What turned you

I was born a robot, my friend, it could never have been any different

When i was five,i was bitten by a spider on my penis and every night from that day forward i have had visions of a demon like spider creature that has told me what to do. I compulsively do what it says because it is the only thing in my life that has not hurt me me physically or mentally. I have never been normal and i dont think i ever will be.

>>37578737
I was born.
>Unsurprisingly unoriginal.

I had several events that totally shattered my identity, one after another, resulting me being shunned from various groups of people. Finally I was considering suicide -- right when things were on an upswing I got fired. It was during that time of unemployment I found myself on 4chan and was involuntarily redpilled on fucking everything. Once you actually understand what the fuck is going on in the world, it just becomes impossible to articulate your concerns and beliefs without being shunned by society as a whole. So here I am.

I got diagnosed with autism spectrum disorder when I was four

Being a NEET with little to no social contact for long periods of time in your youth fucks you up permanently

>>37578737
i was always beta robot
but hs really got me down
commuting took about one extra hour of anxiety one way
i had lietrally 0 friends in new school and made none
normies and chads started to really stand out
drinking, parties etc.
it was when facebook got really big
i was like a dead man in there

A series of unfortunate events.. and my already weird brain

I just come here for the entertainment value

I started posting here because I was sad about a girl whom I dumped Feels like a bereavement, honestly.

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I was raised pretty much in isolation in a heavily rural area so by the time I started school I was already a "robot".

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Riding past this kids house that got bullied a lot in school, go visit him next day, introduced me to Minecraft. sat on my ass played Minecraft all day, got fat, got into cod, here i am now

I was myself

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Experienced love once
>Best feeling
>Literally felt like I met god
>Ended Mutually because she moved to a different country to study
>A year goes by
>Try to move on
>First Gf cheats on me
>"Okay probably just a bad apple"
>Another year
>Second Gf
>She breaks up with me
>Asks if she wants to get back together a month later
>Say no
>Police knocking on my door asking if I raped her
>Go through trial
>Let go because she had zero evidence
>Family ostracized me
>No friends
>Move to new city

Now I work a wagecuck job to feed myself and my multiple pets.

Pic related is my bird

>>37579628
Did you sue her for making a false police report or some shit?

I was shunned by my entire school grade because of a misunderstanding between a girl. Mild autism made handling conversations awkward.

>>37578737
It either was in middle school when I was bullied every day and had no friends or high school where I had my first panic attack, lost all of my friends, and became a shut in for 6 months.

>>37579628
cool birb anon

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Anyone feel like they might not have been such a robot before social media or instant messaging, where there was only phone and face to face contact?

acne, 10 years ago.

>no friends
>guy everyone hates
>currently have no relationship with a girl or otherwise
>butt of the joke
>no personality

Should I go on?

>be me
>homeschooled until 18, never left the house
>only human interaction is with family
>older brother is emotionally abusive autist
>parents don't give a damn what older brother does, punish me instead everytime he misbehaves
>turn away from family and choose the presence of cats over people
>all of my cats are gruesomely murdered by bunch of dogs my idiot family took in
>no longer capable of becoming emotionally attached to anyone due to problems with trust & fear of loss

I was always a weirdo, but erectile dysfunction was the icing on the cake. Since I discovered I can't get laid without medication everything went to crap.

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>>37578737
When I broke up with my cheating boyfriend all of our friends were mutual. They were kinda pissed off at me for not staying with him, rather than disowning him for cheating on me.

It was either be in a miserable relationship for the rest of my life (eventually marriage) but keep all of my friends, or be happily single with nobody.

I chose the single life. It's been two years and only 1 friend stayed with me, we see each other every like 4 months. Besides work this is my main source of social interaction.

>>37578737
My father beat me with a ruler

>>37581279
Something similar happened to me in high school. I guess I never fully recovered and it's been 10 years

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I was a 100% asperger king robot in highschool. then got my shit together somewhat.

but now? honestly? getting dumped. literally happened a month ago.

three years of being a stable individual and then bam, it's over.

back to being a loser who does nothing all day.

reminds me of my highschool years, when I had no friends.

>>37581279
you deserved it for dating chad
not very original i guess

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>>37581370
Once you make yourself happy it isn't so bad. I hope to find another boyfriend who can be my best friend as well. 10 years is a little much, anon

>>37578737
I think I would had been at least a cyborg if my parents hadn't dropped me from school at 12 and spend the following 6 years alone in my room playing computer games from 8 PM to 8 AM. If they had the time or consideration to properly instill good habits in me and at the very least home school me and bring me around other kids I might've been alright.

Now I'm strange and struggling hard to do things productive normal people do with ease and without thought.

>>37578737
Middle school when everyone was socialising i was playing stupid vidya in my house and whenever I tried to go out with the neighbourhood kids i was always anxious af

>>37578737
being poor, having shitty teeh, severe body and face asymetry atfer I grew up

and of course, dropping out of college

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>>37581394
>assuming only chads cheat

He was an autist with a porn/sex addiction, once he started to get stressed out in his life he needed more sex that I had no time to give him. He found a desperate lady on plenty of fish, a typical single mom who had three kids yet was 23. She didn't know about me.

>>37581438
It had more to do with losing a friend group. I'm still not invited when they all get together once a year. I'm fine.

I'll be your new bf if you're qt, femanon.

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>>37581487
Once a year isn't bad, I see them having fun every weekend because it's plastered on social media. They don't hate me and we'll say hi if we run into each other, we just can't keep in contact.

I'm already seeing a guy, our 24th date is this weekend at a fair. Hopefully he'll ask me out.

>>37581530
Yeah but why not date me instead? I've got a nice average benis and I'm a good bf.

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>>37578808

Same here friend. Lost my best friends. Pain is real.

Have you figured out how to get rid of that pain in your chest yet?

What is definition of robot?

Generally just an autist?

>>37578737

>>37581279

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>>37581530
>turning down a nice robot for a Chad

REEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE GET OUT

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>>37578737
>be first day of kindergarten
>walk into class exited for the start of my school journey
>see other kid with the same first name
>happily say "Hi Anon, I'm Anon! We should be friends because we have the same name!
>he looks at me blankly
>"Just because we have the same name doesn't mean we should be friends."
>don't make a real friend until middle school when I meet another robot

It also took me many years before I learned to contain my autism, and a few after that to get good at it.

>always social anxiety
>very few friends throughout school
>school friends, not real friends
>no social interactions
>social anxiety got worse
>friends disappear over the years
>must be my fault, I must be a terrible person
>AvPD
>4chan, redpilled, /existentialcrisis/ = atheist, nihilist
>depression
>years go by with nofriends
>at uni, try making friends
>no contact
>I was right, I am a shit person
>AvPD, depression intensifies
Feels lonely man

>>37578737

Pretty much >>37578750 but then again I'd say it was largely because I have a medical condition and I blame that for stopping my enjoyment of things and becoming a total normie.

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>>37581593
>Turning down a guy I've been going on 23 dates with for NEET online I have never spoken to, don't know the location of, and seen a picture of.

>>37581724
I'm not a neet, I'm a respected professional. I was willing to give you a chance without seeing you. DROPPED

>>37581686
>drop out of college
>reach your ceiling of potential at 25yo and $30k/yr
>Life is completed.
>No point in doing this for another x years or until you die in an accident anyway
>Suicidal depression
My present is your future.

>>37578737
Born with Autism, so was a robot from the start.

>>37581724
You do not belong here. Get out. Get. Out.

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>>37578737
I was never good at making friends and spent most of primary school and high school alone. My habits of never talking to anyone or approaching strangers out of the blue have pretty much become a permanent part of my behaviour. Nearly every online friend I've had eventually stopped talking to me, so I don't even talk to people in games or anything either. Getting into a relationship is unthinkable to me because I can't even maintain healthy friendships.

I'm now 25 years old and my last group of friends stopped inviting me to things. That was two years ago. I work from home and I never meet people or have to deal with them if I don't want to. I don't have crippling anxiety or sperg out if I have to go outside, but I've just come to accept that I'm never going to be accepted by anyone except family.

>>37581774
I'll try not to, I've got a dream I'm pursuing, creative work. Nil desperandum and all that.

>only child
>only interacted with adults pretty much until about age 4
>school starts, great with adult but have trouble socializing with kids my own age
>only ever have 1-2 friends at a time
>they move away a lot so spend a lot of time by myself
>always be that outspoken kid who is loud and expresses self
>buy into every meme about being confident, believe in yourself, never succumb to peer pressure, follow the rules, all that shit
>told I'm great by parents and teachers and believe it
>At end of elementary we have to move far from all my friends and family for my dad's job
>start middle school a month late, end up crying in front of the whole grade
>bullying starts, mostly passive aggressive from stacys but never too bad, but school feel a like a hostile place
>realize I'm dumb, awkward and ugly
>confidence shattered
>make one friend in seventh grade but I'm increasingly unstable and treat friend like shit
>friend eventually gets sick of my shit
>from there until the end of the school year I have some sort of mental break
>paranoid all the time
>bizarre anxiety attacks in class but teacher never seems to notice (classmates sure noticed, ha)
>everyday is hell where I either feel angry, terrified or nothing
>think I'm just going insane, too scared to tell anyone
>failing classes, my parents just yell at me instead of trying to understand or help
>finally school year ends, everything just goes away soon after
>be depressed she'll of myself doing nothing all summer
>eventually decide to move on with life and pick myself up
>permanent emotional damage, don't really trust people anymore
>from there on no one ever ducks with me but no one wants to get to know me either
>never really connect with anyone again, ghost my way through life

And here I am.

>>37581876
It hurts because I can feel it too...
cant associate myself with shit instead of what Im reading here yet I know Im not a robot

>>37578737
Parents put me into special needs class cuz I had adhd. I thought that the other kids thought I was stupid. So I started to overcompensate and turn into an arrogant prick. Everyone hated me by the time I was in HS and in normal classes.

I had a huge overbite. This killed my self confidence. I never tried to make friends, I never tried to get a girlfriend and I never tried to get a job. I'm trying to change but things look bleak.

>>37581563
donuts, bruh

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>>37578737
>What specifically made you a robot
you're born a robot you faggot
now get the fuck out

I'm either average or below average at everything, and am fucking awkward during social interactions. Also other things about me physically.

>>37578737
Ever since I was a kid I hid and ran from people, and always felt like a lesser person compared to everyone else. I grew up with an inferiority complex for some reason and it never went away.

I'm better with friends than I used to be but I still constantly feel like a burden to be around.