>feels
get in here boys
anybody relate to this?
>>37656283
How has someone not said such a simple fucking sentence before I'm fucking bamboozled
We are all in hell.
There is no escape.
>>37656245
Listening to this, and god it sounds so much like me, and a lot here.
https://youtu.be/Fg1itMOQOFo
>>37656283
I've only ever once dreamed my mom was cured of her litany of chronic illnesses and I wasn't lucid at all so I believed it deeply in that moment. When I woke up I started crying.
So I guess I do know that feel.
Reminder that the cure to sadness is moe
My hands are warm
But my heart is so very cold
Another 2 days without Internet at home. How the hell am I supposed to survive that. I have already cleaned the whole bathroom
WHISPERS
IN THE AIR
>>37656245
the feels,
i can't even jerk it, feelorino to much tonite.
The more time goes on, the less I can ignore how desperately I want to be with people. Not just in a
>Tfw no gf
way, but with people in general. Just hanging out and taking to people, genuinely. The more I talk with my friends and people I know, the more paranoid I get, and that fucking seed of imposter syndrome roots itself a little bit deeper. Nothing ever feels genuine anymore. I want to feel something real. Something deep and emotional that I haven't felt since I've been with her... I don't even necessarily want HER back so much as I just want SOMEONE who can make me feel real again and who I don't have to pretend around.
*sigh* I guess tonight's one of those nights where I'm just fucking sad.
h-hey sad cunts I have a question
>walking down the street
>random group of girls about to pass me by
>one of them says hi to me
>shout "HELLO HAHA" and run away
what did they mean by this?were they making fun of me?
Gosh here's some mild ramblings:
I turned 27 last week. Another year alone, another year trapped within the curse that is existence. I never asked for the wild ride of sapience. I am ready to die but I am not ready to become an hero. I am very much a walking automaton, my biological organic control system completing algorithms to keep me intent yet the dissociation creeps in.
My immediate concerns involve my misaligned jaw which I cannot afford to have fixed since I live poor in America so lolnohealthcare, completing graduate school, and obtaining financial stability.
Currently, I am high and played vidya earlier but now am jerking off. I need to refill my cup with lemonade since I am nearly out. Also, I had a weird "right place wrong time" experience with a girl.
What do you do about off and on oneitis? Most of the time I can live my life and not think about her, but when she comes up, she's almost all I have on my mind. It's been this way for over 10 years. I've tried to hit it off with her years ago, she wasn't interested, and came out as lesbian not long after. By all accounts I should just be over those feelings but they won't go away. The only thing I'm grateful for is that no other women have been interested in me. I'd feel terrible if I were overlooking someone because of dumb shit like this. I deserve any mental kicking I get for being this retarded.
>>37658857
Depends on their facial expression. But even then they could have been mocking you, as women are by default very two-faced people.
>>37659067
some of the girls giggled when she said hi so I think they were
>>37658058
TELL THE TALES
OF THE BROTHERS GONE
>>37659211
Oh shit I fucked I'm so sorry
>>37658857
Don't think anything of it anon, they're just pissing about.
>>37658857
Yes, probably.
They knew that you were going to react that way. Next time just reply "Hi", maybe don't even look at them and keep going, that will make you look good. Don't overthink it, it's simple.
>>37656245
you got the picture without the text ??
>>37656283
Same thing happened to me last month. I had a dream where I was in a place like pic related with long ancient greek pillars. Then, I saw my best friend that I haven't see in a year. He looked at me and said "This is for you, anon. "All of the sudden this long verision of Crockett's theme from Miami Vice started playing. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bz4vWvuPXKY
The same ancient greek pillars were changing in different colors like a light show. Me and him were staring at the scenic view of galaxies and stars above us. We stayed like that until the song ended, that's were I woke up. I was very eager to call him to check up on him but I them I remembered that he's dead.
>>37656245
that's the dumbest thing i'v'v've ever read
>when you whisper "kill me" to yourself in public whenever something or someone is a bit loud
>>37658936
hey, tell us about that experience you had with the girl
>>37656245
Two finals today that I didn't study for. I hate my life, I knew they were coming up but I did absolutely nothing in the past week to prepare for them.
I don't know why I'm so unmotivated anon, I can't even discipline myself....
On the bright side... I met a femanon and we're getting along really well...
>>37658983
feelsbadman I don't know what to tell you anon, if she's a lesbean I'd say do what you can to get over her... or.. just tell her about the situation you're in and see if she can help...