>tfw just want to run away from everything
I know that feel, bro. I am working on it. After I realized that I don't have the guts to kill myself, I am planning on finding work abroad and leaving everything and everyone behind. Funny, because I don't really have anything or anyone.
Are you a native English speaker? If yes, you can easily find work abroad as an English teacher. It's way easier if you have a college degree, to get a visa and stuff.