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>have a disease for the past 7 years, all through middle and high school
>hair falls out, dandruff, arthritis, dumbed down, can't think
>gets worse the whole time
>das yelled at me whenever I brought it up
>divorce happens
>my problem is used as a tool e.g, I was made sick by the divorce due to depression
>diagnosed with depression
>antidepressants make it worse, I wasn't even 'sad'
>must be ADD, insists the Indian psychiatrist, every single month.
>eventually try adderall, dick shrivels up and I feel like I'm about to die
>ton of energy three years prior, lay in bed all day, can't think, play games
>dad kicks me out of house at 15, off and on a few times for being a depressed loser
>get not eating, look sickly, acquire some type of autism
>become literally retarded with the memory of a goldfish
>break out into fevers and sweats randomly all the time
>it's all in your head faggot
>doctors tell me nothing's there.
>lady tells me I might have a yeast infection
>fuck it
>doctor laughs at me
>do more research, it all made sense, but there's controversy behind the whole thing
>18 at this point, took matters into my own hands after getting enough money, paying for herbal remedies and bullshit like that out of pocket because doctors are terrible people
>stop eating sugar and grain
>lonand behold I start shitting yeast
>head feels slightly better
>I've been drunk off of alcohol my body's been producing the past 7 years due to doctors incompetence and family's negligence
>I cannot talk about this without being a crybaby whiney bitch
>people treated me terribly the whole time
>now that I'm slightly better, it's not as bad
>I've seen how people are
>can't respect anyone now, absolutely hate everyone I meet and it's completely logical
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>all I get is hate and revulsion from people
>I can't achieve on my own
>I cannot do any complex math anymore
>I cannot stay focused
>my language skills have deteriorated and I've developed dyslexia
>I have not had clarity of mind most of my remembered life now.
>I have no self confidence, and always assume I am doing something wrong, or am wrong, due to alcoholic incompetence
>I have nobody in my life who truly cares, nobody who ever will, and I'm now at the mindset where i consider myself a selfish bitch fornthinking I could deserve that
>I have resigned to not killing myself, finding a girl, and raising kids to have it better than I did.
>this cannot happen because I'm too bitter and jaded, and the only girl who could like me in my current and ever-present state would be of a quality equal to or lesser than myself, which would make me even more crazy
>this past month I have stopped being able to sleep, and have been getting about 2-4 hours a night if any
>might actually just stop eating again and kms idk
>this is literally an existential hell
thank you for reading
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>>37816410
>>37816428
I wish you the best man. I guess just try and move forward from here? I know it's stupid advice, but simply looking forward to things is the one thing that keeps me going, even if I don't get it (I was about to kill myself in 2015, but the news of spoilers for the new Red Dead game kept me going). I guess if there is someway you can prove to doctors that you have a yeast infection beyond a doubt that you can maybe get help or benefits?
Hey, at least you had the willpower to give up sugar/types of food, already makes you better than most people.
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>>37816410
>>37816428
Livestream it when you kill yourself please
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Piracetam can help your brain recover from damage and neglect. It works on recovered alcoholics and concussion victims.
That's a fucking crazy infection.
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>>37816410
This is laughable bullshit that can be discounted through a blood alcohol test.
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>>37817583
Please end your life before you ruin others, piece of shit med student
https://www.bustle.com/articles/133318-what-is-auto-brewery-syndrome-heres-the-4-1-1-on-this-mysterious-medical-condition-that-makes-you-drunk
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