mental illness thread

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>schizoid personality disorder
>misophonia

Apparently even my GP hasn't heard of misophonia, so here's an explanation. By the time I was 14, even the sound of my mother talking could send me into a fit of rage because of the 's' sounds.

>Attention deficit disorder/sluggish cognitive tempo
>Generalized anxiety disorder
>Major depressive disorder
>Social phobia
>Maladaptive daydreaming

>>37771634
fuck, how does it affect your life?

>>37771776
I try very hard not to eat with anyone else because of the sound, unless there's a lot of background noise so I can't hear it. If I listen to any specific sound for long enough, it'll become a trigger, so really the possibiities are limitless.
Having schizoid personality disorder kind of helps, because I have no incentive to make friends anyway.

>>37771634
Kek, you have actual trigger words

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>Generalized anxiety disorder
>Social anxiety
>OCD
>Tourettes

>>37771462
I have depression, a bit of social anxiety and I don't know what it's called but I'm somewhat paranoid. I'm not schizo type paranoid, where I think people are trying to kill me, but I'm low self esteem paranoid, where I think that anyone who is trying to get close to me is only doing so out of pity or to humiliate me in the future.

>>37771462
C-PTSD, also depression and general anxiety but those are consequences of the former.
Also been diagnosed with antisocial PD and schizoid PD
>tfw you're a malfunctioning mess of diagnosis

>be ASD and gen. anxiety
>almost positive I'm STPD
>afraid of what will happen if I find out for sure

being molested ruined my life desu
resulted in my dropping out of school and becoming a shut in
and I'm about to lose my housing due to my inability to control my Borderline shit

>schizophrenia
got the diagnosis 8 years ago, went neet for 7 years, been back to work since one year though, but withdrew socially so it basically made me a robot/cyborg, but I'm on the path to recovery

Me have

>schiziod pd

feels like I'm just drifting through life

>>37771462
>Paranoid schizophrenia in early stage
>No empathy
>Manipulate people
>Charismatic and confident
I don't think im that bad, went to a psychological institution for my brother because he has had full schizophrenia since the age of 10 so they tested me too. Iq tests and everything and at the end result they said paranoid schizophrenia and both a psychopath and a sociopath.

I'm in University now, had a wonderful sex life, now have a GF and many friends. I don't mind my ilnesses yet. Maybe in the future when my paranoia will increase.

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>psychosis
>autism
>chronic depression
>agoraphobia

>>37772543
What were your symptoms brethren?

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>>37772703
had 2 major psychosis in my life so far:

When I go psychotic, I hear voices telling me I'm the chosen one to safe the world, I believe them, and go on a mystical quest to get the feat done. Whole reality starts to crumble before my eyes, everything speaks off me or to me, people on tv, graffitis on the walls, songs on the radio, text in books, stones, clouds, birds, literally everything, speaks off me or to me, discusses my personal thoughts and feelings and so on, and guides me on this spiritual journey on awakening as God in my new formed reality.

Feels more real than anything else that I've ever experienced and feels like waking up from a life long dream. Gets more and more abstract, with to the point of me interacting with the spirits of the past and future, of multiple versions of myself and my higher self of different multiverses and timelines, I do crazy rituals and perform insane tasks, until I get so delusional until police gets involved multiple times and I get finally admitted to the mental hospital and put on heavy medication.

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>>37772784
>When I go psychotic, I hear voices telling me I'm the chosen one to safe the world,
I get those too. Mine is advanced and say they intentionally speak to others and trick them so thousands say same as me and my cover doesn't get blown

>>37771776
>fuck, how does it affect your life?

Not that guy, but for me it means that I just avoid certain thing. I never go where loudspeakers are in use, which means I avoid all live entertainment, movie theaters, etc. I avoid stores because of the scanner beeping, or I wear noise-cancelling headphones to go there. I avoid fast food restaurants because of the beeping of the cooking equipment. I also avoid any places where large number of people gather, because usually there will be loudspeakers in use.

>>37772815
I know that feel. I always get pronoia, the notion that everyone is in it, everyone around me knows that I'm the chosen one but can't tell me or the whole cover gets blown, they need to keep it a secret for some reason and can't tell me openly or admit it to me, but whole humanity conspires on my behalf to help me on my mission to safe them in return. Crazy shit.

>>37771462
anyone elae here just have awful memory i.e. forget simple shit, peoples names, etc. As well as sluggish general cognition like slow thinking and all that and feel like to think or do anything mental is like wading theough mud?

>>37772854
Yep know that exact feel, ditto

>>37772784
>>37772815
What do you think about tulpas? Asking for a friend.

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>>37771462
>Disociative psychosis
>complex PTSD

I dont even know if I have this stuff but thats what they said I have. Im on medication for it, im okay most of the time

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>>37772784
>things that never happened the post
Stop being so edgy, no-one thinks you'RE cool

>>37772906
Are you actually jealous of someone's delusion? Those are some pretty common ones

>>37772906
definitely happened the post. it's not even that uncommon, about 1 in 100 people experience psychosis at least one time in their life. not all have these particular delusions of course, but many do.

it's psychosis and also a debilitating illness, that's just the cool part about it, the not so cool part comes afterward where you just lie around for years and can't function anymore properly and have to take heavy medication and gain a lot of weight and become a neet because of it.

>>37772895
had long convos with entities that weren't technically there in my head for months, so yeah, should be possible, tulpas I mean, but wouldn't recommend. whole schizophrenia thing definitely not worth it, better to live a normal life if you can.

Pray to Jesus y'all. He might help you.
Ask and you shall receive ya dig

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>>37772966
Checked. R-roger that

>>37772966
This anon here: >>37772784

I did pray to Jesus once, then he answered and would stick with me for the coming month. Told me to clean my flat, stop smoking weed, stop visiting /x/ and stop going on 4chan alltogether, to exercise, go stop eating so much, to get a job and bascially to get my shit together. Also told me to get a bible and read it together with him. I did all of those things, but I can't be sure if it was him or just another voice in my head.

But to the voice's/jesus credit, he really helped me out. I cleaned my flat, never touched weed since, already lost 15 kg of weight, got a job, and only rarely visit 4chan again after a long time of being absent on it. He also told me other stuff I'm unsure about, that points more to it being a minor psychosis though. But hey, I take what I can get, at least I'm working again and social again because of it.

Crazy shit my mind or whatever that stuff is that's going on in there or out there or hey, I don't know man, I just go with the flow.

>>37772895
I'm OP. Always had tulpas since childhood. No, not imaginary friends (although I had those too), but actual persons with identities I don't have control over. Also have insanely intricate parocosms, down to language, timelines, streets, currencies, governments, timelines,families, lineages, literally everything in my fucking head. When I said maladaptive daydreaming I wasn't joking. I spend +6 hours a day actively daydreaming.

>>37773194
So basically a day long psychosis ?

>>37773236
I have them in 2 hour bursts but yeah bretty much, when I'm not daydreaming eg like at a lecture im only half-focused and can feel my fantasies calling me (it's a specific flute melody beckoning me forth). I end up losing focus and making bullet points of the shit I'm going to fantasize about later.

agoraphobia

>can't go out of house
>if i go too far outside my house i get imbalance,heavy breathing,sweathy hands and headache
>realized there is no cure for this
>im getting more sensitive to light,sound and touch as time goes on for no apparent reason

since when this place became therapist's 911.

can't we just talk about our dailies?

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>>37773420
>he doesn't have a mental illness

You're just a failed normie.

>>37773440
i have anhedonia.

shit posting is the least i can do to remember what its feel.

bipolar disorder type I
borderline personality disorder
autistic spectrum disorder
attention deficit disorder
a psychosomatic disorder
a sleep disorder
obsessive compulsive disorder

>>37773832
fuck my shit up senpai\

orginasl

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>>37771462
I used to have a lot of ADHDs symptoms and schizoid/avoidant PD.

At some point circa 22 y.o. I realized what my problems were caused by (hint: emotionally abusive family). So I eventually cut them off, and I got a LOT better.
I was almost cured, but then a series of shit circumstances and family influence let to me getting depressed again, getting seriously sick due to self-neglect, and then to top it all I had a "mild" (compared to clinical cases) traumatic brain injury. Now I feel like a retard 100% of the time, and it's not like the avoidant "oh i'm feeling dumb" kind of shit - I'm actually not able to perceive the world correctly, I get a "perception" tunnel vision and I get dizzy spells and other stupid shit at random times.
Right now I'm essentially completely fucked, the only thing I could count on before was my mind and intelligence, now it's gone and I'm done.

Pic unrelated, I cannot even enjoy sitting on a bench anymore, all I see is floaters, flashes and a sense impeding of doom.

>>37772784
I feel you mon

you stoped taking your meds didnt you?

>>37772966
jesus is a bady for me
when I think about him I start to think that I am him

>>37772082
are you a guy or a girl and who molested you

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>>37771462

>Paranoid personality disorder

>Shizoid disorder

>Shizotypal disorder

/Basically schizophrenic without any positive symptoms

>Ocd, tics, repeated behaviors
>pseudo catatonia, not really catatonia but it just means i can literally sit a whole day without doing anything

>Depression

>Social anxiety

>Psychosis

/Basically my disorders have disorders
Just going outside is awfully confronting

People look at me with confusion, disgust, hatred and general disdain

One disorder bleeds into the next, you develop more disorders etc

Social isolation and people wanting to hurt/abuse you leads to paradoxical cycle.

Confusion and nonacceptance from the public is the main problem,

ironic they want you to participate whilst pushing you down, they want you of all people to adapt while undermining and abusing you the second change they get.....

Currently partially in a mental hospital, can't say it helps, people in psych wards aren't much different despite their disorder
I go to school their and the teachers deal with different patients with different disorders, even among st them i still come off as the weird one. Even other patients there think i'm off, >Tfw even in a mental hospital i'm the outsider !

>>37771462
I am diagnosed with schizophrenia depression, used to have to take anti anxiety meds and there is a high chance im on the autism spectrum.
Honestly meds and therapy, sitting around in the psych ward, helped me alot short and long term.
However i feel like there is a part of it that you can never fix. While walking home late night i realised that i smoke more often while listening to favorite songs, and whenever i want to smoke i want to play my favorite songs, i connected those 2 in my brain. It led me to think about the possibility of conditioning myself into studying and developing discipline ( which i lack completely ) that way. However i soon realised that i am too lazy to fix my own lazyness. Simply not interested in improving myself in an area that matters the most and developing the most important virtue in a man. Such is life.

>>37774325
you are sick
people have been avoiding the sick since the dawn of humanity

>>37774452
kinda related like most of us here.

best fix i could do, is have a good porn and hold your cum for couple hours and keep watching more porn, then take cold shower.

or just shitposting here.

>>37774589

Yes but mental sickness isn't contagious in a strict sense

Besides your reasoning is wrong, some disorders do the opposite and actually attract people

>>37774599
Meh im fine in every aspect partially due to my intelligence *tips*. But i feel like i am wasting my potential, rather, im unable to reach it because im unable to put in the work. And it might hurt me in the future, IT is a competitive field, time will tell.

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>asperger's syndrome
>ADHD
>started my daily 27mg concerta medication week ago
>mfw feeling sluggishly drugged, but my mind is sharper than ever before

I feel like a druggie, but hey at least I feel more concentrated than ever before. I have lost about 2 kilos during this time because my appetite went down the moment I took the first pill. I feel actually pretty good, but I can definitely feel that I'm on drugs. Not high, but it's just this special feeling of "suspicious energy".
I can read, play vidya, masturbate all day long, and not get tired. My mouth is also dry as fuck.

I wish I was diagnosed with the spergs and adhd when I was a kid, I could've had been taking these pills for years now and my school grades would've been great. In other hand, I guess it's better that I grew up drug free, who knows what kind of side effects they would have on growing little boy.

>>37771462
>sluggish cognitive tempo

That's a long way of saying you're fucking dumb.

>depression
>maladaptive daydreaming
which, when combined, gives you a lot of fantasies about fucking killing yourself or being happy then wanting to kill yourself because you know you'll never be happy

>>37774315
I'm a girl(male) and it was a friend of mine

>>37775427
did you get molested in high school

did you get molested as a guy or a tranny

>37775464
Yea in freshman year
And as a tranny(he really liked that)

>>37775171
Meh, being "dumb" is an umbrella term and usually refers to genetic qualities, feeling dumb might be curable or temporary.

>>37771462
diagnosed, i've been in different psychiatric hospitals, staying 1 week up to 3 months

>relapsing depression, ranging from moderate to severe
>complex PTSD
>emtional instability, borderline
>somatisation disorder
>psychogenic synkopals
>tinnitus (although it has an organic origin)
>stress intolerance with insomnia
>ADD in adults
+ a few hormone inbalances, which have to be substituted... but apparantly extreme mood swings are normal in women :( fuck this
I stopped therapy and won't go back there, although i may visit the hospital for a few weeks again. The therapist i could talk to was unbelievable frustrating, i stopped before we asked for a cost takeover

>>37771972
What symptoms do you have regarding c-ptsd? I'm still not sure which things are caused by c-ptsd and which by depression and all the other stuff. I think the constant feeling of guilt and shame + the mistrusting of others and think poorly of myself is caused by it. I also don't remember a thing i learned during my apprenticeship and during my B. Sc. - it's like my brain wiped itself during the last 3-4 years.

I don't know if i should quit my horrible job and apply for neet-bux, visit a hospital and then apply for a new job or if i stay in that hell-hole till i kill myself.

I have (diagnosed) schizophrenia and it's not really a big deal, although some people have it worse than others. Been to a couple mental wards, do weekly therapist and talk to my psych about my meds sometimes.

They basically keep my life in line and I haven't relapsed or entered an active phase for almost a year now. It's possible if I keep working at it, they can even remove my diagnosis. I recovered from being jobless for 6 years, having PTSD from witnessing a murder-suicide, generally absent mother and father and being a high school drop out. I got a job, some cool hobbies, eat well enough, work out, and even have some friends. My grandmother and grandfather, some cousins and aunts and uncles have been there for me too so I am really lucky. Most people wouldn't be aware that I once had severe hallucinations and could hardly function.

It's not impossible or hopeless, good luck robots.