Anybody else have this vague feeling that they've had since

I also have a childhood reminiscing feeling. It's this strong, yet comforting loneliness. I have flashbacks of cuddling with my mom every time I get this feeling. It's weird, cause I feel lonely, yet why would I have felt lonely while cuddling with my mom back then.

Maybe it's because I know no one else will ever love me.

>>37630404
I have this feeling that it's an addiction to sadness thing

I've had recurring fever dreams where I'm standing on a catwalk (like the ones at theaters, not the fashion runway kind) which is surrounded by a dark void.

I know this is gonna sound like i'm trying to be edgy, but i'm not


I remember whenever i was mad at my mom, brother, kids at school. or anyone/thing at all, i would hope to one day live a life where i didn't need to be around people any more than i wanted to
I also remember that i wanted to make the rage i had at those times part of myself, like i was trying to nourish it every time i got mad

>>37630368
I remember that dream. One night. I didn't need many sheets. Probably spring or summer. I bury my face in the corner of the wall (which is stuck to the bed). Then I just lie there. My bed is hanging by a rope.A sniper shoots that rope. Then there's a seemingly unending fall into the universe. Into space. My bed falls but stays straight and it rotates while it falls. I don't worry. I'm lying on my bed, safe. I have that sinking feeling.

That was the comfiest moment of my existence. I wish there was a way I could re-live that moment.

>>37630554
I once cried while reading a goosebumps book about vampires

>>37630509
stagefright, maybe?

>>37630589
My guess is that it was hypnogogia, basically the act of falling asleep, but you're conscious enough to notice it
You could probably achieve it again if you really tried some sort of meditation, but it might not be so easy

>>37630642
Why?
What was so sad about the book?

>>37630368
i don't have that but i knew even as a kid that i was gonna be a loser.
Dunno how to feel about that

>>37630677
>stagefright, maybe?
No idea. I feel like I'm getting sick, so I might get the dream tonigh