I'm scared completely shitless about the future. I worried that I won't get into a good college. Even if I do, I'm worried that I'll graduate jobless and in debt. I'm probably gonna end up being a massive disappointment to my family. I'm not sure if I can keep going on like thisI've had a massive fear of failure instilled into me from a young age, and it's slowly taking away any motivation to do anything that was once fun for me.At this point, the only thing preventing me from killing myself is not knowing what's on the other side. If I were confident that I wouldn't go straight to hell for being such a piece of shit, I'd have done it in a heartbeat