>getting gf
>finally happy for 2-3 months
>i get jealous because she hangs out with many other guys
>she got less time for me
>i break up because i cant handle her actions anymore
>since then i miss her and cant get hero ut of my mind
>she refused me and stopped all contact to me
feeling despair every day
my mood swings between Longing and loneliness and anger
i even tried to start to work on myself to become a better version but will loose instantly on the next day all motivation and falling back into old patterns
>>37840875
You did the right things, besides being a beta and asking her to stay with you after breaking up.
>>37840875
>hanging out with other guys
>having less time for you
Red flags bud, you saved yourself a lot by ending it first. Trust me, you would have regretted having her end it. That's what it sounds like was about to happen.
>>37840875
No, being stupid was your mistake, not getting a girlfriend.
I don't know the entire story obviously but it looks like kind of shallow from this angle, they're allowed to live their own life and have their own friends.
Doesn't have to be about you.