Low self esteem

>>37835322
how old are you? just wondering in an original fashion.

I have this a lot in my job. I work retail, so 90% of the time it's more than likely an expression of boredom, but I can't help but feel it's directed at my incompetency.

>>37835322
Yes
>be a precocious kid, started reading at age 3 and was doing 2nd grade level maths in kindergarten
>teachers and parents thought i was a genius, teacher said i would find the cure for cancer one day
>was also hyper sensitive and afraid of social contact
>spend my days in inner fantasy worlds and playing video games, get good grades in school but nothing more
>develop superiority complex to cover my social failures
>now, 24 and don't know anything, just play vidya all day and browse 4chan
>everyone else from school has a life and job, many are married
>whenever I try to learn something new or compose music I just get frustrated at my lack of ability and knowledge and quit

I'm going to off myself soon

>>37835322
>constantly berate myself
>constantly call myself worthless
>talk to myself and put myself down
>talk to my self negatively like it's a fucking mantra
>whenever i do something any satisfaction or happiness momentarily fades as I realize how insignificant it is
>on the reverse end all my failures are magnified to the point where it enforces how worthless I am as a person
>whenever I get rejected it's soul crushing
>whenever I get praised it doesn't affect me because I feel that it doesn't matter and that I'm truly worthless
>my subconscious hates the fuck out of me
>tfw my own worst enemy
I think I know what it's like
I need to make friends with myself and start loving myself

>>37835497
i am in exactly the same position as you
i hate myself even though im good in so many ways
i hate it

>>37835322
>caring about being a "disappointment"

it wasn't your choice to become their kid, therefore it is impossible for you to "disappoint".

just doesn't make any sense. it's a retarded societal idea.

>>37835566
I can't even count the ways that I'm good- or maybe it's my dumpster self esteeem talking
I can only admit that I'm decent at something, not actually good or worthy of praise because I know I haven't put enough work into it
I am going to actually try and be less harsh on myself, maybe that'll help, good luck to you anon

I'm a normie with a great life but I still have low self esteem and I'm always scared of making big decisions or standing up for something because I'm too worried about what people will think of me.

>DAE low self-esteem?

Do you know where the fuck you are? Get the fuck off my board, underageb& faggot.

I have 0 self-confidence and absolutely hate being the center of attention. Birthdays are fucking terrible. I don't know how to take a compliment or receive praise. At this point I look at random strangers and think they're better than me just because of their appearance or the way they act.

>bullied constantly in school
>no validation from parents. Only "well those bullies aren't your friends"
>grew up in a church that taught me I'm worthless without God
>parents never let me make mistakes
>never put me into sports or martial arts
>acted mad when I failed class but didn't care enough to help or check in with me or my teachers
>now 33 and unable to form relationships due to severe lack on self esteem and confidence.
>"why are you so depressed and anxious, anon?"

Gee, I wonder mom and dad...?