Hospitalization Experiences

I was there for 6 days. Was comfy but was a ton of bullshit

>>37544519
what did you spatter out, anon?

Yep. Last time I had a proper hospitalization was last May. I was there for less than a week. They couldn't do anything for me.
Apparently it was bad enough to get me admitted but not bad enough to let me stay there for longer

>>37544533
I talked about my heavy depression and how I didn't care whether I was alive or dead.

>>37544554
Yeah generally they don't like hearing that.

>>37544519
I was close to but I read up on what they're often like. Pretty much said "fuck that shit" and just kept telling them I'm fine until I decided going was a waste of time, I was around 14 for that. If I got some of that shit on my record my life would be over, and I'd at least like a chance before I flip out and lose it or whatever.

7 days waiting for a bed in an emergency room, 14 days in the psychotic ward (max allowed by the state unless the judge is having a bad day and decides to extend) and 6 months of mandatory therapy twice weekly afterward. All around awful experience. Never go on an involuntary status unless you want to be confined with violent unpredictable psychotic patients.

>>37544592
I heard about those experiences, I'm so sorry.
I had to wait five hours or so for a bed.

>>37544619
The amazing thing is that the court psychologist came by after day 5 and convinced me to switch my status to involuntary to "find a bed easier." My public defender basically told me how bad I fucked up within a few hours (I could have been in and out in three days if I kept my status voluntary). Apparently they manipulate patients like this to get more insurance money.

>>37544690
Yeah, I don't want to tell you how deep I'm in trouble financially right now.

>>37544519
This is why I don't want to go to a therapist. I really doubt they can do anything. I don't want drugs. Guns are just about the only thing I enjoy anymore and involuntary psych admission disqualifies you from (((legally))) buying a gun. I "could" buy them privately but then I just put other people at risk.

I don't want to lie either. I try not to lie as much as possible. My mom wants me to go. I'm more interested in just leaving; as in just walking somewhere with some possessions and seeing how long I last.

I don't know. But if I end up in the psych ward I'm probably going to kill myself

>>37544519
no one can help us we can only help ourselves through meditation and getting to know ourselves

>>37544519
Can someone please help me find the source on that pic? Reverse image search only gives me "make a gun and shoot yourself". I think it could be K-On? Mio in a flashback or something? Haven't found any Mio flashbacks where she's that small though.

>>37544746
Nvm found it. It's Mio, halfway K-On! S1E6.