I'm curious

Dying seems like a lot of work and there's tv shows I still haven't seen.

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The fact that my family would be devastated if I offed myself.

literally the only thing keeping me alive is that I am too cowardly to kill myself

I spend every single day wishing someone would just break into my house and shoot me

>>37718194
If this is it, might as well milk it.

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>>37718194
My HALO helmet, oversized clothing, and assortment of geek merchandise

>>37718194
joining her in avalon at the end of my life

>>37718194
I have many:
1) I've got a lot of shit to do, and am not ready to leave yet.
2) I want to see the future.
3) My waifu won't be w/ me in Hell.
4) Same as 3, but add family, and material possessions. I wanna see my cousins grow.

>>37718194
I want to have an honorable death.

attention from men and the validation they give me desu

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>>37718224
That was my motivation until I realized she would never love me back.

None, I just try to distract myself from that fact.

i want to try my luck with the online bf
im not gonna kill myself before he is gone

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>>37718272
shut your mouth

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Religion keeps me going. Also predestiny if u wanna search that shit up.

Honestly I dont think about much. If I do I just stay awake all night. Just saying OP If u need someone to chat to

Also the DMG

>>37718272
Are you the Saber-posting anon that had a thread the other day?

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>>37718286
I want to be with her just as much as you do, probably even more. I write fucking poems about how much I love her. She means everything to me

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Living is a problem. But dying is a pain in the ass.
I wish i could just vanish

>>37718214
This. But i try to keep that in mind as a motivation and not as something bad. I'm trying to make them feel proud of having me all those years.

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>>37718318
I want to make her many sweet potatoes and she will love them. she will god damnit

>>37718194
I'm not a gambling man, I have no idea what's after death if anything at all. Why risk it, I rather play in the realm where I know what's going on to a certain degree.

>>37718194
my guardian angel/imaginary girlfriend
we like to play pretend together in bed and I try to make her happy

also my life is too good right now for suicide to make any sense

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>>37718194
>What's your motivation for living?
anime,vidya, programming, curious to see what happens next.

Coming home to see my dog.

>>37718194
I've yet to find the truth.

my shitty mother would be left to take care of my siblings

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>>37718214
>>37718328

These. But to be honest I'm lost. I've lost what motivation I used to have. Just living to be living.

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>>37718341
I just wanted to hold her hand and go on a walk through a park or go on a scenic drive with her

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>>37718194
>>37718272
>>37718286
>>37718318
>>37718341
I feel like Saber would be a really cool person to hang out with. Not in a waifu/sexual way, but in a chillin' way
>tfw you will never spend hours listening to her tales of her adventures as the king of britian and how she pulled off the greatest ruse of all history

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>saberfags
i just want to protect illya's smile

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>>37718194
Just don't have an easy way out, most ways would be insanely gruesome and I'd risk traumatizing others, not really my plan.
But every day when I use the train I do think of jumping in front of it or hitting up the rails at night.

I work all day, abandoned all RL friends, I'm always in physical pain and the weekends aren't enough. The money is lost to bills and taxes, I barely eat, I get emotions out of vidya but that's it. It's hard to keep the mask up at work because not only am I actually physically hurt with not way of fixing it I'm also extremely sad at times that I get anxiety attacks so I get actual stings near my heart and I have to excuse myself.

I try to enjoy the small things in life, sometimes I smile but never with someone, usually on my own. Most co-workers don't even speak the language here so I'm even alone at work. Don't really care for my family either but have been raised to have "morals" and the feel of guilt. Never asked to be born, always been a problem child and now I'm sitting here still suffering.

It's ridiculous how you can live in a first world country but have like no ambitions whatsoever, wanting to be gone. I just hate it.

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I believe that I can be redeemed, and I believe that I can escape Hell.

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>>37718194
I wanna experience how much better life can be when I move out of my mom's house and when I don't have to work ever again and can just do whatever the hell I want every day.

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>>37718272
iktf

>swore I'd get better for waifu
>a year later and I've sunken even farther into degeneracy and failure

just. just. just just just fuck my shit up.

>>37718194
whore of babylon

leaving that behind

>to kill GOD
>*tips fedora*

>>37718768
It doesn't get much better. Sure, having more freedom is fun, but you also have more responsibilities and you're problems don't just go away because you have your own place

I don't have any. I attempted suicide but I'm a loser fuckup and it didn't work out. It was really scary and I can't bring myself to try again and finish the job.

>>37718194
My motivation is to say that I've did it. As far as I know, this could be it. As soon as my brain shuts down, that's it. It's over.

I want to pave my own way and be more successful in life than my father ever was, I just want him to be impressed with me for once in his life. Although everything I try ends in failure.

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>>37718801
>more responsibilities.
Like what? It can't be that much harder to do my own laundry and dishes occasionally.

>>37718894
i guess it depends on where you live but you have an hoa you gotta pay utilities and property taxes, all kinds of shit. It's better if you have an apartment

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Living and feeling like shit about myself is better than offing myself and hurting my family.

That and I keep hoping that someday I won't feel like I'm an irreparably damaged human.

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>>37718798
Babylon is the city of heavenly sin

>>37719012
hey where is this from

>>37719045
It's a fate stay night doujin, I think it's called unlimited saber works

I want to get a black belt in BJJ

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>>37718951
Yeah I plan on living in an apartment or somewhere where I don't have to pay much in taxes. That's not a big concern for me anyway.

maybe it gets better and I can't take my life because I want my siblings (they are just kids) to have normal life. The suicide of close relative is not part of the normal life

>>37718194
Femanon here
I want to have kids and meet new people. The world has some stuff that i genuinely find interesting and awww inspiring and really want to see.

My waifu would be disappointed that I killed myself whenever I see her in the afterlife.

>>37718194
A)Going out with a bang
B)saving lives

>>37718194
femanon here

I just want a good looking guy who will impregnate me with his genes and will give me his money

>>37718194
Witnessing the 2016 election but one he'll of a ride but now that things have mostly settled down I don't know anymore.

>>37718194
acquiring knowledge is my motivation (any kind of knowledge)

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>>37719656
are you going to kys when trump gets btfo soon?

>>37719362
>My waifu
Whos your waifu?

original

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>>37719656
>>37719744
>taking your life because of politics

>>37719235
>>37719637
>roasties hijack thread
>omg it's all about babies, travel, and moneyyyy
>thread goes to shit

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>>37719744
>Kill smy self before President Mike "20,000,000 jolts" Pence's Pride Month Massacre
I don't think so

I've always wanted to be a soldier, so I lost like 80 pounds.

tfw 19 and still virgin but at least had 1 gf so my self esteem hasn't hit rock bottom yet.

>>37718194
I wish i actually had one, but I'm actually just a passenger in my own life. I have a bunch of people that care about me and enjoy having me around, and I have enough talents that I'll be able to stay comfortable and keep the people around me happy.

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>>37718194
sounds gay but mostly just to ride it out. my life is good right now and attempting suicide helped a lot to be fairly honest

Death is inevitable i'd rather take the entire human experience as it is, doesn't matter if its shit or not.

When I die none of it will matter anyway.

Can't get drunk and watch shitty anime if I'm dead

>>37718194
to know more, to understand more, to enjoy pleasant things, to see the world change

I'm really not sure at this point. I really just wake up to work out, pray for greater obstacles, and eat. Nothing entertains me and it feels like I'm just waiting to see how bad things can get for myself and the world as I slowly descend down the slippery slope of authoritarian moralism.

>>37718194
probably my family desu. I just want to end myself but I don't want my mum to be sad. What is even the point man, everything is just too much. The world is a lot better without me. Fuck.

>>37718194
Dunno anon, no real motivation but there is a few things here that I enjoy

>>37718194
I'm too lazy too die, it takes too much effort.

>>37718194
Survival instincts mostly.

>>37721501
I've tried this but I can't follow the subs when I'm drunk. Do you watch dubs?

I get drunk and watch let's plays on YouTube instead

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>>37718194
my dream of owning a anime wifu sex robot & living forever in Elon Musks utopia

I want to win

The fact that my singular friend said he would kill himself if I died
That and family

>>37722886
Not gonna happen. They did this big expo/debate thing over the eventual legality of it all.
While the robotics are promising the actual legal and public view on it is not.
As it stands america and europe have laws in place that are obsure and vaguely worded enough to prevent human cloning and serious genetic alterations that they'd also cover making sexbots and the like illegal. You might not even be able to keep them as platonic live-in companions.

Tl;dr move to asia but then why not just grab an asian girl they literally throw themselves at you for being white.

>>37722977
>america and europe
thank god I don't live anywhere near those countries

>>37718194
My mom. Me suiciding would be unfair to her and cause her pain.
I hate my life and there's nothing else that would make me want to stick around.

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>>37718194
Going fast

>tfw no matter how many seconds I shave off of my times, I still can't outrun my misery

none xdd

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my prime motive for not killing myself is to witness the singularity and ai coming into existence. i think its a fucking sin against GOD to kill yourself right now, and just yesterday i was so depressed i coudlnt move out of my bed

not that my feelings for god are that great one way or another, but still, i try having a relationship with him

otherwise im trying to get a gf. lately ive started believing in god and getting better in most ways. meditation, exercising, no fap, etc. for the longest time i just gave up but in 2017 for some reason ive been try harding to become a normie, and im the hardest robot in this thread easily

i dont know. maybe ill ascend and become chad, maybe i wont. so much suffering regardless of which road i choose

fuck

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"eh, fuck it, might as well see what happens"

>>37723421
as if that would happen in your lifetime, kek.

Its like 1 or 2 generations ahead of us you dingus

>>37723001
Uk as well is in europe. But other than that the coast seems clear for now though canada and mexico were in agreeance with "no".

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>>37723469
shut up moron, dont speak about things you know nothing about

its going to get extremely uncomfortable in the 2030's with mass automation, and in the 2040's is when real ai will come into existence

its going to be wonderful. literally billions of unemployable normies with nothing to do and no ways to fuck you over. outclassed in every single way possible by ai

ai ascending into god status and having basically unlimited power in front of your eyes

normie and the general human way of life will become obsolete

its going to be wonderful

>>37718194
I haven't seen the Master Chiefs face yet. Idc if I have to go all Grey Mann and shit to do it either.

Metroid Prime 4 got announced at E3, I'm waiting to play it before I finally kill myself

>>37718194
I don't have one. I keep joining and then immediately leaving communities. I plan to kill myself in a few months.