>Writing
>Write a word and it looks terrible
>Erase it and try again
>Still looks horrible
>Repeat 5 times
>Still looks horrendous
>Why even bother
>>37529528
>paper where you messed up is now covered in eraser marks and crinkled marks
>>37529558
>Erase a huge section from my page
>Didn't hold the paper tight enough
>Eraser ripped the paper
>Have to constantly erase mistakes
>Table is covered in pieces of eraser
>People can see the desperation, stupidity and struggle from the mess alone
>The used pens and didn't bring whiteout
>Want to learn to draw
>Serious studies are fucking boring and tedious
>They end up looking like shit
>Draw from photo reference
>It's shit
>Try to draw from a drawn reference
>It's shit
>Attempt to draw from imagination
>My designs are all horrible, unimaginative, and look like shit
>Play video games/watch anime/post
>Feel dissatisfaction/guilt
>Practice drawing
>Feel like it's a hopeless struggle that will lead me nowhere
>See amazing drawing made by a 15 year old
>Feel envy
>See amazing drawing made by someone around my age who has been "drawing since ever"
>Feel guilt for wasting so much time
I hate this fucking bullshit
All I want to do is draw waifus, jesus fucking christ
>Use pen instead
>Dust and ink accumulates on the pen tip
>It leaves huge blobs of ink on the paper every time you write
>You have to brush the pens on your sleeve every word to remove the build up
>People can see the bar-code of pens swipes on your shirt
>It still looks like shit and they doubt you even have your pen license
Writing and drawing and fucking gay do something useful with your time.
>>37529683
Like what?
Not being able to learn to draw makes me feel like no matter what I do I am destined to a life of mediocrity as yet another ideas guy.
>Use a mechanical pencil
>Wear down the lead so it glides perfectly on the paper
>Accidental drop it, the lead tip always breaks
>Wear it down again
>Accidental rotate the pencil 0.01745329 radians
>Go to write
>Your now writing on the sharp and jagged tip
>It imprints the paper so much that erasing it won't remove your ugly writing
>Have to wear down the lead tip again
>There's frantic scribbles on the side of every page of you wearing down the tip
>>37529658
Try to just draw for enjoyment and set small achievable goals. You'll get better the longer you do it no matter what.