>can't form interpersonal relationships because I'm painfully boring and timid and gross
>can't find any kind of inner fulfillment because I have no hobbies or interests and everything is exhausting and uninteresting
>slowly coast from day to day alone, going days or weeks without ever speaking a word out loud, never touching another person or feeling their heat, wasting my entire life cooped up in a room asleep or on a computer until I die
why is doctor assisted suicide not legal in the USA. I'm too scared to take my own life but I'm a waste of a perfectly good one. it will never get better and I will never amount to anything or make anyone else's life better. I really wish someone would just fucking shoot me out in public so I wouldn't have to do it myself
I was in the same boat for awhile, anon. You're right, it really never gets better. I'd suggest finding a job and putting in the hours for a few months, maybe years if you're persistent enough. Try finding some sense of purpose so nobody can say you didn't try, then invest your money into some new hobbies and see if they make life worth living. Chances are, they won't, but it doesn't hurt to try. By then, you should have a ton of money saved up so you could blow it all on extravagant vacations or donate it to charity and then off yourself when it all runs out.