The Feels are Inn

>stuck between daydreams and reality
>can distinguish the difference but don't care that I'm essentially crazy
>real life I'm just a fattening, aging, poor loser
>in dream life I'm just somebody else and everything is happy, cute, and innocent

I understand suffering is an integral part of life but I also resist it. If I had a choice to abandon this reality I would. Even if it meant leaving everyone behind. No, I mean especially if it means leaving everyone behind.

>>37736209
Maybe it's just the story teller in me, but a sad story has a much better payoff no matter the outcome. I understand the want to escape up your dreams, but maybe it's best to keep a dream journal and treat them more as your way to unwind every night rather than an escape.

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being a bartender is pretty comfy desu, wish I didn't have to clean glasses tho. anyways life is boring and lifeless as usual.

>>37736264
The thing is I don't care about payoff, I just care about being safe and comfortable for the rest of my life. It's selfish as hell but I've had it with the suffering.
I already keep a dream journal and it's not enough. I'd rather supplant my reality. Which I do, I drink and use drugs to excess also.
Trannies have body dysmorphia, I have universal dysmorphia, not a single thing about who I am and where I am is fucking right.

>>37736283
Well that's how life is. Everything can be dull and boring, it's just what you make of it that matters. Talk to your patrons much, or is it a bar too loud for that?

>>37736309
Nothing in the universe is exactly right or has any rhyme or reason, but what you put up with in life should be what you consider hurdles between Time to think and enjoy yourself. If you fall at any hurdle, all you need is someone to pick you back up.

>>37736322
on weekends is too loud for talking but on week days is pretty nice. get the occasional broken heart men/women which is pretty funny.

>>37736394
I've always sort of wanted to be the bartender of a quiet bar, talking to patrons and hearing out their problems and troubles. It's something I enjoy, as odd as it may sound, I like to cheer up and chat up people who are down.

>>37736283
as somebody who used to bartend i can confirm this. you do meet some interesting people though.

>>37736451
Any interesting characters you'd like to tell us about? I'm all ears.

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>>37736511
I know this rich autistic dude who comes in almost daily during lunch time, when he talks he half dribbles and half mumbles his words. according to him he was a DJ during his youth and now that he is retired he travels around. he sent us cards from places around the world barbados/venice/brazil. always drinks 7-10 glasses of wine and few shots of tequila. he cant even walk out half the time and once stumbled and hit his head on the door and we had to call the ambulance for him. always call me the wrong name but he claims he was only joking which desu he sounds so autistic I dont even know if he telling the truth. maybe is all ruse for neet bux.

I'm just lonely. I rushed into a sorta relationship of convenience with this girl and we had sex but she wasn't into it so I didn't even get to finish. She went on to find someone else to date and I'm missing that female touch and having someone to talk to so bad. Not only that but I acted really bitter towards her and everyone in my family lost respect for me. I honestly would've been better off right now if I never spoke to her.

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>>37736511
i can't mention any names but i can tell some stories

the bar i worked in was an old biker bar and i only worked in it for about a year and a half before i fired.

the guy that owned it was unsurprisingly an old biker. he was very gruff and was admittedly a bit thickheaded but he was one of the nicest guys i've met. i saw him personally drive patrons home when they had too much to drink and couldn't get a ride. he always had an open ear and would listen to people in the bar and give advice the best he could.
sadly he ended up dieing in a wreck when some drunk kid slammed his truck into his bike.

thee bar closed down not long after since his cunt of a daughter inherited the place and decided it would be a good idea to "clean up the place and go for a more upscale crowd." she was also the one who fired me saying i wasn't professional enough to work for her after i told her she was a dumbass and would kill the bar.

there was this old vietnam vet that would come in and would tell all kinds of stories like how he had to cut open a water buffalo and hide in it for 8 hours from those damn chinks. or how little kids would try to sell cigarettes and porn to the troops

then there was this one hippie chick with bigass beads in her deradlocks. she made some cool clay pots and states. its a shame her husband would end up beating her for stupid shit but it sure was fun watching him get his ass kicked buy a bunch of 50-70 year old bikers

the bikers were also a fun crowd and would always spend plenty of money at the bar and play pool. i only saw them make issues a few times but they were pretty cool for the most part.