared, no one acknowledges that my life has been painful too. I know that these people are like me, that when they seem not to have hearts I'm either too fucked up at the moment to see them or they're hidden under bullshit. These are declarations of my feelings, I don't mean to hurt anyone, I only want to unburden myself but it ends up being hurtful and I hate it.

I just don't know what to do. Only suicide seems logical but even then just barely.

>>37852271
Also thanks those are good suggestions. Losing myself in something tangible could take my mind off of everything

>>37852515
Yeah, I should've said "nah, I'm all good, senpai!"

>>37852589
I'm not implying she's the one. I just care alot about her. I'm fully aware that the whole "there is someone for everyone" mantra is nonsensical.

>>37851543
I just want to become a Marine nothing less nothing more

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>>37855456
What's your favorite flavor of crayon?
Seriously though just go option 40. Marine posts suck donkey dick and rangers can be running ops on a nightly basis. Plus you can try for sfas if that's your thing.

>>37851543
Too die within hurting my family, namely my mom, dad, and oldest younger brother.

I don't know how to do it, but I'm thinking a mountain climbing "accident".

I also hope deadly every day for the collapse of society. I just want retribution, to feel like a real man and fight some people

>>37851543
to pass the time until i die
(i think it's gonna be a long long time)

>>37855456
Me as well only I'd also like to go to Valhalla after death.