>still in school final year (18)
>applied for 30 jobs I got into a trial but got rejected, the rest were rejected
>I had my first kiss with my partner this year at 18
>I have depression, ptsd and social anxiety
>my anxiety prohibits me to do things such as hanging out with more than 2 people, and being around large crowds
>I have never been to a party before
>I have been bullied my whole school life
Is it too late?
If you've been bullied your entire life getting anxiety is normal. If most people you've met turned out like shit, why should you trust anyone else?
Why aren't you patting yourself on the back for taking the initiative in the first place to apply to 30 jobs? It's hard as fuck to do but you should be relying on happiness on things you fully control, such as the amount of times you applied. Not the outcome.
All of your friends might have an uncle that can give them a job ain two seconds, they get one with no effort at all. Theyve probably hung out with girls all their life so they kissed and lost their virginity earlier.
I mean Christ, you even have a partner? Why are you on this board? Are you asking to be swallowed in a pit of self negativity? Just to wallow in self disgust until you off yourself?
What's the point in that? If you've been born as an ugly fuck with five diseases at birth, on a wheelchair and deaf, I'd at least get why you hate life.
You're well far away from that.