i keep coming here expecting to find something new. Maybe i really am autistic because ive always been standoffish and really cold to anyone who ever got close but for some reason i smile more at this empty page than my own mother. i shaved my head 2 days ago and now im seeing it, i can really see that i dont have a chance and that its literally impossible for me to truly find peace, every female who ever showed me love i know deep down that they moved from our time together all those years ago and i just want someone to yell at me and punch my jaw in and call me the worst oh and
>feels thread