I miss my best friend. She killed herself almost 2 years ago,

>>37595965
A friend of mine killed herself about a year ago too.

don't blame yourself anon
in the end it was her decision
just use what you learned to help the next person that comes into your life

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>>37595979
Do you want to talk about it/her?

>>37595992
I don't. It was brought on by her shitty home life with her shitty family, but I just wish I wasn't a worthless NEET and could've sent her money to start her life. Inb4 beta, it wouldn't have costed much, maybe a thousand or two. She was definitely worth it.

I also could've been a more attentive and heartfelt friend. She vented suicidal thoughts like a lot of us do, but I wasn't thoughtful enough to make a difference. I should've taken her more seriously, as she had legit diagnosed mental issues and she got NEETbux. Though I can honestly say I'm a better person having known her.

>>37595965
Well anon, mind telling us more wbout your close friend?

>>37596142
She was a waifu tier THICC qt that was a robot and non-judgemental without being a doormat, someone you could trust and share things with. Could give each other shit like bros and talk about anything, like who we thought was attractive, share porn links, and talk about nothing and anything, and our lives/childhoods. She liked vidya and weed. We unfortunately were in shitty places in life and only talked online due to distance, but otherwise I would've totally dated/wifed her. She's the only death I've ever cried to, remembering her when watching an emotional TV moment, and even surprised myself when I remembered I cried to her in my sleep a few hours after the fact. I just miss her and think about her all the time. I think about her like she's cheering me on/watching over me when I'm recovering from NEEThood with my shitty dishwashing job. I know she'd want the best for me and wouldn't want me to be sad, but I still miss her.

>>37596285
That sounds horrible to experience. I cant really give you anything becides my words, I hope things get better for you.

>>37595965
My best friend died of a drug overdose but talked about killing himself frequently so it honestly might've been suicide I'll never know it's been almost a decade since it happened too sorry that your friend died anon shit sucks and it does start to hurt less with time

>>37596285
Either I've heard you tell this story before or other anons have experienced something familiar.

Sounds like you guys really loved each other and she would be proud you are moving forward.

>>37596311
Horrible to experience someone that close dieing(is what I mean)

>>37596311
Thanks, bro.

>>37596318
Sorry, bud. My friend likely made the decision beforehand to off herself after a particularly shitty family interaction when she'd get her government meds/NEETbux the following month. I'll never know for sure, but it was most likely an OD off of opiates.

>>37596363
I have talked about it/her before, so that might be the case. She would be proud and I'd want to make her proud regardless, but it's too late for that bullshit.

You talked to a suicidal NEET fembot and didn't save her? What the fuck? I would have made enough money for her to live happily in your situation.

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You could kill yourself and be with her in heaven.
just a suggestion, don't freak out guys

This thread made me unbearably sad. I'm sorry that happened. All I can say is that it'll get better with time, and I really do hope you find someone or something to give you the feelings she did.

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>>37595965
Im sorry to be an ass, but if she took her life she wasnt really a good friend. Life tends to suck, but she also left you with a broken heart. Thats just selfish.
Sorry for your loss though, anon.

>>37596780
fucking normie get off my board
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>>37596780
As pain cannot be quantified, it's impossible to say whether or not her continuing to live would have been more painful than anons heartbreak. Therefore suicide is neither selfish nor selfless.

>>37596796
wow i can't believe i'm the first person to post that

>>37596800
Pain can't be quantified? You are retarded. My distress at not being able to beat you senseless with a baseball bat might be more painful than several baseball bat shots to your head and body, so whether this should happen or not is neutral

>>37595965
I'm sorry for your loss, anon.

My current best friend constantly talks about killing himself but I'm always there to encourage him and talk him out of it. I don't know what I would do if he ever killed himself. He's the only one I love and the only one I would do so much for. I've even gone as far as wiring him money so he could reduce his credit card debt and his money related stress. I only hope that it's enough for him to stick around, if he was gone I think I would follow.

>>37596796
Aw man even that ree feels so sad

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>>37596833
But you have no right to harm another person, only yourself. It is therefore a false equivalence. You are free to relieve this distress by giving a few baseball bat shots to your own head and body however.

>>37596863
Are you sure you don't hurt others that care about you when you hurt yourself?

>>37596863
But she harmed him by killing herself. Is it fine to be as evil as you want and do whatever you please as long as you don't physically hurt others? What if a girl seduces you, makes you fall for her irrevocably, until you love her more than anything, and then she continuously hurts herself and blames you explicitly and convincingly for it? She would cause you extreme mental and emotional pain, almost unfathomable.

>>37596910
Intent matters. For example, emotional abuse is still bad because it's a purposeful act of aggression to harm someone else. Suicide is merely to end ones own pain. If someone killed themselves just to harm another, then it would be bad.
>>37596936
Refer to above

Man, stories like this always make me sad, my condolences for your friend man

>>37596780
Yep, I was waiting for someone to post the obvious.