Greentext your most horrible memory ITT

>tfw i never risked it for the biscuit

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I'm not gonna put any effort into this because I'm about to sleep and I hardly can put the day in order or make much sense of it anyway.
>be 18
>do waaay to many drugs
>eating ccc's like candy snorting addies drinking liquor smoking dank grass
>been up for days tripping and listening to my bloody valentine
>lying in bed listening to to here knows when
>feel what felt like THE perfect sensation
>literally thought I was in heaven experiencing pure bliss
>song ends
>snap out of trance for a second and realize how bad I fucked up
>that was the best thing that could ever happen to me
>that was the peak of my life and its over
>comparatively life is mind numbingly boring
>spend rest of night with my brain frying
>that day I double down on the cccs I was on because they were just sitting there and I thought I was invincible
>I was wrong
>spend day thinking I had solved the universe and I had to act as crazy as possible so the government would catch me so I could tell my secrets to the secret rulers of society
>simultaneously think everyone evil has subconsciously been tricked into committing suicide
>I could explain why but it would take forever
>every time I think ANYTHING air is like a billion light bulbs explode in my head
>screaming OH MY GOD! Every few seconds
>screaming in streets
>incessantly speaking really far out craziness
>at one point I think normal speech is to slow so I begin to only speak in poetry
>brain is billion miles a minute
>after a day of thinking I'm Jesus Christ here to save the universe I end up screaming at my friends and family in the hospital
>for years I had a 2 second memory. Now I'm up to 7 or so
>absolutely terrified of going crazy
>have OCD and intense anhedonia
>due to low seretonin I have awful migraines and can't eat 80 percent of foods
>I want to believe someday I'll be alive again
>I'm not holding my breath