Fill me in on depression

First thing to realise is that there is variable experiences of depression, but generally you feel nothing, despair, hopelessness and you become de-motivated to the point that you do nothing in life.
It's also a downward spiral, and will get worse and worse until you commit suicide or placed in a mental health ward

>>37729359
as a preface I have been depressed/in this state of mind ever since I was around 12 years old, I went through a decent amount of therapy but no meds because couldn't afford

>what's it like
most of the time mind being tired body being awake, a pit of nothingness in your heart, sometimes it weighs heavy and sometimes it hurts
zero motivation or self interest
>how long and often
depends on the person, clinical depression lasts for a long time (like in my case)
>self harm
did it once or twice, felt pretty good but I prefer emotional pain, it is a pretty huge part of it for some people certainly
>subdued or aggressive
depends on the day, but like 80% of the time it's pretty subdued at this point, no more teenager hormones fucking with the ups and downs
>active or stupor
sad stupor playing games or going about my day, sometimes i just lay in bed to make myself feel better

hope that helped you out friend, also pretty funny that you asked to be filled in on depression when depression feels empty